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Nommy Num Nums
Grilled burgers last night and boy o boy were they juicy! Tonight I grilled a rack of ribs. I’m nice and stuffed I missed group today, even emailed the counselor about relapsing. Glad I misse...
FU AC
I feel like absolute shit. My throat is on fire, my body aches and pretty sure I have a fever. My AC really needs to start working again. Too bad it’s a holiday… And sleep, I’d kill for an unin...
Blues Brothers And Cocaine
Did you know they actually budgeted money for cocaine when filming The Blues Brothers? AC is on the fritz again… It’s friggin’ 80 F inside the house. 🔥 Popeye’s chicken for dinner tonight. Tryi...
Nap Sleep
Drove mom to get the tag for the new car. Stopped for some quick take out at China Taste. She wanted to take a quick nap after we ate and I said I’d wake her in two hours. Weeell…I fell asleep...
Triggered
Went to Guadalajara last night for dinner. Table across from us was pounding down a pitcher of beer and a fish bowl margarita. À Yup, triggered me. Yup, got alcohol. Yup, relapsed BUT!!! The s V...
It Means OK To Beerfest
Your cousin, from BAWS-TEN! I dunno what’s going on but I ache. Especially my friggin’ hip. It’s 4 AM and I’m still wide awake. I’m gonna email the counselor and take today off to rest up. My...
Chicky Bird Soup Stew
Mom made chicken stew tonight. It’s been a while since we’ve had it and I practically inhaled two bowls. We went out and about today after my group to get over cabin fever. Only issue is after...
I Want A Brownie
Called the color code hotline and I had to pee today. Get to the courthouse after group to find out they canceled all tests for the day. Wonderful waste of gas, thank you! I haven’t done shit...
They Want Light, By God They'll Get Light!
The Simpsons, “Scuse Me While ai Miss The Sky,” on in the background. Boy did I sleep in today! Got up at 11 and ate breakfast. Dozed back off somewhere around noon and woke up after 3:30. Didn...
Crab Chowdah!
No, no recipe. Just Iron Chef America on in the background. My right thigh muscle feels super tight. No clue what happened. Hard to move around. (Hour later, it just dawned on me that I had t...
12:06 AM Or Studio 54 Where Are You?
Just polished off the last two slices of pizza. I’m still a bit hungry. Hip is still meh, but sitting with the heating pad situated on the sore spot. Gamed a few hours, took out one of the lie...
6:25 PM
Been inside my head since yesterday morning. Read some…disheartening information and I’ve been trying to process things. 🔪 ❤️ I have two weeks of group left Need to get on the ball and finish m...
The Flames Of Hell Caressed My Flesh
96 F out Real Feel 108 F 2.25 miles walked 4,741 teps taken I’m now kicking back with a Strawberry Banana Bodyarmor superior hydration drink. My shoulders still feel hot and my knees are worn. ...
I'm Not Going Back To Sleep
Woke up with the alarm to check the color code line. No widdle test for be. I canceled yesterday’s appointment with the counselor. I’m just not comfortable talking with a stranger. Was going to...
Randoms Or The Men Go First
Halfway through group one of the other counselors came in and asked for all the guys to come out and the ladies wait in the next room. As soon as I heard that I knew we were getting a widdle tes...
I'm Going To Hate Myself Later
Pretty sure my late night munchies kick in cause I drank at night. Seriously, I just polished off half a bag of Fritos with half a can of nacho cheese sauce. I’ll be feeling this in my gut come...
Schweady Balls Or Why Are My Boxers Soaked?
To all the notes from this mornings entry, thank you. It took a few hours but eventually I felt much better. Group was pretty cool. Self esteem was the topic. Drove mom to check on the insur...
Sad Face Emoji
I feel fucking awful. Currently sitting at group waiting on the counselor to come in. Mowed the yard yesterday in blistering heat and I think it caught up to me. Very tired, eyes bloodshot. Supe...
To All My California Peeps
Take care and be safe. Y’all are in my thoughts. Hurricane Hilary has made landfall.
Mag, I Say Magnolia!
Foghorn Leghorn is on in the background. I’m being lazy today. Friday mom got a new car. Nissan Kicks, with all the futuristic cool stuff. I’ve inherited the old Saturn. Yesterday we did some ret...
3:24 AM Or Welcome To 1998 Mr. Monk
As you can see, I’m goofing around with my titles. 🤷♂️ I didn’t cook dinner. We ended up at the Chinese buffet. I ate chicken, chicken and more chicken of course with some egg drop soup. Ma ...
My color was called this morning so I got there around 9:15ish for the widdle screening. Yeah, me and about twenty other people. I split fifteen minutes later cause I had to get my Vivitrol sho...
4:31 AM Or The Itch That Loved Me
Haven’t even attempted to sleep. Finally, after almost 160 hours, I BEAT ASSASSIN’S CREED ODYSSEY! The LONGEST effin’ playthrough I’ve ever had. Right now I’m downloading the patch updates for...
I'm So Tired
Roughly two hours of sleep. Woke up at five AM and couldn’t get back to sleep. I’m pure zombie today. Part of me wants to take a nap but I know I’ll sleep ALL day and I don’t want that. It does...
Much Better
Thunderstorms last night brought on relief from the heat. Currently it’s 83 out. I went on a two and a half mile walk and was no where near as sweaty as I have been. Plus a nice cool breeze co...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
