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NO SLEEP FOR YOU!
Another night of shitty sleep. I’m very tired right now but can’t doze off to save my life. In the meantime I’d like a few sausage links, order of hash browns with cheese (and maybe a few splash...
Sandpaper And Iodine
My friggin’ left foot is itching so bad. I got a bug bite, figures. It dawned on me earlier that today is double digits, ten days sober. Awesome! I’m still having the urge to get stoned but ...
Three Good Deeds
Went and widdled in the cup this morning. Even the guy administering the test was surprised I was called twice in a row. After, I sucked it up and went to New Horizons and filled out the paper...
Seriously?
Just called the color code line. I get to pee AGAIN in a cup this morning. 🙄
Beached Whale
Another factoid since quitting pot/alcohol, I’ve been putting away a lot more food. Granted it’s been veggies as I’ve been cooking more but tonight I over did it in fajitas. When not taking in ...
Scared?
I went and did my alcohol/drug screening this morning. I was going to go to New Horizons and do the assessment for the outpatient program but I chickened out. I don’t know why I’m so apprehensi...
Widdle In A Cup
My color got called today. I’ll go around eight-ish for the drug/alcohol screening. Didn’t sleep too good last night. Still very tired.
Seven Days
No weed and no alcohol. Woo hoo!!!
General Emptiness?
I don’t know what was going on earlier but I just felt…hollow? Empty? The way I put it to New Friend is Friday I had the Lewis Black show, yesterday I did yardwork and then went out to eat. To...
Burn!!!
Did that yard work today. Chainsawed a bunch. Now my arms and back hurt from hauling that crap from the backyard to the curb. I’m sunburned, too. Bah! Mom took my eldest and SIL out to eat ...
Lewis Black And Other Musings
The show last night was funny just the audio sucked. When he was speaking softly I couldn’t really make out what he was saying but when he started his ranting and yelling I could hear him fine. ...
Eggplant Parm Rocks
Mom cooked last night. Ended up eating two plates as I was super hungry. Ended up eating the last just a few minutes ago for lunch. My withdrawal symptoms are getting better. I’m very tired ri...
Rage Monster Update
I’m so fucking irritable today. I want my vape. 6:07 PM I’ve calmed down a lot. Mom and I did breakfast at Blue Plate Cafe, went shopping and generally enjoyed the nice weather. After so muc...
Let's Boogie!
Court. I’m not on probation but am on color code. I have to called a number EVERYDAY and if my color comes up I go to widdle in a cup at the courthouse. Judge told me to check out New Horizons...
In My Head
As the title says, I’ve been in my head all night. Why I suck at relationships, would I have gotten married, it sure would’ve been nice to get help for my mental health a long time ago… Ya, thin...
1994
Jesus Found Me And Touched Me Deep Down Inside
At least guitarist was rocking out like he was in KISS! And yet dad wondered why I laughed my ass off at this, stating, “It’s a good Christian song!!!!” My dad was a computer programmer for NAS...
Almost at 30 Hours Awake
And still not tired. 🤷♂️ Grilled two chicken breast, mixed them with the ceaser salad mix. Added a few extra squirts from the bottle I got and tossed the kielbasa on the grill after. Ate well....
Almost at 30 Hours Awake
And still not tired. 🤷♂️ Grilled two chicken breast, mixed them with the ceaser salad mix. Added a few extra squirts from the bottle I got and tossed the kielbasa on the grill after. Ate well....
UGH!!!
I’m still awake. Made teriyaki chicken and shrimp for dinner last night. After we ate and I finished dinner we discussed food tonight. Ended up going to Publix to get Caesar salad mix and flo...
So Tired...
As the title says, I’m so tired but can’t fall asleep. It’s 3:31 AM. Please shoot me
Undercover Break
Hiding under my blanket currently. I’m safe here. No monsters can touch me. I’m forcing myself to take a break from the internet for a bit. Mostly Reddit and YouTube. I’ll read articles and w...
Late Dinner
Tilapia fillet and bacon wrapped scallops. Yum yum! I purchased some cranberry juice cause my kidney (groin area?) hurt a bit. It seems to have done the trick. I hardly slept today…figures. ...
Ugh-Ola
My lower intestine started hurting a bit earlier. Luckily the feel has passed. However my lower back is aching, as per usual. I watched an interesting doc on survival bunkers. They interview...
Feelin' Hot Hot Hot
I’m burning up. Just turned the AC on. I’ve been lost in thought today. I go back to court on May 2nd. Dr. Gilbert is pushing for me to do inpatient rehab. I’m ready. I’m tired of feeling ...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
