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I feel like I am finally buckling under that crushing weight I have been experiencing. Oh, how people used to love to watch me fall. I am learning that all I’ve done was suppress the pain. What p...

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Hi Prosebox. It’s me again. I’m here to bitch and moan as always. First world problems. On my way to my sisters yesterday I stopped at a few stores and the disappointment of not finding anything ...

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Since I’ve been turning my latest entries to private I might as well be real and raw with myself here. Today I woke up feeling somewhat ambitious. I was thrown for a loop when I realized that my...

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I took my grandmother grocery shopping yesterday. It was not that eventful except I did see someone I found jaw-dropping gorgeous. It is rare with my impossibly high standards. He was giving an o...

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My car made it to Brandon with no problem. You would have thought we were flying in a beat-up plane because my sister, Melissa, was a nervous wreck the entire time. It was very menacing. It didn’...

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I’ve filled my coffee mug with delusion this morning. Convince Yourself. I’m about to do that thing where I write down all of my plans for next week on my weekly planner. Below that I write a lis...

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I reached out to my uncle about collecting the reparations from that residential school on my fathers behalf. He told me which level to apply for because my father was abused. That information ma...

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Melodrama: aTom Production Depression attack hit me out of nowhere. I woke up from my nap and before I knew it I could feel its crushing weight. There is nothing weighing on my mind or weighing o...

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I don’t have a shift today and that is rare for a Monday. I’ll use this new week new me energy that I like so much and work for myself. Today, I am going to contact the institution that is denyin...

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Dear Log: It’s been one week since my talk with my roommate. So far she has been cleaning up after herself, taking out the trash and cooking for herself. She’s also been hiding in her room from m...

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I don’t feel like I have a lot to say. I don’t have that mind-numbing inner monologue about my roommate on repeat now that I’ve actually spoken with her. As for work, that place doesn’t feel so t...

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I interviewed for two programs today. The organization is expanding. They are adding a Communications Coordinator. I don’t think I will land that one, even though I applied for it. The second one...

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Today I am going downtown to the open house at that Aboriginal Centre. Just we are up to speed, my friend recommended it to me because she loves what she does there and she thinks I would be a go...

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I’ve been Hoe on the Go for the last day or so. I have a potentially fantastic opportunity this Wednesday. I’m going to an open house at an Aboriginal centre that does much work for the community...

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I finally had the talk with my roommate. Can you believe? You’ll have to read my previous entry to know what straw broke the camels back. I started the conversation with how shitty it was to leav...

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I’m so pissed off right now. Before I left to meet up with the girls I asked Toni, my deadbeat roommate, my friend, what time her birthday dinner was this evening. Oh, I had that on Wednesday, I ...

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While I was on TikTok, I came across a term that I decided to explore today called ADHD paralysis. The content creator started the video off with “how I start my day after my ADHD paralysis.” Som...

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Yesterday wasn’t a complete waste but it was a waste in the end. The astrological vibe was very lay around, get a snack, nap, shop, take a nap. Nothing was in a fire sign. No starting energy. La...

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I think I weighed 1000 lbs yesterday. I could not move. My depression was so heavy. I surrendered to it. It’s a symptom that needs to be supported. Suppressing symptoms creates systemic problems....

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I have to be honest that I am committed to my old fucked up ways. I have plenty of opportunities to create positive changes for myself but I find myself caught in a positive feedback loop—my cla...

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Of all the things that I have on my plate to worry about, it is literal plates that are stressing me out. I have 99 problems and it’s always my roommate that I get most fixated on. Yesterday, I ...

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I can’t tell if I was awake and hearing voices or dreaming that I was hearing voices. I was in that waking up state. It happened between my two alarms that I have set. Not all of us have an inne...

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I’m still having vivid dreams since I quit coffee. Regular coffee that is. Everything else has been corrected since I started drinking mushroom coffee. I have one portion left so I decided to ord...

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I can’t drink alcohol without feeling guilt written about it. I feel as though I cheated something. I suppose that would be myself. I’ve been working hard to detox my liver. Coffee enemas, castor...

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I did not get the position I applied for. She explained that I had aced the interview but they went with somebody with more overall experience. I didn’t think to check my work e-mail until a cowo...

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