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a quick programming note. again.
so if no one hears from me maybe tom. - mon. it’s cause i’ll be at my mom’s as the lady’s going out of town. that’s all.
'you'll figure it out'
from. the 23rd: ‘ some. [although not me cause well. reasons] might say this to someone who’s bi. but don’t you get it? i have. figured it out. in fact. my sexuality isn’t something to be. ‘figur...
um. i don't know. well great now i feel stupid.
from the 23rd. [again.].: ‘ so. i’ve been coming out to people. and.........i’ve been rushing it. and i knew i shouldn’t’ve but i did it anyway and great now i feel stupid. damnit. um but. the re...
it says more about him then it does me.
from the 23rd: ‘ eah. and i get that. but he didn’t have to be so. that way about it. ya know? i. i’m not biphobic or homophobic. [well i would hope not. why would i be. no i’m. i’m not.]. or. w/...
i'm sorry but.
from the 23rd: ‘ biphobia which apparently is a thing. like rape culture needs to end and it needs to end now. i..........it it shouldn’t even exist. i. i won’t go on just. wow. ‘
oh i get it. ok. *LGBTQ
this, from the........23rd: ‘ oh i see. i get it oh ok. he only wants to be supportive of me if i’m a lesbian. or straight. oh ok. not if i’m bi.......sexual. if he can convert me. look if i say ...
but, ya know. at the end of the day.
from the 23rd: ‘ it’s not his journey and it’s not his. sexuality. it’s also. not his life. yeah it’s kindof sad but. that’s unfortunately part of life. i don’t fit in and i don’t want to. as ha...
this is exactly why i didn't want to come out.
from. the 23rd: ‘ bc of this. bc some people might have this reaction. [although not everyone. and thank god.]. ‘
i. ok wow.
this from the 23rd: ‘ so like I said I recently came out to Pat’s brother. and.........when I told him I got the impression he wasn’t that open minded about it. like he just wanted me to ‘make up...
14 wks.
well. it’s been 14 wks. since i sustained my concussion. 3.5 months. or. 3 months 2 wks.
i'm not happy. this is new?
this from the 22nd: ‘ not really. no um. i’m not happy w/ this whole LGBTQ/my sexuality. thing. yeah. i’m not happy being this way but it’s not like i can suddenly become completely straight that...
just told Mark. although.
from the 22nd: ‘ I was LGBTQ. although during the time I’ve known him i might’ve previously told him. i’ve known him for god at least 5 yrs. so. more coming out. he’s ok w/ people who are LGBTQ. ...
'are you......a gay person?' um.
this is again from the 22nd: ‘ so a few yrs. ago my sister, mom & i were going to have uh. lunch w/ a former neighbor of ours and her mom. well the woman in question happens to be religious a...
this is from the 22nd: ‘that’s, a line from the movie ‘girl., interrupted’. when they’re talking about ambivelance. i. don’t want to be both. i don’t want to be both straight and. and a lesbian o...
i was going to tell Hannah but then. *LGBTQ
this is from the 22nd: ‘ Hannah. is this woman i know from HS. she’s nice kindof quiet. um i was going to tell her come out to her but then. apparently she’s going through a divorce so. yeah that...
Movement, nerve problems, easily set off *TBI
so this is from the 22nd: ‘ yeah so like i’ve mentioned still having movement problems. it’s like people when they’re walking move faster then my brain can process it even if i’m um. standing. an...
just told. SA
from sun. and yet again. still behind: ‘ just told. middle school guy that i have ptsd from being raped. he was so angry about it. he hates stuff like that. yeah. me too. ‘
i just came out. again.
from sun. and once again still behind: ‘ right so like it states. i just came out. again. to a guy i knew in middle school who recently hit me up. and he’s. ok w/ the fact that i’m. .........w/e....
i don't want to be insensitive.
from sun. and again. still behind: ‘i was raped in oct. of um 2004. when i was 17. well before that time i came out to. a [now] former friend of mine. and i was nervous about it but it’s not like...
i want to be straight.
from. sun. [again i’m behind. obviously]: ‘ i want to be straight. but i can’t force myself to be no more then i can force myself not to have hazel eyes. like sorry. sure coming out means i’m bei...
again. from sat. [yep still behind]: ‘ n’t know. like i know i’m not bc i’ve been w/ a woman and. it was good it. it. was good we didn’t..........it didn’t. go farther then touching and cuddling ...
i don't know how to be. this.
again still behind. [well..........yeah being that this again. is from sat.]: ‘ i don’t know how to be. this. bi pans questioning. how am i supposed to be. ............... .............someone wh...
nothing about me as a person.
from sat. [i’m a little behind. clearly being that this is from sat. anyway here we go.]: ‘ so my sexuality. whether i’m bi pans questioning. says nothing about me as a person as who i am. as a p...
from the 15th - the 21st
so um. on the 15th which was sun. i did my laundry. then on mon. valerie came. i think. maybe. on um tues. i went to the store. same w/ wed. on thurs. i went to my mom’s. we um. did, i have my ap...
what would happen if i didn't?
from fri.: ‘ what would happen if i didn’t, come out to my ex? well.........there wouldn’t be that change and i’d be. i wouldn’t well no. i’d still be moving forward w/ this i just. um. it’s just...
