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So.. I went to Lucie’s last night….I was onVodka, she was on Beer. She isn’t going to get back with her ex this time. She’s sure and she’s had enough. We got to talking about Elle and Lucie’s ex,...

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So, This week I AM going to Lucie’s on Friday. After this weekend I think Elle has finally learned her lesson. We had a blazing row on Thursday night, that rolled through to Friday morning and at...

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So last night I was sick, I mean properly sick, in a toilet and everything, and no, it wasn’t self inflicted. She got pissed that we couldn’t have sex despite me throwing up, having a blistering ...

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So, Elle has a new little game. The past 2 nights she has slept on the sofa because of squabbles we’ve had. I know she is doing this to upset me because last night she came back to bed briefly a...

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I’m writing this because I feel I need to spew a little. spew as in vent. not as in barf. If you’re reading this then hopefully you’ll have read the previous entries from the past 6months and yo...

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So…NYE was fun. Sorry, my sarcasm is showing. I was ill in the day, which sucked but then Elle kept going on and on about how her Mum was throwing this fucking party, and you guessed it, it wou...

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So the doctor thinks the reason I was so ill is STRESS. Really doc? NO SHIT!! My God, I could have worked that one out for myself. Clearly missed my calling in life there. Why do I even bother? ...

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So yesterday was the big day and it BLOWED. Elle was happy and I got presents then she went in a weird mood at about 11am so I ignored it, and Daddy came round with a lil pen with my name on it a...

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So, I’m feeling a lil blue today, in fact, scrap that, I’m feeling downright down and depressed. I feel like I wanna cut. I don’t why. It’s quite scary to feel like this and not know why. and to...

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So yesterday I told her. She finally, reluctantly agreed to give me time and space. Then last night she crawled in my bed for a cuddle. I gave her a cuddle and then she went back to bed. This mor...

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I don’t really want to write…but I don’t know what else to do. I just need a break. Edit So we’ve spoken. She wants to try work it out. I don’t feel we can. I don’t feel like I can trust her anym...

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The boiler filter burst and fucked our house up. The damage is monumental, we have no floor, nothing, we are waiting for PAT testing on ALL the electrics in the kitchen and bedrooms, the TV, lapt...

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I’m seriously starting to think about leaving Elle. It seems like nothing I do is good enough for her. And I’ve had enough of her damned moods, her patronizing me and treating me like a dick in g...

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I’m tired. So very tired. We stayed up arguing until late last night. Then this morning she claims to have seen a text on my phone that would suggest that I knew Ellen was coming. I never even sa...

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I tried and we failed, we ended up rowing about it. I’m sat right now crying so hard so quiet that it’s making me heave and retch. I’m fed up of this. I wish I didn’t love her. I wish I had the ...

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So… I’m pretty pissed off really. Today I agreed to meet Lucie for lunch…I told Elle and she was fine about it. Lucie’s girlfriend Ellen is pretty jealous and not really that trusting of Lucie, w...

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Another night another fucking argument over BB. Fucks sake. Asks me questions, but doesn’t like the answers, then just don’t ask the fucking question in the first place, or when I tell you you’re...

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So… My refusing to watch Big Brother with Elle landed me in the dog house, she’s got all sulky and stroppy about because when she lived at home they made a big deal of it. I’m sorry sweetie but i...

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Thank you for your patience, we will return you to some music and the test card shortly. I’m sorry but Princess Pitbull seems to be having some emotional difficulties at present, we apologise for...

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Can I ask a question? Am I freak? Am I freak to do what I do? Do I need to know if I am? Will a label do me more harm than good? Why do I need to feel that first instance of pain to know that th...

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I’m sorry I disappointed you all. You think I’m strong but I’m not.

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Put me on the slab. Cut me open and take the fat. cut out my my troubles and pain, and maybe just maybe, I’ll be me again?

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OK so, I’ve agreed (and arranged) to go to a S/H support group. I’m going this week, and I’m scared. I don’t really want to go, but I do want to get better, and this could be the first step in th...

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So… We had it out last night, I laid my cards on the table and asked if she wanted us to split up because that’s how she was behaving and the direction we were heading in. I told her it’s make or...

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So…Bank Holiday Weekend was a COMPLETE let-down. We got up town for 10pm, by half past the Birthday Boy was feeling somewhat pissed, by 11 he had sobered up and felt sick and by 12:30 we were ba...

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