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Okay yeah… I can’t help myself sometimes. I have more self-control than he does though. Beside the point but whatever… So I sent a text: “It’s like you’re ashamed of me or need a reason to not be...

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I’m stupid. I don’t regret anything but I probably should have just ranaway alone, then maybe I wouldn’t have such a broken heart right now. I don’t know what to do…

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I letting him get his way… I’m too heartbroken. Maybe this job coming up will help me feel better, whether the relationship gets better or ends. If only I can turn my thoughts off for a good mome...

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It sucks knowing that I’m in a relationship with a cheating junkie. I’m so heartbroken. I should just leave…

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I don’t know if it was a good thing… something I’d prefer, thought. Like thinking I’m pretty, or he’s grateful to be spending time with me… Or one of the “I’m in my head and see nothing so I don’...

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Yup. Just stare at me when I’m not looking. I just wish I knew what you were thinking… Wondering how fucked up I really am? Wondering if I’m mad? Wondering why you chose me?

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Even when we didn’t see each other everyday Its always me that have to be in a good mood and smiling in order for us to have a good time. I have to be the happy careless one… I hate feeling like ...

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I hate myself I hate my life I hate everything I hate everyone Everything in my life

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Oh yeah… that little lame personal thing you shared with me… you had to acknowledge you shared with me… Congrats…

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He showed me his horoscope today. It basically said he’s holding a lot in and people can see it. That he should express his thoughts. He said he thought I would say it’s spot in. Well yeah. So he...

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He’s sneaky. I don’t understand exactly why when I find out… Certain things, yes, and there are things I haven’t figured out. I try not to pat attention to certain things but it happens, I notice...

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What I need to focus on for now on is when I’ll finally be done with it all… I can be so horrible and he’s still here. He hasn’t told me to leave. I don’t know how he can do this… There must be s...

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And I’ve had enough… Of him shutting me out. I’ll try to get him to talk today…

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So I clearly made a point for him to give me much less so he doesn’t say I got more than he had. I said that. I was sure that he saw me look at what was left after he gave it to me. He told me h...

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I doubt it. How tf does he not know where any of his things are but knew where that lighter was? The one that I touched, painted, and wrote on. The one that he just expected me to believe he woul...

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I need to try to mind my own fucking business. Since there are things I apparently dont need to know…

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He got a really cute crystal necklace for me and gave it to me before we feel asleep… That made me feel so much better. <3

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Maybe one problem is that he really doesn’t compliment me. I mentioned that he intentionally look away at certain moments and he doesn’t randomly touch my ass or other parts or get caught checki...

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All the other shit I saw on his phone that time… because it bothers me every single day… Of course he didn’t say shit more than he usualy says… sigh Fucking ay

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We’ve been great the past few days. I do think my attitudd has a great deal with it plus I just try not to ask or say certain things that will most likely piss him off. I wrote something that ma...

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Thats all. I’m not from here. I’m okay with me doing my hobbies at home while he does the same and we take hits together. I just feel like I’m suppose to be the one responsible for what we do so ...

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I was strightening things up on the table and he was sitting in the chair close by. I sat down to eat with him. He mentioned something about switching seats but I just wanted to sit and eat with ...

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I can’t deal with anything anymore. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I’m sick of my thoughts… I even dream of crap that I don’t come up with in my waking life to add to my insecurities.

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I bent over, side view for him, to get something while he was talking about something and when I looked over he was looking up. Yet looked straight in my eyes before I even got up. Yet he loves ...

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People are never fair to me. Sometimes I wonder whag his purpose was initially to keep certain things away from me. Also why he has such double standards. Typing this shit is the only confidence ...

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