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we had a fire drill yesterday. and. cops.
this is from Thurs.: ‘so yesterday we had a fire drill. as well as a safety drill. one of the questions she asked me was ‘what would you do if you were assaulted?’. like sexually or? yeah...... ...
symptoms and. i don't know.
this is from Thurs.: ‘so. i didn’t write yesterday as it was a holiday. my symptoms. [TBI]. i’m having that weird body temp. thing again. and digestive issues [i won’t detail it’s TMI]/lady prob...
yesterday mentoring
this is from Tues.: ‘my mentor doesn’t actually mentor, me a whole lot since there’s not much i require assistance w/. honestly the main reason i meet w/ her is cause i get money to do so. [well ...
huh. well that was. weird. *Period talk
this is again from Mon.: So evidently I don’t think I got my period. [not that i have a problem w/ that.]. I got um what’s known as sp*ting. huh. well that was weird. i’m not like severely bother...
i don't want to talk about it/i don't want sympathy
this again is from Mon.: so. i’m going to talk about the thing i don’t want to talk about? uh ok a lot of sense that makes. my grandfather. he wasn’t that great of a guy and we weren’t that close...
been 4 wks.
this is actually from Mon.: well. it’s been 4 wks. since i sustained the concussion/got the TBI.
mark ru maybe i don't know.
this is from earlier: so i just asked my friend Mark. what he thought about being the person Ru goes to........if Ru felt he needed to. as I want a backup plan. I know it’s a lot to ask and it’s ...
jd confidentiality policy
asked him. 1. if he thought i was going to hurt myself would he be required to tell someone? yes. what if it’s something that’s already happened? i.e. hard drugs. i haven’t asked him 2 yet.
oh also.
i got my period yesterday. 3 wks. from the last time i did.
um. so my grandfather died.
this is from earlier. today: um. so my grandfather died this morning. yeah my mom called 10 mins. ago and told me. currently 4:20 atm. um.
how i’m doing since my SU attempt on Wed. i just. i feel so like fragile. i used to. maybe when i was in college [i actually remember a time in college when i did] or maybe even when i was livin...
people's reactions. *SA *SU
so like i’d mentioned. i told um.............Ru about the rapes. well just that I had been and at what ages. nothing else. And he said something like ‘i’m sorry. there are no appropriate words fo...
talking to a lady on the SU chat. notes.
this is from Thurs.: ‘’such experiences of being overpowered..........make you feel unsettled.......’ so then i had to go and look up what ‘overpowered’ meant. it means: ‘to be to intense for, to...
Frida's work.
Frida for those who don’t know was a Mexican artist. actually she was half Mexican half German I think. the chick w/ the eyebrow. She was married to Diego Rivera. the guy who painted all the lili...
i'm a sea turtle. *TBI
again. this is also from Thurs.: well. not literally. This was meant to have been written a few days ago but here we are. right. so I’m a sea turtle. In that. Those dudes well. they’re not fast....
been 5 yrs.
this is from Thurs.: it’s been 5 yrs. since my ex & i broke up.
just told. *SU
from thurs.: i just told. NE guy about the SU thing. via email.
ya know what........ *Cop./Tree thing.
this is from Thurs.: ya know what....... the cop didn’t call the lady in my presence. that’s um. that’s interesting. i don’t like this feeling. should he have? my personal opinion yeah. um. ok. ...
it's a pretty. dark place to be *SU
this is from Thurs.: it’s a pretty. dark place to be. where you feel like you don’t have any other options. and so. you open that door and. ....... i don’t. know how...........i..........what i’...
SU attempt.
this is actually from Thurs.: So after my. SU attempt yesterday. I actually felt a lot calmer. I’m going to tell an ex of mine. NE guy. soon. As to why, I did it. I just wanted out. And I couldn’...
um. the more i think about it. *Cop/Tree/Detain. thing
Ya know. The more I think about it. The more........it seems likely that someone saw me pass out and then called the cops. Without ever telling me they were going to. Yeah wow. I hopefully would ...
so. Ru knows.
Ru knows. most of the stuff I’ve recently told Jacob. except for the Benadryl thing. next. jd.
attempted SU. *no details*
this is from Wed.: I um. I don’t like admitting this but. I attempted SU this morning. I won’t give details. um ..........
they’re a, music group. Oh. I get it now. Due to the TBI I’ve at times come off as cold. But that’s not my fault. it’s just. sad that not everyone will understand it.
partially remembered rape. *Orange
so yes. the fact that I don’t accurately remember what happened in the van that night. is ‘normal’. 2 reasons: -i was really drunk -repressed memories ok. but something did happen. otherwise i w...
