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I am tired of being a big bloated bitch. Claudia pointed it out again at work today. It didn’t make me insecure, I’m still a skinny legend, but it is an issue I keep putting off. This is a known ...

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I took that rest day, sort of. The deep rest I have been needing. That I probably still need. When I got home from my sister’s I meal prepped and then spent most of the day in bed listening to mu...

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Fuck the world and goodnight! I went to bed at 7:30 last night. Can we even call that night? I must have needed the sleep because I woke up at 4:30 a.m. I made my way to the gym. I still had jit...

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I see a pattern here. My metacognition is strong, thank god. My depression hit me again today. It hit on Monday and then again on Tuesday. Yesterday I was fine but it crept up on me again today. ...

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I can’t do it. I can’t seem to care enough to learn the material for class. We haven’t started to learn chemistry yet. Well, we would have during the class I missed. I have the material, I will a...

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I haven’t abused Prosebox with enough entries this weekend. Out of curiosity, I decided to join a dating site or two. I might just be a horrible person. I do judge a book by its cover and I’ll e...

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As I explained in my previous entry, I was going to work with AI to write eBooks. I asked ChatGPT about its book-writing capabilities and it’s not going to be able to just write it all for me, as...

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Alright, so with AI being so overpowered and available, I decided that I shall explore using it to write eBooks. However, because it is AI, I don’t want to use my own name I want to use the name ...

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I woke up and my head cold was gone enough for me to hit the gym. I wasn’t feeling 100% which might have been a mistake but I’m okay. I ran for almost an hour. As you can imagine, I was feeling a...

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What else could I do if I just didn’t give a fuck? I can’t escape the consequences of missing yesterday’s class but it doesn’t feel like a big deal. Everything always feels like a big deal. Every...

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I’m on the tail end of a head cold. It was pretty quick, thank gods. Yesterday I managed to not give a fuck. It was an interesting state of mind that I would like to visit more often. All the wei...

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I just had my first class. I’m overwhelmed, as per usual. Why? Math! I need a strong understanding of what I’m doing. I need to see it in my head. Luckily, I took Applied Math this time last year...

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I had my physical today. My thyroid was a concern again. It is very prominent. I mentioned that we did an ultrasound on it a few years ago. I assumed that no news was good news. We went over thos...

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Plot twist. I think I’m coming down with the flu. Did I microwave my brain with my new wireless headphones? lol. This will be over quickly. I think I might be the only person who enjoys it. The ...

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In Newton’s Law of Physics, I am not allowed to get my way. I am being melodramatic, I know. After I wrote my previous entry, my body decided that it needed to do something. I could not stop urin...

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After I wrote my entry yesterday, my anxiety hit me pretty hard again. I don’t experience that fear and panic anymore so it took me a while to clue in. I was just feeling flustered at the grocery...

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My anxiety flared up yesterday while I was at work. I haven’t experienced anxiety in almost two months. Following that high is always a low. My depression usually follows it. That also happened a...

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I haven’t been sleeping too well the last few nights. I keep having vivid dreams that wake me up. One after another. I wrote some of them down the moment I woke up because they felt cinematic. I...

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My new computer speakers arrived yesterday evening. I had missed the Amazon driver while I was out with my grandmother. I didn’t want to wait an extra day so it was a pleasant surprise that they ...

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I need an intervention. I keep abusing my credit card. I just made my last purchase for the week so help me god. So help me GoDaddy, I should say. GoDaddy is the site that is going to host my web...

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I am trying to prioritize my journals and other projects today. I am actually winning with the journals, finally. I managed to figure out how to get the cover to fit within the parameters for dir...

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Things don’t usually happen in three’s for me. At least I never notice. This morning, somebody reached out to me about doing a podcast with her. The topic is healing from sexual trauma. My friend...

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I actually made it to the gym this morning. My social anxiety made me freeze up the moment I turned off my car. I sat there for several minutes before I bit the bullet. Just as I thought, there w...

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I was feeling fun and confident and decided to play around with my new microphone and get myself comfortable in front of the camera. In no time I became miserable and insecure. I was face to face...

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This week was a busy one at work. We have a long weekend so I am kicking it off with some whiskey and Jakub Józef Orliński. It is a one-minute drive to my work so I keep getting there early. I d...

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