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Today is day three without coffee. It isn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I only got withdrawal headaches on day two. I thought I would fall apart at work but that is not the case. I don’t hav...

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I had another depression attack today. I understand that when I enter one paradigm my mind will grieve the old one. Those belief structures have to die. Paradigm is a strong word but if my realit...

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I bit the bullet and tackled the things that I have been avoiding. Letting it become so dreadful that it generates anxiety and depression is basically self-harm at this point. To even begin advan...

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We don’t always come on to Prosebox when we are deep in thought or deep in our feelings but when we do… and then something goes wrong and we lose everything that we spent the last hour writing on...

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The work Christmas party was pretty good I must say. Everybody was dressed so formally. They looked amazing. The prizes were pretty good as well. The food was alright but I have too many dietary ...

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I need to retrace my thoughts, so to speak. My depression is bubbling up again. I spent the whole day looking forward to the Christmas function that my work is having tonight. I planned my weeken...

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Depression hit me hard yesterday. I could barely get out of bed. It humbled me a bit. I forgot how heavy this could get. I was imagining this weight in other people’s shoes and it gave me some pe...

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I wrote about a name that I heard over a month ago. One that I am hesitant to say out loud. It’s a beautiful name and it echoes in my mind frequently. Since then, I have been manifesting quite a ...

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Colour me triggered. I learned about the sidereal birth charts and so I checked mine out and it gives me an atrocious birth chart. Sagittarius Sun? Disgust. I don’t have the toxic optimism and wa...

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My old-school slumber party was a success on Saturday. In my previous entry, I mentioned how I got stuck between a rock and a hard place because my roommate had a bit of a cough. When I explained...

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I can’t win. I woke up to Toni, my roommate, coughing her lungs out. She’s (tox)sick. Half of the people I invited over tonight will not come. Bruce is getting over a cold and they wouldn’t let h...

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I woke up feeling a little excited about having the day to myself, finally. I don’t have to be mindful of anyone or anything if I don’t want to. I will get a lot of this free time alone soon enou...

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I’m hiding from the shame of not studying by doing my class remotely this evening. I would catch on quickly but I don’t want that anxiety today. The course starts in half an hour. I also still ha...

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I don’t like to show pain or fear. I let it out on this blog. My heart has been feeling heavy the last few days. I suppose I had my emotions turned off. Between a TikTok creator that made me fee...

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Surprise surprise, my day yesterday was not the most productive. I did start looking online for work. There are a couple of places in my area that might be a decent fit for me. One is a supplemen...

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I am one to write down my goals but I haven’t created a New Years’ Resolution in years. I want to tackle my procrastination. My avoidance habits. They’re not toxic habits but they aren’t meant to...

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It’s the eve of a new year, this is my favourite time of year. I like being around that New Year New Me energy. I like being around those who start making those hard choices. I love seeing people...

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I kill a lot of time on here, on Prosebox. Today is the kind of day when I am reminded why I have this blog. Yesterday I got some pretty disturbing news about my sister. The one that is pregnant...

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Alright, I haven’t started any drama at work. Yesterday I learned who got the position I applied for and it was Tyson. I was the one who encouraged him to do it. He replaced Mike. They hired anot...

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After my morning coffee, yesterday, I went to task and started cleaning the apartment. My roommate, Toni, was lying on the couch watching TV while I cleaned around her. She had her head propped u...

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It feels as though the only way I am going to shake this off is if I hurt somebody else. Hurt people hurt people. My mind is fantasizing about all the ways that I could be an emotional and mental...

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My mother called me to chat. I’m always alone Christmas Eve and day, it makes her feel some type of way. It doesn’t bother me at all. I barely left my bed today. My mind needs to grieve the loss...

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Well, my roommate came home just as I was ready to start making content for the socials. She will be gone this evening so I’ll try then. I was just hoping for some daylight. I also tried to have ...

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Of course, I’m going to let it get to me that I didn’t get the position I applied for. I went to bed just after six yesterday. I woke up around 1 this morning. I was tossing and tortured so I gav...

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Yesterday, I was caught off guard by my depression. I ended some cycles and created new ones. My mind needs to grieve the loss of the old structures. I should have seen this coming. I supported t...

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