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I met my new doctor today. He’s a fucking sweetheart. I can’t with him. He’s like a big jolly Johnathan Van Ness. On his desk, he had a little rainbow unicorn shrine moment. It was a rainbow teat...

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I’m doing another round on Indeed. This time I actually threw my resume around a bit. Originally I did not want a manager position of any kind but that’s all that I barely qualify for that pays a...

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This morning, as I tried to pick up where I left off in Brene Brown’s book Rising Strong I realized that I had to start that book from the beginning. It took me two and a half hours to get throug...

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As I finally have some time and space to myself today I got to let my guard down and see what emotions wanted to come through. I’m jacked up and busted folks. I’m so irrevocably broken and desper...

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I am supposed to be conquering my morning routine, which I am not failing miserably at I just feel like I woke up with a hangover. This happened yesterday also. I stopped drinking days ago so I d...

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My search on how to find answers seems to point to meditation. I really don’t want to be that hippie vegan who meditates and collects healing crystals. Hi amethyst, lupus and quartz on my shelf a...

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My anxiety has been unreasonably high today. Since that damn wedding from a few weeks ago actually. I’ll disown the next friend that sends me a wedding invitation. It’s too fucking stressful for ...

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I am trying to outsmart myself. To outsmart my procrastination. Yesterday, on my computer I split my screen between two websites. One is the page where I upload my resume and the other is my bank...

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Last night while I had the house to myself I did something that I haven’t done since I was a preteen. I screamed. I screamed a lot. I screamed at everything. I screamed so hard that I could feel ...

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I’m not in control of my anxiety & depression as I once thought. I inadvertently starved myself yesterday. I then intentionally ate something that I knew was going to make me feel nauseous to...

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I just finished the chapter in Gretch Carlson’s Be Fierce that I was waiting for. I now have a term for what happened to me. After I reported sexual harassment, I experienced Direct Retaliation. ...

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I’m almost a quarter of the way into Gretchen Carlson’s book Be Fierce and I can’t even believe how bad workplaces are for women! Even I have a history of being an enabler and I didn’t even have ...

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Guess what I’m doing with my life today? That’s right! Nothing! I am crippled by fear & anxiety and have not found my way around it. Yet. Maybe I will not hesitate and do something that will ...

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I’m so gagged. I decided to join the 21st century and download Audible. I get one credit for the 30-day free trial and I accidentally used it to download the wrong book. I wanted Mel Robbin’s aud...

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My sleep could not have been worse. All that I can think about is everything my previous employers get away with. It was the six-month anniversary of being fired so naturally, it was just going t...

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I’m feeling pretty woozy and dizzy so I am pretty sure that I caught the flu that is going around. I knew that I was going to catch it as my niece and nephew are both infected and are just coughi...

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Last week around this time I was questioning if I had control over my drinking or not so I decided to go on a cleanse. One week was enough, Damn Daniel, back at again with the red wine #2012momen...

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[Trigger Warning: This entry has an opinion in it that is not recommended for readers with low self-esteem] The results for the bloodwork should be in by Monday. I won’t know what to think if the...

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It’s absolutely criminal the way I am abusing Prosebox in the last 24 hours. I left a voicemail with that lawyer. If he does not return my call Leanne will go talk to his assistant. I called my d...

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Three entries in one day? Not a record. Well, I might have legal representation from my countries biggest law firm. They have a renown labour and employment team and I was given the contact infor...

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Well, once I again I did not wake up in a tropical paradise with a gorgeous specimen of male goodness wrapped around me and six figures in my bank account… so you can imagine how disappointed I a...

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After I wrote my entry yesterday I wanted to talk to somebody so I called my mother. “Ma! I’m trying not to freak out right now“ “What’s wrong son?“ “My hair is falling out and I’m gonna die!“ “...

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The kind of alopecia that I suspected myself of having is androgenic alopecia (pattern hair loss). It’s hormonally driven but after this morning I suspect that it might be telogen effluvium alope...

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A starting ritual is a great way to learn a new habit. It helps inspire confidence and courage. The one habit that I have been trying so hard to break is hesitation. We have about a five-second w...

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A couple of weekends ago I wrote about how high my stress was about going out to that social and then to my friend’s wedding the following day. My social anxiety got the better of me but I pushed...

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