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Its 0119 as I begin this entry. “Hitman” is on the TV as I am going on day two of high-level pain. I try to keep my pain to myself as its a topic people throw around so easy. I understand that...

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My uncle Matt died today. It’s currently 2330 hrs here. It’s a little past 12 hours since he was taken by a heart attack. I had to steady myself. I sobbed a bit when I found out. He was my “...

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I worked Mental Health. I am a Peer Support individual. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar I, PTSD, and other shit that I didn’t pay attention to, because I was NOT going to be defined by my d...

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I am getting really excited for NoJoMo 2018! I have been checking out the prompts every other day, trying to think about the experiences I would share, what I would write about. I feel like I ha...

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“…a whisper and a scream…“ I have been stuck on a couple songs lately. This one seems to be the current mood.

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I know it’s only the 8th of October and we are in OctPhoMo, but there is something special about NoJoMo for me. So, I got the list drawn up, and here it is. November Journal Month I can’t wait t...

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I feel like the zoo has gotten bigger. I see the new additions and I am in awe. There are people who have enclosed themselves willingly. These are people who had dreams they wanted to achieve....

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Do you have any regrets? No. I know that people will say that I’m lying. However, with where I am…who I am, at this moment…I would not change a thing. I can’t change other people, so there is ...

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Huskers are 0-3. Playing Purdue today… I am hoping we at least get on the board. We got fucking slaughtered by the Wolverines last week. My Wings didn’t do great against the Leafs last night. ...

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(Sighs. Rubs temples. Pinches bridge of nose.) I don’t know how many times I have flat-out told people that I’m the world’s biggest hypocrite in the emotional realm. In talking about emotions...

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1. Have you ever TP’d someone’s house? A bush, when I was 8-ish. Not a house. My parents would’ve snatched me up. 2. Have you ever stolen anything? A pack of gum when I was 6 I guess. My mom ...

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This weekend, my Huskers were slated to lose against the Wolverines. I know the Huskers are trying to rebuild and they think with Frost as the coach, it will be even better since he used to play...

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(Walks into the kitchen to grab a fresh glass of water, then giggling as I read the comments on my previous entry.) BFF: What’s funny? Me: I wrote an entry about you being a priority over men I h...

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I finally perused my Fakebook again and found a couple of highly controversial posts. When I say that, I don’t mean the bullshit politics or headliners in media. I mean those questions that no o...

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Four names I go by: 1. Georgie 2. George 3. Sweetie (This is used A LOT.) 4. Hon Four places I’ve lived: 1. Winnebago, NE 2. Sioux City, IA 3. Ft. Madison, IA 4. Etobicoke, Ontario Four favorite ...

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Swiped from Park Row Fallout. How did you decide your Prosebox name? I came over from OD so this name has followed me. While I had my free subscription, I wrote an entry to keep my name there as...

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How old will you be in five years? As of today, 43. Physically, anyway. Mentally, one never knows. How tall are you? 5’ 5” without shoes. What are you looking forward to most in the next six ...

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Ambient Stars for introducing me to these peeps. Even though it was a loooong tine ago. Not sure why, but this song kind of hit the feels today.

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”I need your help I can’t fight this forever…“ I have been fighting off those horrid thoughts again. The familiar burning of my skin is distracting. I have been trying to keep myself busy but...

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My brain wants to shut down. I jusy want to sleep. Larry is being weird. I don’t want to get involved again, and I am finally getting over him. I will always love him, but that life I wanted s...

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My MRI was rough. They had me situated in an odd position for 20 minutes. The brace was hurting my shoulders and the solid table I had to lay on was not good for my back. I will say the techs ...

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After finding out that I have another disc going, I felt annoyed. I knew this was inevitable, but I figured I would be closer to fucking 60 before it did. I got my MRI scheduled, and it just did...

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Dear You, The world will keep turning, no matter what. It doesn’t matter if I am here or there, and it definitely doesn’t matter if you are in my life as well. You got mad when I flung your past...

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On nights like this where my pain flares, I read random diaries. Its about summer, ”officially”, so its really no surprise to read about relationships crumbling. Some people are just a bag of u...

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I messaged the new dude a few days ago about not being able to post pix and links. The buttons to do that are no longer available to me. I have just posted the actual link, but its getting anno...

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