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My operations manager is allegedly fraternizing with his assistant from the store that I worked at last year. That assistant and I were pretty close during our time together. My operations manage...

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I don’t know how to make sense of this experience but I dove deep into myself yesterday. Through all the appointments and notifications and into the thoughts that I don’t like to think about. I w...

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My social anxiety is pretty high right now for the lamest reason. Tyler is moving to a different province and tonight is his goodbye party and I just don’t know why I have been obsessing over how...

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I don’t know what came over me yesterday. I spent a chunk of my morning laying on the floor in my room. I couldn’t catch my breath. My chest was too tight and my heart was pins and needles. I had...

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Out of nowhere my anxiety has returned and I do not care that it is back. I just realized that I had let it make all my decisions this week. All the wrong ones. The easy ones. The do nothings. . ...

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I feel so unfocused when I have my snap streaks to keep up with and when I start to fill in the voids with scrolling through Facebook and Instagram. A couple weeks ago I deactivated my Facebook a...

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I was cleaning up my facial hair situation when I accidentally fucked it all up and had to remove it all to reset it. I had a goatee for a year now. I liked how people treated me differently. I w...

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Things that triggered my depression do not trigger me anymore but I still have been feeling down lately. I am lonely. I wish I had a companion. When my 2 year old niece laughs or smiles she looks...

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Today was a little interesting. Work has been getting a little toxic for me lately. Today I accidentally told my boss how I have been feeling. I call it an accident because I haven’t even told my...

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My body has been going through some changes lately but I noticed a change in myself that is major. I have been living with depression for as long as I can remember and I honestly couldn’t imagine...

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The other day I had that holy ghost experience. Yesterday I think I understood why. I was feeling burdened and irritable because I just wanted to do nothing after I dropped my niece off at daycar...

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I think experienced the holy ghost or something this morning. After I dropped my niece off at her daycare I returned home to make myself some breakfast and have some Matcha tea before I went for ...

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My best friend got married yesterday to the man I set her up with. I was a bridesmaid and Tyler was the maid of honor. The bride left me out of all the planning because she gets me but Tyler was ...

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Does that existential dread ever leave? I feel like we all harbor it. It’s unique to us all but it’s right there burning a hole in our hearts and making us feel like we never have enough. It’s ri...

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I figured out the source of my severe anxiety from a couple weeks ago and I have been making some major changes to my lifestyle. To combat my cystic acne issues I was debating quitting dairy. The...

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I have been experiencing some pretty intense anxiety the last couple days. For no reason it appears. It was like I was getting gut punched the whole time. I barely ate at all. Honestly. Anyway in...

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I had the house to myself May long weekend and I decided that I would have a guy over. It’s been a year and a half since I lost my v-card. My first and probably my last Grindr hookup because it w...

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I think I just got too good at hiding from the existential dread. I quit alcohol a couple weeks ago. I just wanted a cleanse. My reasons for that were small but now I feel that I have something b...

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Sometimes I like to let my demons out to play for some reason. I had been so stressed with work that I was going to crazy and taking everybody with me. I was even bumming cigarettes off an employ...

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I’m being an idiot. Zach and I were play fighting over space at work and he went to squeeze behind me at one point and I pushed my tush against him and was like “oh papi” and then he got flustere...

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Suddenly I’m a life coach to the fuck boys I work with. I know “kids” look up to me and such but not this many attractive straight guys at once. It’s just 3 but I’m in my dirty 30s and they give ...

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It has about run its course. I tend to turn my feelings for somebody else into something toxic for everyone. I didn’t let it get that far this time. No obsessive boy disorder. I think my night on...

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I don’t want my narrative to be about a boy. I do have other things going on. A friend of mine is part of an art exhibit tonight. I might go. If I don’t I will just ask him all about it because i...

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I figured out what I am going to do. I am explaining this situation with Zach to my Manager and I will make a sexual harassment claim. Nobody will lose their job over this I assume. I could not s...

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I might be exhausting myself to save face around Zach. I am definitely exhausting myself trying not to talk about him. It’s hard. I have to get this out today however. He keeps throwing shade. He...

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