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Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018

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Today is another day that proves several things to me. (1) I need to be getting more sleep than I am. Hopefully, that can be addressed during my “Self-Care Break.” (2) I don’t mind driving to Am...


There are some things that happen equally in Prosecution and Defense. However, how you respond to them demonstrates perfectly the kind of person you are. For example: losing a case. As a Prosecu...


February 19, 2018

Awful Mess

So, this Monday may be my worst on record! Last night after getting home late-ish from the Work Event, it was off to bed. I slept until about 12:14 a.m. Couldn’t get back to sleep. Went into...


February 18, 2018

Recap

I like how I can write things like my last entry and get responses. Agree, disagree, at least usually the responses aren’t venomous trashy ad hominem illogical bullshit. And I seriously appreci...


February 18, 2018

Twitter: Upsetting

This weekend, I have had two male colleagues and 1 female colleague tell me “With the success of Fifty Shades, clearly women fantasize about men with wealth and power dominating them. But try it...


February 18, 2018

Twitter: Upsetting

This weekend, I have had two male colleagues and 1 female colleague tell me “With the success of Fifty Shades, clearly women fantasize about men with wealth and power dominating them. But try it...


February 18, 2018

Weekends

I am going to be far happier when Work doesn’t get to claim any of my Weekend time! I did get to hang with friends a bit. I did watch the first two full seasons of Dragon Ball Z abridged. I did...


February 16, 2018

After The Silence

(Picking up from the entry that was eaten as the site went down) With Prosebox down, that is… difficult. I don’t want to be a whiny bitch about it because I pay nothing for this service. I have...


I have a feeling that the best way forward with this today will be to simply keep it open all day and add to it as time goes on. I woke up on time today, felt too much pain, said “fuck it” and w...


February 08, 2018

Additions to Previous

This would have been a simple edit inclusion on a recent entry but I opted for a different path. This evening ended with the perfect reasons to (1) get out and (2) expect surprise and difficulty ...


February 08, 2018

I'm alright, I'll be okay

I did NOT want to get out of bed today. Exhausted. Pained. Just… not at all interested in going to work. Dragged myself out of bed. Discovered I was not the first person in the office today ...


So, there is a holy shit for political and a holy shit for professional here. (1) Holy Shit for Political. I know that Sean Hannity isn’t news. Other people don’t… and that makes me sad. But h...


February 06, 2018

Get. Out.

So… my head is a weird place right now. It is usually a weird place but… even more so right now. Like… I’m feeling anxiety… just from the idea of what I’m about to do. Because “self love” and “...


February 06, 2018

A Quick Paint Job

The city this morning is covered in white. The first time since 2015 that more than 3 to 5 inches of snow accumulated. Which of course makes it difficult to really do much of anything unless yo...


February 05, 2018

Is This Creative Writing?

I don’t know if this is an entry or creative writing. I don’t much care either way, actually. It just.... complicates where I put this. The snow continues. MASSIVE (unbelievably massive) cra...


February 05, 2018

Head Banging

I need these. I need these little reminders of why I am moving on. A few today. It is snowing BUCKETS outside. In some places in Iowa, this will be the most snowfall they’ve received for 3 yea...


February 05, 2018

Official Statement

For those who have been curious and/or waiting with breaths held: Upon the advice of my father, I have chosen to deliver my resignation letter on Friday of this week. After discussing it, we agr...


February 03, 2018

Great Additions

I know I don’t need more reasons to leave.... and I know this is just a standard part of working with International Clients.... but this is yet another reason why I’ve been saying **you need to h...


February 02, 2018

Proof Positive

This morning, I had a hearing at 8 a.m. That hearing went until 10:04. This morning I had a meeting at 10:00 a.m. That went until 11:30 a.m. So… first one in the office by a solid hour. When...


February 01, 2018

Is it good to be a gangster?

Another reason to be a prosecutor besides making a lot more money, driving a lot less, and not being required to celebrate when criminals aren’t held accountable? A prosecutor on a case I’m worki...


(1) Bloody eye twitch. Still present. Of course it is. It will be, too. Until I get less stress and/or more sleep. (2) I… was going to write my resignation letter last night. But I didn’t. ...


January 31, 2018

Just a few more steps

When I resign from here? I will expect surprise… anger… but I am curious to see which will control. If they will say, “You suck anyway” or “We think this is a mistake.” We’ll see. TONIGHT I f...


January 30, 2018

Jìngluán

China: An old Chinese saying about twitching eyelids says that “the twitching of the left eyelid indicates the coming of good fortune; while the right one is a warning about the coming bad luck.”...


January 29, 2018

Pretty Much

I do not have my resignation letter finished to a degree that I feel it is ready to be turned in. I will be working towards this tonight. I woke up before my alarm this morning due to stomach pa...


January 26, 2018

Echoes of the Past

Clearly one of the things I’m dealing with in Therapy is my difficulty in making healthy decisions to protect myself and/or set up healthy boundaries. Abusive Ex-Girlfriend… people ask when I fir...


Book Description

Life is not what I had hoped it would be at this point. Growing up, I always thought I would have a house, a wife, a dog, and at least one child by the time I was 34. Well, I turn 34 in 5 months and I can’t even get the house part right. Looking into the Future of Me… all I want in this world is that House and Beginning to Work Towards Adulthood. That is what I want. But working where I am as of January 2018? I don’t see a good path forward. Hopefully, something changes. Hopefully, I can make something happen or something happens for me. Until then, I just have to keep working through the maze… hope I find a little cheese now and then.