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This chaos comes with gifts. I’m looking at this as one giant awakening. We have an opportunity to stop and look at our ways of life. People say that they want things to go back to normal? Normal...

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Keeping Things Whole In a field I am the absence of field. This is always the case. Wherever I am I am what is missing. When I walk I part the air and always the air moves in to fill the spaces w...

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Someone tried breaking into our garage last night. My sister apparently tried waking me up but failed miserably. The garage is crazy old and falling apart and they didn’t find anything worth taki...

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I have an infection in my mouth from when I bit my tongue a few days ago. My throat burns, my nasal cavities feel like they just inhaled a strong astringent (or cocaine not that I would know), my...

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My nerves were shot this morning. I struggled with my depression all weekend which I should have seen coming as this happens after I experience high anxiety. What triggered that spike in anxiety ...

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I’m really struggling with my depression today. It started yesterday actually and I can’t seem to shake it. I’m not thinking anything but I’m just feeling everything instead. If that makes sense?...

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I finally heard from Hetal. She’s been stuck in India. She went to visit her husband and then the Coronapocalypse happened and now she’s stuck there. She’s in good health. Her mental state is not...

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I went to collect my check yesterday and a few people started to cry because they missed me so much. It was weird. I don’t feel too attached to that place. Apparently everybody keeps talking abou...

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I didn’t end up atomplishing anything yesterday. I was just so tired that I even passed out for a huge chunk of the day. That was probably my third nap since I went vegan. I miss naps so much. Ev...

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Come evening yesterday my mother was suddenly relieved that all of her kids were laid off and not exposed to COVID-19. Either she was neurotic yesterday or started drinking early. I was kept up f...

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My sister spoke with my mother this morning and my mother ended up in tears over the phone. She’s so freaked out and worried about her children. None of us are able to source income at the moment...

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Last night my sister was informed that her husband was given the option to return home from work and be laid off and forced into self-isolation or he can stay in Ontario and continue working for ...

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Well, it happened. Due to this pandemic the company had decided to let go of 75% of its staff. They made that decision at 3am this morning. I did not make the cut. I suspected it the moment I wal...

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Ever just wake up and do 50 Crossfit burpees all before 6am? I think I’m a masochist. Anyway, something weird and funny happened at work yesterday that I forgot to bring up. I can’t remember what...

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I had a fun day at work. I like the way things are going but I don’t trust the way things are going because they are going too good and I’m just trying not to feel like everything is just going t...

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The tightness in my chest and the sore throat was due to my Sensi. I tried a hand cream that Bev gave me and it was way too fragrant and I noticed that my chest got tighter and such immediately s...

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I’m trying not to get worked up but it suddenly feels like needles in my throat a little bit when I swallow and I’m starting to develop a cough. I don’t even know where to get tested for COVID-19...

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I’m tempted to call in sick again. I did not sleep well. I had some serious IBS that hurt so badly that I almost had a panic attack. The vegan cheese I bought and used yesterday had the may conta...

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I felt like owning that I am selfish and I called in sick to work. I did not sleep well and I woke up with the I don’t wannas and I was all out of suck it ups so I took fuckitol and I called Beck...

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I think that I have my sleep schedule in a good place. My shifts appear to be strictly 8-5 so that helps. I’m asleep shortly after nine and I’m up 1.5 hours before my alarm… which is set for 6. Y...

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I was a little gagged this morning when I got to work and learned that Tracy and Stephanie had to abruptly catch flights home to the U.S last night. My country is closing our borders pretty tight...

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I was aiming to get a haircut today but I decided against it. I finally got to deposit my first paycheck in 11 months and I was praying to Ganesha for my bank to be open. I was starting to feel d...

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So my mother has to work from home now. My niece’s daycare is closed. The grocery stores have various items and sections closed off and have employees acting as bouncers and handing those items o...

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Something about the way this guy, Mario, describes his sexuality and the way he always thought that he wasn’t too affected by his rape experience spoke to me. He’s straight and that’s not really ...

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Toni once again is stressing me out about our plans to move in together. She keeps hitting me with her options. To be fair our plans did fall through when I lost my job but since then she keeps t...

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