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I started to have a panic attack this morning, the timing was so awful because I was alone with my nephew. He was asleep and I was just praying that he would stay asleep until my sister returned ...

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I did not want to write another entry until I was able to report that I had finally replied to some job postings… so yes, I at least applied for one position that I had found online. It’s at an a...

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So I did not cancel on Toni, I had her over last night and we had a quaint evening. It was like play pretend for her to see what living together is going to look like. She is very excited about m...

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The roommates are gone for the weekend. I don’t have to be around anybody’s energy but my own. I deleted an entry that I wrote yesterday because I spent an hour writing it and it was just me comp...

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My heart is a little heavy today. This morning while I was sitting outside preparing myself mentally to go for a run in this heat my sister shouted out to me that Jess made a Facebook post about ...

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I was so flustered after I wrote my last entry. I carried that anxiety with me all day. I don’t know why that made me feel so vulnerable. I suppose that I have to admit to myself that right now I...

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[The following entry may contain opinions that may not be suitable for all audiences. Reader discretion is advised] I did some window shopping online on Friday and I accidentally placed an order....

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I think that I have to restructure everything that I do throughout a day because I need to stop being comfortable with my life right now. I’m going to spend time with my day planner later and get...

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I’ve been feeling a little speechless lately. I exposed myself to a bit of what is going on in the world these days and I’ve just been shook all week. It’s hard to feel like I am allowed to go on...

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I am a little flustered right now. My credit card declined at the grocery store, I kept making the cashier try it over and over until I gave up and used my debit card. Like, I told the cashier wh...

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I took my grandmother grocery shopping on Monday and that is literally the only thing that I accomplished in the last few days. I’ve just been enjoying having the house to myself. I don’t have to...

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My girl Mandeep wanted to have a little get together today before she moves her life to Toronto. It was nice to see everybody again. I missed them. We all used to work together. After that shindi...

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I struggled to sleep again last night. I am starting to finally stress about my situation. I’ve been out of work for fourteen weeks now and I am almost out of savings. I do not want to regret thi...

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I struggled to fall asleep last night. Every time that I closed my eyes I would see gods and monsters. I felt under attack by my demons only I am not afraid of them. Panic attacks used to be my b...

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I can only laugh at myself right now. My patience is as thin as I am right now and it’s so funny because it is my body that is triggering me. I was mad at my morning coffee because I was unable t...

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So yesterday I cried. Now I feel a little more alive. I just go numb sometimes. Not even music can reach me. I don’t even realize when I’m in a dark place because I just make myself comfortable. ...

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I’ve been feeling kind of speechless today. I can feel that Harley is not in my life anymore… Literally, I started bawling my eyes out right after I typed that last sentence. I don’t hear her paw...

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I’m sad. I didn’t think I would be, honestly. A few weeks ago I said that I hated dogs and I felt bad for putting that thought out there into the universe. To make up for that I had been taking m...

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My sleep was disturbed by my frequent need to void my bladder last night, when did I turn 40? I am still getting over a cold which is taking a toll on me tbh. I don’t want to be a man bitch and c...

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Yesterday I pulled out my new fancy day planner and I finally started to fill it in. I love the page on the front of each month for little lists. I listed my three goals for the summer: 1) Job 2)...

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*Wake up in the morning feeling cranky as heck. Tossing and turning seems to mess up my neck. Seems every time I wake up I’ve already turned off my snoozer. I start every day off being a loser. *...

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I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. I just want to throw a tantrum over every little thing. All the negative thoughts that I push away are trying to creep in and become an obsession. I ...

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I was experiencing extremely high anxiety yesterday when Bev drove my little bubble butt to the university. When we got to our destination I sat outside that office for a bit to collect myself. M...

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My nerves were so shot yesterday. I felt exactly the way I used to feel when I was a teenager by default. My social anxiety could not cope with school. Bev is picking me up shortly and taking me ...

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Bev asked for my help yesterday to move and build some furniture and I also wanted my sister and her husband to have a day to themselves before he goes back to work so I decided to spend the day ...

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