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I picked up extra shifts this week. I could use the money. I wanted the extra time off, after all, but I will be okay. My avoidance and procrastination saga continues. These will not be my proble...

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For dinner last night Toni and I went out to eat. She officially asked that we find a new place when our lease expires. I am not feeling it. I already came to that conclusion just a couple of wee...

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I’m self-aware that I sound like a broken record. This is because I am in a rut. Sure, there is rare conjunction with Mars, Uranus and the North Node in Taurus which can wreak havoc and disrupt o...

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I ended my day with crippling lethargy and a headache, again. I was like goodbye cruel world by 8 pm. I got a solid 9-hour sleep. I think these are signs that I need to detox. I’m going to fast t...

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My mind is all over the place, my emotions are all over the place while I am just always in the same place, I feel stuck. I cannot connect to anything esoteric. I am indentured in what the annoy...

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My mother was in a little car accident over the weekend. She waited a whole day before she told any of us. It’s so her to put that off to not ruin our weekend. She is okay, she will need some phy...

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I haven’t been the most productive in regards to advancing my goals. I am working with a life coach, I am rumbling with my procrastination issues. My issues with avoidance. I label it My Negative...

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I went to a couple of thrift stores yesterday. I felt compelled to look at books and I managed to score some that piques my interests. Encyclopedias about various religions, astrology, healing, r...

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I’m pretty sure that I have a slight concussion from hitting my head on something at work. I have a permanent headache but I also get hit hard with fatigue throughout the day. It knocks me out. I...

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I had to go full Karen the other day. I purchased a patio set for my balcony and when I went to build it there was no hardware in it. No instructions either. I called the store, and the dumb twat...

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I’m really fighting with my mind today. It’s 4 in the morning! I get up this early for work. Anyway, I found a 5 piece patio set that is perfect for our balcony. I couldn’t get Toni to support me...

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My life coaching session was awful. I was talking about things that I do not like to talk about. I was thinking about things that I do not like to think about. It wasn’t a bad thing, just an unco...

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The saga at work is not over, apparently. Linda broke her non-disclosure agreement, again, and ran her big mouth about our drama. Now the whole team believes that I called our aware line on our b...

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My hours have been cut and that is okay. I didn’t want full-time shifts, I just got comfortable with the checks. However, with gas prices and the cost of groceries, I should be prepared. I am goi...

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The cat that Toni was catsitting was put down yesterday. His name was Scally. He was special. I felt a little bummed out about it while I was at work. Toni did not take it well. She is inconsolab...

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Diana, a supervisor at work, told me that it was a sign that I am meant for bigger things when I didn’t get the position I applied for. That stuck with me because I had a plan before the world de...

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On my drive home with Linda, from work, I ranted a bit about our boss. The blatant double standards that she has. There is one set of rules for some and a completely different set for others. Lin...

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I wasn’t the selected candidate for that full-time position. I’m only gagged because Linda got it. She is literally the worst employee on our team. My boss had an ASM sit with us when she gave me...

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It no longer makes sense to live in the area that Toni and I live in because she is starting a new job closer to my workplace. We started looking for a new apartment or house to rent in that area...

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I had to talk some sense into Toni, my roommate. She is not a very evolved person, to be frank. She has the emotional development of a child. This is why she has toxic codependence. She was about...

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I approached the store manager first thing this morning about what was going on within my team. Linda, the coworker I drive to work, is claiming that the full-time position we both applied for wa...

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There is truth. There is no my truth or a truth there is only the truth. Everything is subjected to it. You cannot have anything sustainable without it. No love, wealth, health, power, etc. Every...

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I haven’t had my interview yet for that full-time position on my team. Linda, the woman I am up against was already promised it. She couldn’t keep that secret to herself and everybody on my team ...

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It’s pride season. I was bracing myself for the right-wing cult to polarize with the left-wing cult but it still managed to strike a nerve. Self-awareness sucks, nobody wants to be aware, truly. ...

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I felt a lot lighter after I wrote my previous entry. I also bought a new audible about procrastination, I am hoping I gain something from it. It also talks about addiction and habits. The addic...

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