Current Events
by TL
Entries 1,430
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Relax
I switched my shifts around so that I can be off tomorrow. I will have the entire day to study before my evening class. It’s not like I have a test or exam, I don’t understand why my anxiety has ...
Mathletic
It’s like taking a fitness class or seeing a fitness trainer when you haven’t done any training in years and learning that you’re just doing the warmup after you’ve already given it your all. Tha...
Entryception
Terrain I have a problem with procrastination and avoidance. I put off going back to school for over a decade. To be fair, I did not have a career path that I wanted to pursue. I found my passion...
Salty
I went to bed angry last night. I was mostly angry that I was angry. I worked a full week, plus my classes, and this apartment/living situation feels like a second job. That started to sink in be...
Blah
I laid down on the couch to close my eyes for a couple of minutes after my shift. Seven hours later I woke up to my roommate coming home. So, that happened. I am not drinking coffee at midnight. ...
Long Week
My first day back to school was on Tuesday. On the first day, before I entered the classroom, the jitters were too much. Every fiber of my being wanted to stay home in bed. Just like old times. T...
Priestcraft
Tomorrow is the big day. I start my class officially. My nerves are getting to me. I just need to get this first day over with. I visited my mother yesterday. I had a moment where I realized how ...
Boring Blog
I suspect that Toni is on her way out for the day. I feel suddenly impatient. I would love a few hours in complete solitude. While I wait, I might as well write an entry. Yesterday I had the girl...
Opened Up The Comments
I managed to bring myself to look at my comments here on PB. I have over a thousand that I haven’t opened because of how unpalatable my opinions are. It’s not worth it to polarize with anybody ab...
Mope
I went over to Bruce’s yesterday evening where we made vision boards together. Her girlfriend joined us after her class. It was a quaint evening. Mine turned into an art piece and not so much int...
Down
My depression has come out to play again. This low is because of the highs that come with my anxiety. My anxiety is high because I am nervous about starting class on Tuesday. I will be fine, ever...
Wetiko
There is a contagious psychospiritual disease of the soul, a parasite of the mind, that is currently being acted out en masse on the world stage via a collective psychosis of titanic proportions....
HealthScare System Blues
I woke up frustrated this morning. I was thinking about the long dragged-out debate that I had with Kyle yesterday. He came over for lunch and we bought some wine and we managed to get into it wi...
Poor Baby
I had the worst stomach pains of my fragile little life last night. I woke up to a panic attack but I also feel that I pissed my body off. My stomach is still recovering from whatever it is doing...
Low
My depression has come out to play. Usually, I don’t feel heart-crushing sadness. Just lethargy. I’m just void of all motivation and willpower whenever my depression episodes happen. Today, my he...
Registered
I finally made my way down to the Adult Education Centre. I almost stopped myself twice but I managed to force myself to circle back. It’s a new building. The environment looks and feels great. C...
Blah
I called the Adult Education Centre today. At least, I thought that I did. It was the school division’s office but they gave me the correct numbers to call. Those places are not open until Monday...
Sabotage
In one hundred years we will all be dead and nobody is going to remember us. So, fuck it. I heard that line somewhere and it lives rent-free in my head. What it seems to be inspiring is me having...
Reconnect
I kept myself pretty busy last week. I reconnected with Kyle. I was happy to see that he is living alone and single. He’s always been one of those people who can’t be single for more than five mi...
Connection
Since I got back to the city I have been reconnecting with some friends. Balance, boundaries and discipline are the three words I have been using as a mantra. I keep seeing 666 everywhere. My fri...
Trip
My camping trip with the girls last weekend was pretty good. I had some slight issues with vertigo at first which is actually pretty funny. It’s like this, I live in the prairies. I don’t travel ...
Anxiety, Decisions
Since my last entry, I have been experiencing higher anxiety levels. I consciously decided to draft up that letter I wrote about my roommate and read it to her. I can’t carry this in any longer. ...
Intervention Pending
It’s not that I don’t lack empathy. I used to have the disease to please but after I did my own inner work I can see now that people really do just suck at life and health. They have weak charact...
Funk
I went to bed in a bad mood. I had a headache and I am waking up with the same headache. I got about nine hours of sleep at least. The headache is due to me hitting my head at work again. I recei...
Airing Out
I received a written verbal warning at work today. I hit my head too many times within a short span of time. We were recently told to report every little incident, which I wouldn’t have if I knew...
Book Description
Things happening in my life currently