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so yesterday. peach.
so yesterday. was not good. um so i checked my email at 3:20 to find that valerie had emailed me and had cancelled. [that wasn’t the part that wasn’t good.]. the lady knocks on my door ‘can i tal...
more stuff yet again. So like a wk. ago the Peet’s Coffee by my mom’s closed. i’d only gotten something there twice. their tea’s too hot. it’s the best smelling coffee place around. er it was any...
it's a very selfish act. rape. *TW*
um. yeah the second guy........he didn’t ask, if i was ok while he was doing it. yes we had sex. but he rushed me into sex. and i wasn’t ready. no that’s when it becomes nonconsensual. he didn’t ...
um. survey.
How often do you walk around barefoot? i don’t. When you eat take-out, do you just eat it out of the containers provided? god i haven’t had take out in so long. How do you prefer to travel?...
well. i'm related to a prostitute.
yeah um. my mom’s aunt’s [which makes her my great aunt] her......sister [or sister in law? i know it’s not by blood]. no yeah ok. so my mom’s aunt’s brother’s wife. [so in other words the aunt’s...
um. thurs. - sat.
so on thurs.i was at my mom’s. um she. was at her meeting thing so we didn’t go to lunch. and my dad was out or actually maybe he was next door at the apt. they’ve not rented it yet. so i left a ...
more stuff once again. oh so. on Mon. I gave Valerie a note on it w/ the address of the new store the one we were going to. and she’s ‘is this the store we usually go to?’ no. if it had been i wo...
so my sister's in med school.
er no wait she’s not. she’s in regular college. but she’s going to be a dr. yeah so the other day she asked me if she were my dr. would I go to her. and i’m ‘this feels like a trap.’. i say ‘yes’...
pills. and rape. and the milk night. OD.
so on the night of.’the milk night’ the night I OD’d. i must’ve......i must’ve had a cup of wine before I OD’d. and then...........um. had the marigold seeds then the pills. i remember downing th...
well now i'm just depressed.
ok so this isn’t exactly big news bc i have depression. i’ve had it since i was 15. it’s small news........little news. anyway. ok so my depression’s worsened. like i didn’t want to fukin get up ...
they're hidden.
so there’s thing.called object blindness. it’s when someone’s at the store or wherever and they’re looking at like all the chapstick and they can’t find the one they’re looking for. right bc the ...
Yeah Lindsey and Kim. when i told them about.what happened well........they weren’t mean about it but they sure as hell weren’t warm towards me either. like one of the last things I needed was.th...
people were, kindof jerks about it. not everyone.
yeah a few people were kindof jerks when i told them about the rape. well ok not everyone. but Kim sortof was. and um. oh and Lindsey C. the owner of the bar. yeah when Kim went w/ me to tell her...
contributing to the rape.
so i’m not blaming my friends [/people i know/bar regulars] for what happened to me the night of the rape. well actually it was the next morning.]. but 2 of them bought me drinks........ he boug...
um.......pills. and rape. [so obviously TW].
so before i go on to all the other things that have happened since i last wrote. er blogged. well. the last time I was raped [it’s been a little over 5 yrs. ago now.]. i’m pretty sure.they drugge...
so, yesterday. [again.].
maybe this won’t be an entry where i bitch?.....only time will tell. well and me. anyway. erm so yesterday was.um Wed. [that’s right cause today’s um.thurs. that’s.........right........] well so ...
more stuff, and again. right so. within the last like.couple months i think. [or so.]. i well I was outside the store waiting for the lady to pick me up when a small lady paused, looked me up and...
more stuff, again. right so for those who don’t know. Ty’s my uncle the one who talks a lot. he’s been dating this woman for like about a yr. now i think. he’s my um. my dad’s..........brother. i...
more stuff. So yesterday. While I was by the store w/ the metal detectors waiting for the bus. well when i called the bus for the mystop thing my phone decided to stop working for 5 mins. yeah i ...
um. yeah so over the holidays my aunt came in from d.c. and. she was sick. I don’t believe in drs. i mean I believe, in them in that they exist. no um. I don’t believe in going to them when a per...
yesterday.
[no not the beatles song.]. um yesterday i. well valerie came at 4. When she rang the doorbell it startled me. the lady was out. we went to...........wendy’s then the new store just up the rd. fr...
things from may 5 yrs. ago
right so as i’ve mentioned. lately I’ve been thinking about things from May 5 yrs. ago. when I moved out of my apt. and evan.left it. and i’m not sure.......if it was my sister who told my parent...
when i was little.
so i don’t think.the elementary school i went to was a good school. Had someone told me when I was going there it was. I don’t think i would’ve agreed w/ them and also. i wouldn’t’ve comprehended...
"watch out for this guy he's gay"
the things we remember. yeah so when i was little. and in school a guy mentioned that to me about someone else. i just remember like. being confused when i heard it. I knew the guy in question wa...
what happened when i was little.
so this isn’t something i talk about, a lot and i only refer to it as such. ‘when i was little’. um. ..........so a few of the students who weren’t uh nice to me. 2 of them were minorities. one g...
