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I can’t get my energy up. I can barely peel myself off the couch. My head feels like it is stoned all of the time. It doesn’t hurt, it feels good, to be honest, but it’s a bit disturbing because ...

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34 times around the sun. I don’t feel like today is any special but it’s my Birthday. I’ll get a couple of texts and that’s probably it. It’s all good. I am a little disturbed about yesterday. I ...

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My first thought this morning was about how I am not living my life out loud. These dense energies that I am going through are getting worse… but I have faith that it is because I am learning how...

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Just before I decided to get out of bed I rolled over to see what the time was on my alarm clock. 11:11. I took that as a good sign. It’s New Year’s eve and I usually like to reflect but I don’t ...

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I had the house to myself yesterday evening. It was just what the doctor ordered. Basically I just played Skyrim without having to wear clothes around the house. I married Onmund and we live toge...

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I woke up feeling good again. Maybe it is the meds? I also woke up at noon which is seven hours away from the time that I want to be getting up. I want to join the 5am club. It’s my new gaming ad...

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My cat woke me up this morning by falling on my face. I don’t know what he was trying to do with his life or how he managed to free fall on my face but it happened. He’s chunky yet funky and it h...

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Over the span of eight hours, I drank an entire bottle of wine. Oops! I was up until four in the morning playing Skyrim and I didn’t even sleep in today. I should feel like shit but I don’t. What...

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It’s all over for me. The holidays I mean. I don’t know why I have such animosity toward Christmas, I don’t actually hate it. I think it’s just the energy of everybody else being stressed out, hi...

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Merry Christmas everyone! So yeah I’m going to be that guy to complain on Christmas. My mother usually does a brunch for us because everybody just does Christmas with their partner’s families and...

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“the most important decision any human being has to make is whether they live in a friendly or hostile universe” Albert Einstein I love this man! I’ll probably watch this a few times.

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I just had a rude awakening. First of all, I apparently needed 11 hours of sleep. I was running on three hours of sleep yesterday. I had a migraine all day. I don’t know if that was the meds or l...

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I wrote a complete list of things that I have been avoiding. From big things like dealing with my financial crisis to little things like putting air in my tires. I suppose that this list will be ...

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I’m officially medicated. I caved and I started my prescription last night. I’m relatable again. I don’t know how I feel today about anything. I’m not blaming the meds, it’s too soon for that. I ...

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Took a long hard look at my life Lost my way while I was fighting the time A big black cloud, stormy sky Followed me, oh I was living a lie So heartless, so selfish, so in darkness When all your ...

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Mel Robbin’s says I should ask the question What happened to me? Well, I thought that getting a dumb job was going to be easy because my resume is dope. I procrastinated because I am struggling t...

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All hell broke loose in my mind this morning. Everything I’ve been holding back just went supernova, yet again! My anxiety attacks are getting worse. My sister was trying to help calm me down ear...

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Do you think 19 panic attacks a day is normal? I hit a point the other day when I thought I was having a heart attack because my chest was so tight. I spent the last few days hiding in a video ga...

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I was up early so I got a head start on my morning and I didn’t give myself enough time to overthink or hesitate about leaving the house. I got my energy and vibrations up and I headed to the gro...

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It’s 4:30 in the morning and I’m writing this entry because my reality is a little broken at the moment. I know that I’m awake but my head does not know if I am real. This does not feel real. I w...

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According to Mel Robbins, I need to recognize my initial physical reaction to fear so that I can recognize when I need to assert control. For me, it’s in my chest. My heart will drop and then sta...

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Psychosis? Or spiritual awakening? I kept myself up until four in the morning because I could not turn my brain off. I haven’t filled my prescription yet that my doctor gave me. It doesn’t feel r...

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A fire was lit under my ass after Vita fell through. It didn’t fall through completely, the one in my old neighbourhood is hiring and I just emailed them my resume. Due to that falling through I ...

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I am trying so hard to be calm right now. My hands are just shaking right now. Did I have too much coffee? Is it because I fell asleep hungry and then woke up hungry and then waited six hours bef...

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Every time that I think I am over it something happens and all of my scars open. The indignities and injustices that we all suffered when I reported that predator from my last place of employment...

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