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Why are you like this?! That is the question that I need to ask myself more often. I have mood poisoning and it’s not like I actually want to be sitting here experiencing it. I pieced it togethe...

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Yesterday, I reached the part of the day where my energy locks up and I die inside. I surrendered to it and crawled into bed as per usual. Why am I like this? I asked myself. I remembered how bad...

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Astrologers have their knickers in a twist about today. This week we are all Scorpio. They say. My chart is heavy with Scorpio and my rising is Taurus and even though I feel weighed down I prefer...

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I put my castor oil pack over my lungs last night. I got a taste of what it must be like to try and sleep with a bra on. Speaking of men in bras, I accidentally added to woke supremacy the other ...

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My boss reached out to me this morning to let me know that I am entitled to bereavement pay. She helped me switch my shifts around last week to make it to a funeral but did not know whom it was f...

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We buried my grandfather yesterday. He was a Reverend. He and my grandmother opened the first church on our reserve. He opened one in the city after my grandmother passed away. His son Adolph is ...

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I forget that I am experiencing a projection of myself when it comes to my roommate. It’s as though I am face to face with the kind of man that I used to be. A picture of my own instability. I wa...

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I have another 5-day weekend. I changed shifts around so that I can make it to my grandfathers funeral. I was originally only supposed to work 4.5 hours for both of my scheduled shifts but I was ...

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My day got better after I wrote my previous entry. I got better I should say. I picked up my grandmother and then went to my mothers for a belated Easter dinner. My sister brought the portrait of...

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Rotted, just rotted. That is my mood this morning. I don’t know where this mood came from but RETURN TO SENDER. The first thing on my consciousness this morning was the state of the world. I supp...

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My grandfather passed away a couple of days ago. I don’t know what to think or what to feel about it. I haven’t been thinking about it at all actually. I keep forgetting that it happened. Then it...

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I am hoping today is the day I get that callback. I already woke up in a decent mood. Even though it snowed last night. The sun is in Taurus, the moon is in Taurus. Jupiter and Venus are on their...

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I suppose that my nerves are getting to me. Somewhere under the surface, I am anxious about getting the call about that full-time position I applied for. TMI but it’s been a shitty day. Literally...

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Today feels weird. I suppose it is because I am playing the waiting game. I am waiting to hear if I am the selected candidate for the full-time position that I interviewed for. Will something pos...

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I had my interview today and it went very well. I had her fawning over me by the end of it. At the end of the interview they always ask if I have any questions and then I end up interviewing them...

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My interview is tomorrow. I had to inform my supervisor that I applied for the position at a different location. She was on a conference call with the supervisor at the location I applied for and...

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Well split my D**** and call me Caitlyn I found a full-time position in the company that I work for at a location that is within walking distance from me. This one has a bad reputation and I don’...

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After my previous entry my sister invited me over for a movie night with her kids. That’s just what the holistic doctored ordered. Last night Bev invited me over to continue watching His Dark Ma...

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I didn’t struggle to fall asleep last night. I woke up multiple times to use the bathroom because I’m an old man now. I woke up at 6 am which used to be my sleeping-in time. I woke up excited to ...

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My best friend just told me that she has to put her dog down and I feel nothing inside. My reaction to everything these days has been nothing but a performance. I may be engaging with people but ...

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I’ve always had a rocky relationship with my phone. I’ve never liked that others have direct access to me 24/7. My relationship with the socials always becomes toxic. I need to detox from my phon...

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I wanted to go for a run after my shift yesterday but I wanted to take a cat nap first. That turned into a 5 hour nap so I missed that opportunity. Yesterday we spent the majority of our shift ou...

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When my mind is racing and keeping me up at night it is rehearsing, on repeat, what I want to say to my roommate. Last night before bed I opened the empty dishwasher, wrapped my arm around all of...

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This morning I chose passive aggression. I did to my roommate what my mother did to me when I was a deadbeat 19 year old that lived with her. I was up early and decided to be as loud as possible ...

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I sent a picture to Leanne, my bestie, this morning of my breakfast vs my roommate’s breakfast. Front and centre is my smoothie bowl and in the background is a view of my roommate on the balcony ...

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