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today. i feel 'normal'. and yesterday well. *TBI
this is from Wed.: so right. today i feel ‘normal’. like oh the TBI didn’t happen. like oh. and yesterday well. well yesterday I passed out and evidently fell. which set off the whole cop detainm...
as I’ve had SU thoughts recently. but this isn’t about the details it’s more about the why. so. One reason people. have more SU thoughts then usual is that. they feel trapped. yep there we go. i’...
just told ru. *SA
this actually is from yesterday: I just told Ru via fb that since I saw him last I was raped. 2 times 24 and 25. [btw. he’s a guy I went on a date w/ a little over 6 yrs. ago. from georgia - stat...
while they didn't give me. the reason. i knew. *Un. Det.
I’ve stated previously that: ‘ and he didn’t say to me. ‘you’re not free to leave due to this’. he didn’t give me the reason. ok so for the future if that ever happens again. i’ll hopefully reme...
Firstoff. I haven’t been raped in a little over 5 yrs. well. I do remember, the last time I was this afraid but not vividly. god......i..... I don’t like feeling trapped I’m actually afraid of ...
even if I did. tell someone. *Un. Det.
ok so even if I did. tell someone who could actually do something about it. and they did something about it. well.........it’d be his word against mine. because. I didn’t ask ‘am I free to go?’. ...
unlawful det.
see. looking back what tipped me off. during that whole thing last night. is that they the both of them. were physically in my way blocking me. so the only ways i could’ve gone were to the right ...
uni. declare/amnesty internat'l
while i’m going on about this. so the universal declaration of human rights was statrted in 1948. and um. amnesty international actually protects, those who’ve been wronged. so. a detainment/dete...
i'm not happy.
i realised this last night. or this morning whenever it was. i’m not a happy person to begin w/ so. but. thing is. not that many people seem to care which is sad. only about my ‘well being’ and ...
know your rights. might need them. *Cop./Un. D.
So the other thing I’ve been doing. is reading up, on my rights so I actually know what I’m talking about when I blog about this. The UN universal declaration of human rights. states that: ‘No on...
reason i didn't leave. *Cop./Detain. thing.
Honestly. The reason the main, reason I didn’t leave the cop situation last night. was bc. I was afraid of being raped or having them force me into the guy’s car and.......ya know? Also. the othe...
detainment, un. my reasons.
the reasons. i think i might’ve been unlawfully detained last night are: -in order. to detain someone a suspect. a cop legally needs. to actually have obtained [as in gotten] a warrant. i never s...
detainment. i think. *cop thing
I’m not lookin for any trouble here, a. and 2. i’m not one to accuse people. but i think. i might’ve been unlawfully detained last night.
detainment. legal or.......? *mentions cops
So, apparently. what happened last night when i was briefly stopped by the cops. was detainment. that’s what detainment is which. i didn’t understand untill just now. right ok. but. was it legal,...
notes from SU hotline chat *not about SU *TBI
this again is from earlier: So I. had an online chat w/ someone from the SU hotline. and here are my notes on it: yes. exactly. she said i’m: ‘grieving for the person you were before’ she asked. ...
about the tree thing. [cop thing. tues. night.]. fine. they win.
so some of this is repetitive. and also. this is what i’m going to tell my psych. so. psych. notes basically: ‘This happened. Well last wk. Actually on tues. [btw my mom apparently knows about th...
holy fuk. it's been a long day.
so. well firstoff when I was by the trees that are. in the residential area I apparently fell. and during that fall i evidently passed out. [for a minute.]. but somehow landed in a sitting positi...
ptsd and wendy's.
so um yesterday. when i was wanting to sleep. i’d go to sleep only to have. body memories and flashbacks come over me. this happened 4 times. i eventually apparently at some point went, to sleep ...
it's not been a great night.
this is from earlier: well actually it’s 2:10 in the morning now but yeah. a little over like. an hr. ago i got upset. i was just. i felt so bad. and tired so tired. ptsd tired. tbi tired. i. wel...
kiss. um. *TW
so...........in the cab van. thing. My dream memory thing’s telling me he kissed me. or? yeah but. i don’t recall how intimate that was. cause we sure as hell weren’t involved. he was some guy i ...
today. um.
btw i’m in quite a bit of pain right now. [again.]. today was. um actually fairly easy untill about 5:40 or so. yeah um prior to that. i did my laundry. [well ok i washed my bed sheet. well that’...
i don't.......the only explanation i can come up w/....... *Orange
I’m not one to acusse [sp?] people of things. But the only explanation I can come up w/ for. If what I think happened in the cab that night.actually, happened. The only explanation I have. is the...
i think maybe. but i don't know. what happened in the cab. *Orange
for quite some time. and i’ve never told anyone this till now. The times I’ve remembered us in the cab that night. the night he raped me. i see it like i’m in a dream. disconnected from myself. a...
blame and control. lots of control.
so the other thing the safe house denver website thing says. is that people sometimes blame themselves to have control over a situation. [actually they were referring to sexual assault but yes.]....
oh god........alcohol rape.
So the last time i was raped i was drunk. i’d gone to the bar gotten really drunk we’d gone back to my apt. and he’d..........yeah. i know. 2 of my friends bought me a drink i think maybe i bough...
