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My coordinator has a lot of animosity about the participants in our program. He has a lot of animosity toward them as well. I don’t like it. He’s making it feel like we are at war with our parti...

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We are trying to do philanthropy but they have us doing big business. We haven’t been serving our kids because we have been serving numbers and that is the frustration we have been feeling. We d...

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We recruited our first speaker for our first Our Eldest Brother event. Sean Rayland-Boubar. We want positive male role models to come speak to our youth. We have the drug, gang, and sex traffick...

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I explained to my coordinator, my friend, that I felt disturbed about seeing him so broken yesterday, and I didn’t understand why until I got home. I think I learned something about you that yo...

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My coordinator buckled under the pressure. He disclosed to me that he had a nervous breakdown the day prior. He’s only human. He needs to put himself first and is considering taking a leave of a...

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A little suffering is good for the soul. It builds resilience. [Existential Content Advisory] My walls of Jericho have come down. There was no Trojan horse. Lord knows I didn’t let anyone in. ...

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Welcome to the winter of my discontent. I call my roommate a 40-year-old teenager. Meanwhile, I am struggling to regulate my emotions. On the surface, I’m peachy keen. I’m just a chill guy. Un...

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I didn’t explain why the community walk felt like I was walking through somewhere wartorn. We walked along the river, tent city. It was full of debris. The neighborhoods were boarded up. Buildin...

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I am questioning my choices. A little bit of suffering is good for building resilience. So they say. I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and did my first volunteer shift at a shelter. I donat...

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I am not one of those vile and profane gremlins that needs to be coddled when upset. I’m an adult. I need to be alone to process things. I’m inflexible on this matter. I don’t want to need peopl...

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All my defenses are down. I was sick for almost a whole month. I was barely able to keep it together. Now that my body is done healing and I am on the other side of it, all my defenses are dow...

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I love that New Year New Me energy. Most people in my age group have given up and think the hype is stupid. It’s still my favorite time of year. It’s when a lot of people stop feeling fine and I...

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You need to own your story so that you can change it. What is your story? I’m just having a scheduled existential crisis. I wish I had a shaman to interpret the will of creator. I am asking fo...

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Good luck with your bread. Said Andy while he was eating the toppings off his pizza. Avoiding the crust because he’s on a keto diet. Look at us! I said. Two grown ass men afraid of toast!. Bev...

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I got my sister to look for an apartment or house to rent. She loves doing that. I am tired of living with this 40-year-old teenager. She can suffer from her dumb cow’s disease on her own. I ha...

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Yesterday had all of the ingredients for a good day cake. It fell flat. It was bitter. I woke up way too early for my own good because I was too excited about finally being able to go to the g...

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How do three men in their thirties not have $800 between them? I read in a meme. This was a cannon event. This was several years ago but I couldn’t take the shame so it inspired me to start acti...

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After I wrote my last entry, I went to town around the apartment. That battle on that battlefield that I described got very intense again. I think I need to write every single day or else my min...

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I made a pact with myself that I wouldn’t go window shopping today. So, while I was window shopping today I managed to spook myself. I was annoyed by how powerless I was to my impulse to leave a...

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I’m trying to get my spending under control. My window shopping is still out of control but I’m not making superfluous purchases. I’m at least good at convincing myself that what I want is a mus...

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I forget that my roommate has a Virgo moon. She would be matching my clean and organized energy if it wasn’t for her dumb cow’s disease. She is a Taurus. A lazy Taurus. I think she has an Aries ...

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Today was a success. I’m a little choked up about it because it was absolutely wonderful. We had a feasting ceremony with our participants. All but one made it. They brought their families. We h...

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The plan was to go all out at the gym this morning but I have a bit of a sinus cold. My body needs rest. I’m not coughing or sneezing. It’s just like someone left the faucet running. I’m a freak...

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Our communications director came to my office to praise me for the photos I took of our group program last weekend. He was very excited. They are the best shots he’s been sent. He can use them f...

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On the first Thursday of every month, my organization has a piping ceremony. Andy took me to that first thing this morning. It was beautiful. This is what I wanted when I first applied. I wanted...

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