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I just spent the last two hours at the casino. I flexed and then lost $210. iDumb. My savings is running out and I need to start my job search sooner than I wanted because I got desperate and wan...

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The climate in this house was a little sad yesterday. Matt, my brother in law, took Harley, their family dog, to the vet to see what was going on with her right eye. It’s completely black. Turns ...

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Tony has been a bit of a flake and I was telling Leanne that I felt that I deserved better from my friends. Then I mentioned that I felt petty for feeling that way because I’m too grown to be whi...

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I suppose that I did let my demons come out and play yesterday. I don’t know why I let myself do that. I was at constant war with myself, countering every negative thought and feeling throughout ...

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I am a little embarrassed about the mood that I was in yesterday. The last few days actually, I’ve been pretty salty. I feel that I deserve better from the people in my life. I actually hate havi...

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I had the house to myself this weekend. My roomies did not plan that so I just got stuck watching their dog but whatever. I locked my keys in my car when I went to Hetal’s yesterday. Nobody was i...

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I can feel my depression trying to come and take over my life. Maybe in some ways, it has. I’m pretty good at swerving negative thinking. It was not easy training my mind to do that but I think t...

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One of Matt’s childhood friends committed suicide a few days ago. (Matt is my sister’s husband whom I all I live with) He was a priest, he left behind a pregnant wife and three kids. We suspect t...

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Oh today I’m just a drop of water and I’m running down a mountainside come tomorrow I’ll be in the ocean I’ll be rising with the morning tide Am I okay? It can be hard to tell sometimes because I...

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My bad mood is finally starting to let up. I just get so mad about being mad because I don’t want to carry that feeling around with me all day. Ya know? I caught myself taking it out on my sister...

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I was very adamant about making sure that I see my mother today. I don’t know why but I just wanted to see her. We have been trying to schedule me an appointment to do her hair but she has been v...

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I’m so irritable today. I’ve got a lot that I need to deal with but I’ve got it all on the back burner. I’m evolved enough to know that not dealing with things is what generates my anxiety but I’...

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Something reminded me of my old penpal Jenson so I DM’d him the other day. He was always like a big brother to me. He used to date my cousin online back in the 2000s lol. Through MSN. He and I be...

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You’ll probably need to read my last entry to get brought up to speed. My sister Miranda came over yesterday to do some laundry. She seemed to be in better spirits. By like, a lot. Now that she i...

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In my last entry when I said that I did not care about what happens to my sister’s boyfriend I did not mean it that way. His family came to take him back to his city today. He was supposed to be ...

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I don’t know how to start this entry. My sister Miranda called me while I was out with some friends this evening. She asked me to take her to the Health Science Centre. (It’s a special hospital) ...

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I was just watching Antonio Garza’s latest video about the time she got arrested. It brought up an old memory of mine, the time I got arrested. So! story time: First, I need to explain my city. W...

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My mood yesterday was pretty sour. After I wrote that entry my sister asked me to watch her son while she ran to the store quickly. He cried the entire time. His cry is three times louder than Ma...

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It’s been a couple of days since I’ve done any real exercise. I can barely get myself to move today because I am in such a bad mood. I think that I am just sick of being around people. They are a...

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The petting zoo yesterday was awesome. I wanted to share pics but I forgot my phone at Bev’s house. I spent the whole day there. She made black bean quinoa burgers which I thought were alright. S...

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Yesterday I was invited to spend the day in Anola with my sister’s family at her inlaws. They wanted a designated driver and they all know that I ain’t busy lol. I declined anyway. They have quad...

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Frig. On Tuesday I ran about 7.5km according to the health app on my phone. I ended that one with doing quite a few sprints. I am trying to get more explosive exercises in so that I can improve m...

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I was right, all that tension between my brother in law and I was just in my head. It finally came up, my lack of job searching and I was honest with him. That I was just enjoying this break. He ...

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My anxiety got a little high the instant my brother in law came home. I felt like I was in trouble. So now there is all this imaginary tension between us. I can barely look at him which is so lam...

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While I was out in Gimili with my mother, she casually explained to me that she and her boyfriend have been spending weekends at their trailer as well as taking their camper trailer to other plac...

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