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I cannot organize my thoughts. In turn, I cannot organize my life. I don’t have a lot to put together but I don’t have enough structure. I am not goal oriented and I commit to procrastinating whi...

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Toni, my roommate, went on another tangent last night. We were talking about work and she responded with one of her insecure rants about how pathetic everybody is at my work for being lifers. Tha...

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I suspect that I will be in my feels today. My anxiety was high when I woke up yesterday. Depression usually follows. I’ll be okay. My team doesn’t work today. I picked up a shift yesterday beca...

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Our excursion, as Leanne calls it, was quite quaint. We went to a small town up north to get out of the city. We checked out all of the shops and did a lot of walking. I got so flustered when a r...

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I’m heading north with some friends today. Just to a small town to get out of the city. It should be a quaint time even though the weather is cold. I just want to feel heat already. I picked up ...

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This Saturday, my friends and I are going to a small town up north for the day. We just want to lay on the beach all day. The weather isn’t nice enough to do more than that. It’s barely breaking ...

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My heart was heavy today but I pushed through. We are about ten days away from the UN making my medical decisions. I don’t want any of that on my mind right now. All I can think about is my niece...

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I know the risks when I order food from restaurants. My skin is breaking out, something I ate was contaminated with dairy. Usually, ulcers burn into my mouth before this point but I’ll be okay. I...

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I started napping after my shifts. I know it’s not the best idea but I am past the point of caring. Caring about anything, really. My depression is not subsiding since I surrendered to it. I know...

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I have emotional incontinence. Ok, it’s all just under the surface. I don’t show pain and fear in person. That would be the Scorpio placements in me, I suppose. I should have seen this coming. I ...

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I am a procrastinator. I haven’t filed my taxes for last year. I haven’t done it since 2019 actually. I had reasons for that but I was going to attempt doing that today. My CRA account has been r...

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I had a decent week. It went by fast, at least. At work, I have been the guy finding all of the safety issues and reporting them. Lately, the store has been proactive in correcting them. It doesn...

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Individuals with same-sex attractions have a preventable disease. It is unnatural and they are the axis of all evil. They need to be cured. That is the original, groundbreaking, revolutionary rhe...

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I noticed earlier that it is my three anniversary of being fired from the restaurant I worked at for thirteen years. Long story short, it was brought to my attention that the operations manager w...

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I had a nice evening with Toni. I got us Disney+ so that we could watch the Dropout. She made supper again. Pad Tai, it was so good. It was also the only meal I ate yesterday because I had fasted...

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I am fasting today. Just for twenty-four hours. If I last. Just over three hours left. Toni works today, I had the apartment to myself. I did my Sunday self-care routine today. My coffee enema wa...

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I had a very triggering conversation with Toni a few days ago. We had just finished watching a movie and she asked me if I knew anything about the third eye. I pointed to my bookshelf and said th...

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I tackled the majority of the things that I had been procrastinating. My anxiety should subside a little bit now. I finally got around to making homemade laundry detergent. My eczema hasn’t acte...

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My heart has been feeling heavy all day. My soul is crushed by something and I am not sure what it is. I spent the day at my mother’s. She hosted Easter. She hasn’t hosted anything since con-19. ...

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I got my roots touched up yesterday. I barely made it out of my parking spot. I had to dig it out and it took a while. Then I almost got stuck in the parking lot at the mall. It’s supposed to be ...

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My nerves are shot. It’s the same old toxic habit of procrastinating. I’ve created a positive feedback loop and now I am experiencing fear whenever I want to do something for myself. I will push ...

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My city, my entire southern province I should say, is preparing for that geo-engineered storm that is coming our way tomorrow. We are expecting up to 50cm of snow. My boss told us to stay home if...

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I had an exhausting week at work. What kept my spirit up was anticipating movie night with my niece and nephew. I spent last night at my sisters. I had a swell evening. Yesterday, I was packing m...

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I feel enraged over nothing. What else is new? Toni, my roommate, has no life. She has no hobbies and no interests and does nothing. She’s always home and it makes me feel smothered randomly. Sh...

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I don’t feel like I am doing anything for myself. I am not even thinking about myself let alone doing anything for myself. I am not doing anything that advances me in life. I have dreams but I ha...

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