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Blah-Day
A deep rest, that is what i am calling my depression. I feel a little worn down which is perfectly okay. I am out of things that can radically distract me so I have no choice but to rumble with m...
Slight rant.
Yesterday I had one of the most cringe moments with Toni to date. I made a lasagna for supper, while I was making it she asked me when it was going to be ready. From her chest she pushed out the ...
Dread
It was a rough week at work and I carried the stress over into my evenings. We didn’t have time for our regular tasks because of massive projects that took the entire week. I was paired up with a...
Creeps
Waiting for Toni to just fuck off and go to work on Sunday’s is hard. It’s the only day I can be away from everyone and everything. I don’t want to have to be mindful of someone else 24/7. She ne...
Gail Swallows
My camping trip was quaint. We didn’t do a whole lot because Leanne is still recovering a bit from her knee surgery. It was nice to see Angelina and Carly as well. They were so prepared and very ...
Bible Study
My Facebook account was suspended. It felt like a relief. I ditched social media for two years a while ago and I only returned to connect with people during the lockdowns. Then I was using it to ...
Mood Poisoning: The Sequel
My mood poisoning from yesterday carried on into today, it would seem. I can’t shake the image of what I saw when I got home last night. I spent the majority of my day helping my mother get my gr...
In the End
On top of the positive things happening in my little life, my grandmother gets released from the hospital on Monday or Tuesday. I’m helping my mother get her new apartment ready this weekend. I w...
Upish
Things with Toni have been really great since our talk. I feel like I have my friend back. She’s even been cooking for me and made my lunch once. We have been chatting like we used to, I’m very h...
Medically Religious
Toni and I stayed up late drinking and just shooting the shit last night. We are going to hang out by the pool when she gets back from work later. Restrictions are pretty lifted so we don’t have ...
Saturn Day
I had my talk with Toni. It went well enough. Naturally, she was lost for about half of it. I put together a list of the expenses and our agreement, at her behest, and she has no memory of reques...
The Score
I just got back from a little walk. I had to vent to Bev on the phone. Toni came at me out of nowhere about the hydro bill (electrical bill). I moved it to an open spot so I could clean the table...
Sun Day
When I got home from work on Friday Toni was in rough shape. She had a panic attack so severe that it caused her to spend the entire day throwing up. She was crying uncontrollably all day long an...
Dual
I woke up in a decent mood again today. I was more engaging and interactive with people at work I noticed. I felt light, not so heavy-hearted. The existential dread did not bubble up and ruin my ...
Tom Petty
Yesterday I was just fuming when I was at the markets. It hit me that Toni accused me of being a freeloader. She has no memory of ever telling what to take out of rent, regarding what I send to h...
Meh
I spoke with my grandmother yesterday, she sounded rough. She was in good spirits though, she was very tired. She’s just down to a lung infection now. After my shift today I am helping my mother ...
Derp
I did not start my day off on the best note. I had a horrible dream about my mother. Watching her go through the motions with how things are with my grandmother made me appreciate her so much mor...
Up Down Funk
My anxiety was high the last few days. Toni and I resolved things, more or less, but I can’t seem to let it go. The more I think about it the more it just bothers me. I was opening up to her abou...
Air
Toni and I finally had our talk about our finances. She brought it up. She didn’t seem to recall having any previous conversations about it ever in which she would tell me “don’t worry about it I...
Edge of The World
My heart is heavy today. My country is using the graves of my people to build public opinion about Bill C-15, UNDRIP (Declaration on the Rights of Indigenous Peoples). The problem is that it does...
Rant, as per usual.
I’m feeling petty today toward my roommate. I vented a little bit a few entries back. I’ve taken on the bulk of the expenses. Especially the bulk of the groceries. She eats everything in sight. S...
Leading Cause of Coincidence
The leading cause of coincidence is the mRNA gene therapy called a vaccine. My grandmother is not in charge of her medical decisions, she did not want to poison herself over superstitious beliefs...
Monday Poisoning
I did not sleep well last night. I am still wrecked from that workout on Saturday, I kept waking up in pain. I cannot straighten my arms or even lift them above my head. Getting dressed and undre...
Saturn Day
After my shift on Friday, I headed to my sisters to have a sleepover with my niece and nephew. I’ve been spending a lot of time with those kids. We didn’t hang out like this while I lived there, ...
Tea
When you’re not demented and believe that literary characters and their allegories are real it is very easy to see that this is what all of our ancestors were trying to convey: It’s pure esoteri...
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Things happening in my life currently
