2017
by Xanatos
Entries 21
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TV etc.
I have my first NHK appearance on Sunday. I’ve been cramming for that. I’ll post about it after it happens. This could be the first step into an amazing world, or, it could be a whole lot of n...
A Very Short Time
I have to decide, within the next three months, whether or not I’m going to sign up for another year in Satsuma. This is a difficult decision for a lot of reasons, and I’m going to outline them ...
Gibbon
In attempting to read The History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire, I may have bitten off more than I can chew. The book is well written, and therein lies the problem. It’s too well ...
Nothing of Value
Just updating for the sake of updating. I feel that I ought to write, and I’m working on being conscientious, but I don’t really think that I have the wherewithal to do much more than to go thro...
Walking
When I walk, I puff my chest out like a twelve year old girl with very high expectations and a very dim present. When I walk, I hold my arms like I am a Lego man left in the car ten seconds too l...
Quiet
It’s quiet . . . too quiet. To be honest, I just haven’t had a great deal to say. No thinking, no breakthroughs. I’ve mostly been dicking around on the internet. Nowadays, I have plenty of ti...
Making history, making me
I have always lived my life, in quite conscious ways, as more than one person. I can remember, at the various summer day camps I went to, always creating a “club”, which these days overprotectiv...
May 25th to June 12th
Friday night, the cocktail party went very well. Leading up to it, Tomoko sent me messages informing me of the status of her search for alcohol. However, it was all pretty pointless as Inoue-sa...
May 23rd to 25th Eating
The night of May 23rd, I found myself starving. I was hungrier than I could remember having been in ages. More than that, I felt that odd compulsion to eat. I can’t even explain it. It was a ...
May 16th to May 23rd Finding things.
The 16th went well enough that there wasn’t really anything to report. The 17th went pretty well, but for a scheduling issue. I got to school, and found out that the schedule that I had receive...
The remainder of that week was rather dull. To be honest, things all kind of blended together and I don’t really remember a great deal of specifics. To give you an idea of how much it all blend...
April 28th to May 2nd Testing My Limits
Friday night was over shortly after the entry. I slept a lot and had nothing of interesting to report. Evidently I had another of those dreams where I dream in music. With full scores. It was...
April 27-28 Party, School, Thoughts
Last night, I dreamed that I made my way down to Florida, and I kept lingering around Amanda and her place on a dirt bike, which I kept riding to various degrees of fancifulness. At one point, g...
April 26-27 The Agony, the Ecstasy, the In-between
It’s from a good song. Ignore the drama. I didn’t get as much accomplished as I had hoped. I fooled around too much after getting home rather than getting right to something. I’ve discovered t...
April 25-26 A Return to Routine
Since arriving, my days and my time have been spent similarly to how they were in the past. However, there are a few changes. So, let me describe what my days have been like for the last three ...
A Long Update
I’ll try to begin this entry as close to I can as the start of February. But, of course, I have to go back. In September, I injured my back. In trying to treat it, with onsen and electroshock,...
Bad Loans
I’ve once heard the art of self improvement being described as playing The Prisoner’s Dilemma by yourself over time. Best case scenario, present and future you do what you’re supposed to. Worst...
Hope
For nearly ten years, I’ve struggled with the aftermath of Rachael and Japan. For nearly ten years, I’ve struggled to pick up the pieces and move on, putting back together a broken philosophy an...
Going Home
Sunday, I go home for four weeks of medical treatment for my back. We’ll see how that goes.
Slipping
I’ve been diagnosed with a herniated disc. There is only one competent seeming chiropractor I can find in the country, and he is in Tokyo. Yesterday, he advised me that it wasn’t worth my time t...
Holding on
My vacation was wonderful. The time before it was miserable. The time after it has, thus far, not been encouraging. I need to keep reminding myself that I am Scott Adams’ “Moist Robot”. I need...