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Too Late Or Just In Time? (Now an Edit)
So… yeah. I am entirely decided. I spoke with Wife about it, I will speak with Parents about it tonight… I’ll write my resignation letter this weekend and begin the process of withdrawing from c...
Updates and Decisions
Yesterday was an excellent example of how this firm works. My morning was spent entirely doing work for White Boss. He had an 8am hearing he didn’t want to attend, so I did it. That hearing had...
Yeeeeaaah
Yeah, call me any name you want to but I can’t stand immigration work. THE ONLY EXCEPTION is when I can help someone in an Asylum case. But everything else? Just pisses me off. Even when I ca...
How Interesting
So this morning I had another 30 minute long “conversation” from Chinese Boss on how I suck at immigration, I’m not a good employee, and a veiled threat that I could be fired at a whim. Conside...
Can We Get This Written?
I wasted my weekend. I can’t remember the last time I wrote in here so that should also tell you where I am mentally. BUT Thursday of last week was a very difficult, very draining day. Crippling...
Ooooooooooouch
Another reason to want to be at a more reasonable place? Ouch. So… Private Attorneys that I know often scoff and laugh at my firm because Chinese Boss says she will help any Chinese citizen that ...
Some Days, right?
Today was going to be a stupid day no matter what. I had to be awake and out the door before 6:30 a.m. because I had to drive 130 miles (Waukee to IA City) for a client’s hearing. The kid is a H...
Self-Care, Owl-Bear
One of the biggest things in my life that I’ve always been absolute shit about is self-care. This has been true from the time when I was a teenager. So, not at all surprisingly, Therapy is dis...
Once More
I am not the kind of guy to unfriend someone over politics. I have many friends who are Conservative, Liberal, Libertarian, Anarchists… and provided you are open to logic, reason, and civility… ...
Starting Up: EDIT
A good example of how my weeks typically start up in my head: When I woke up today, 3 distinctly different versions of life played through my head. (1) Regret: I considered what things were like ...
What Is Needed
Today Chinese Boss was at a branch office and did not call me to make demands. So I was considerably less stressed out. Imagine that! Also, the E-Therapy has been doing well. I write twice a d...
Am I? Please?
Woke up exhausted. Surprise, surprise… tried to go to bed at a reasonable time, still didn’t get to sleep until after midnight. Woke up to Winter Storm Advisories for the area. Tried to find m...
Three Items
(1) I have sent a third E-Mail session with my therapist. I hope this works and helps. Because I’d like to live a better life. A healthier life. (2) I have received a shit load of e-mails from...
Can I Get A Ruling? (updated throughout the day)
I did something today that I’ve only done to jobs that I can’t stand. I woke up… assessed my level of “give a fuck” and my level of emotional fortitude… and realized I couldn’t do it. I could n...
I shouldn't be surprised
In order to keep my social sanity, I shall add to this throughout the day. I haven’t been sleeping well. Neither has Wife. For me, it is the unfortunate element of not being able to get to sl...
Call Me A Millennial
Call me a Millennial but something I really don’t like? I don’t like being told I’m shitty for things that are effectively not my fault… only to be not told I’m not shitty for catching things tha...
Random Poetry I Suppose
The bosses left at three to meet some people working on their home I am exhausted and cannot say exactly as to why I have earned more than 4 hours today though the bosses want 6 per Not that I c...
These Things That Happen
This weekend felt like a whirlwind and went by too quickly. Obviously. Last two weeks, Monday was a Holiday so now that we are back on 2 Day Weekends instead of 3… the weekend felt too fast. I...
Random Blurbs Throughout The Day
These blurbs were not written during Working Hours but during Lunch Hours, a demanded 15 minutes break, and at the end of the day BLURB 1 I really appreciate the “Past Entries On This Day” sectio...
Minor Aside
Some day, I’m going to write down all of the ridiculous and stupid things my Chinese Clients do. I’ll lay it all bare for everyone to see. And I’ll say, “Look. Look. The Immigration Statistic...
January 4
Thank you everyone for the notes yesterday. Sadly, I desperately do need feedback. It is why I was an actor. I need the applause, the laughter, the boos, the tears… I need that to know how I’m...
January 3rd (w/Edit)
According to GOOGLE, some famous birthdays for the day are Dan Harmon, J.R.R. Tolkien, Mel Gibson, Danica McKellar, Sergio Leone, and Victoria Principal. Yesterday, partially as a large middle fi...
Comparative Analysis Resolutions (and far too many asides)
As I constructed the new book, I took the time to review my “Resolutions” entry for 2017. Then entry was called “Obaith” (link to entry attached) and it is the Welsh word for HOPE – the hope that...
Those Good Morning Feelings
Dreams can remind us of the worst of us sometimes. Last night, my dream was one such as that. I was back in college, during my undergrad years, and reviewing my schedule at the end of the semeste...
NEW BOOK 2018
New Book is called Working Through The Maze. Life is not what I had hoped it would be at this point. Growing up, I always thought I would have a house, a wife, a dog, and at least one child by t...
Book Description
Life is not what I had hoped it would be at this point. Growing up, I always thought I would have a house, a wife, a dog, and at least one child by the time I was 34. Well, I turn 34 in 5 months and I can’t even get the house part right. Looking into the Future of Me… all I want in this world is that House and Beginning to Work Towards Adulthood. That is what I want. But working where I am as of January 2018? I don’t see a good path forward. Hopefully, something changes. Hopefully, I can make something happen or something happens for me. Until then, I just have to keep working through the maze… hope I find a little cheese now and then.
