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January 26, 2022

I Feel Alarmed whenever

I read or hear something like this “Herman’s work is valuable to everyone who has been the victim of such incest because it offers help; it is valuable to those whose families are shattered by i...


January 25, 2022

Forgiveness is

(imo) the involuntary, spontaneous dissipation of rightful anger after having been harmed maliciously or unintentionally. Ie, forgiveness is not a virtue. There can be virtue in earning forgiven...


January 21, 2022

IQ

Is a pretty contentious topic. I mean. It’s contentious because a) average people cannot conceptualize the experience of the high IQ 2) the Kruger-Dunning effect d) High IQ people are not just a ...


January 20, 2022

We've all had the Covids

and it wasn’t bad. I might’ve even had it twice, but it’s hard to say since I wasn’t tested the first time. Been thinking a lot about respect, recently. It was something that came up very early ...


January 15, 2022

My Kid

is really cute, and so am I. Every time we go out- which is usually to the jump park these days since it’s 4F outside rn- the adults fawn over my son. Don’t get me wrong- he’s stinkin’ adorable....


January 09, 2022

I feel a bit

weird, today. IF what I had last month was the ‘Rona, the past 2 days was just a little after-blip or something. Same symptoms, but shorter and milder. Today I have a bit of that feeling you get...


January 08, 2022

ALL of us

are trauma survivors. Idk when I began to feel an annoyance at the self-proclamation that one is a “trauma survivor”. It speaks to me like someone wearing a wound on their forehead. It speaks of ...


December 05, 2021

MIL funeral

Went well, mostly. My parents did show even though I asked them not to. They sat in the middle of the small church even though they said they’d sit or stand in the back. They went to the burial e...


December 01, 2021

The quiet desperation

Of middle age… I would consider middle age to be mid 40s to perhaps mid 60s. MIL died at just turned 61. I remember 3 years ago now, we were on vacation together. FIL said to MIL as they were re...


November 25, 2021

Happy Thanksgivging

and, it is. The holidays have always and forever, been a colossal let down for me. For some reason, I would be infected with the joy/love/noel spirit and have high hopes for the season. I would ...


November 20, 2021

Lol, I'm Blocked

and I think that’s great. There is no success unless you piss off evil people. Much like Hillary Clinton sowing FUD about Crypto… yes. The very best endorsement that I could ever have hoped for....


November 20, 2021

In Your Experience,

Have you EVER been able to turn an aggressive, defensive, personally attacking and projecting person around in conversation? What worked? Is it entirely hopeless? As always, I ask myself, why am ...


November 19, 2021

Rittenhouse Acquitted

As I scroll, I find that some people are celebrating joyously and some people are wishing death and destruction upon others. Idk. I’d rather hang out with people who are celebrating than angry a...


November 17, 2021

Jesus, mom.

So mom emailed me and told me about a dream. “Back in April I dreamt that you were pregnant. You were very pregnant in my dream. It was a windy day and you came over and we talked. The dream was...


November 16, 2021

MIL

is being her normal weird self. She sent several very aloof texts; “hey, how are you?” and “send pics when you can”, and then went full pathetic all of a sudden, “Please come for Thanksgiving din...


November 13, 2021

I feel Invigorated

Like. Really good. Really really good. It’s so odd to think that the very same thing which gave me so much anxiety and fear is now exhilarating- that which I felt a profound shame, I feel free e...


November 12, 2021

My Friend

asked me if there was any way to continue to see her sister who believes in corporal punishment when my friend does not. Well, the answer is of course no, if my friend wants to be consistent. B...


November 12, 2021

I haven't Slept

Well for the past week and a half. W has been waking up 3 to 5 times a night. Mostly clustered 1 to 5am. I. Am. So. Tired. My brain feels foggy. Because of that, I don’t really remember how it ...


October 26, 2021

I had a Very Scary

Dream last night, but I’ve already dissected it so I’m afraid that I won’t include it in my dream journal, here. Unless I happen upon some free time, which is unlikely. Still have the rest of ch7...


October 26, 2021

I had another

Breakthrough, today. They seem to be coming fast and furious, now. I feel like a new person after each one. And I’ve remade myself so many countless times that it seems surreal when I read my ow...


October 23, 2021

Shackles and Bad Coffee

Sums up my first experience of MOPS. I showed up and the oppression of small talk began. No one asked an interesting question. No one wanted to reveal any fact or facet of themselves that might r...


October 21, 2021

I have Questions

that I would love to ask. I’d love to ask anybody. I think asking the real questions is what allows us to really know one another. But, particularly parents. I have questions that I would love...


September 28, 2021

Life, in General

is great. But first, the complaints. I have poison ivy and it’s itchy and stingy as fuck. My mind is often confused as to what I want to do, what I am doing, and why any of it is happening. I wo...


August 25, 2021

Bitcoin & Berries

Did I mention we’re rich now? Haha. It still feels surreal. We have downgraded our status; moved to a cheaper place, less stuff, less overhead, less to do. No AC. Overall, I like it. We go to th...


August 24, 2021

Childhood

The Anthropology of, is an absolutely fascinating read. A bit difficult in that abhorrent crimes against humanity are reported as dry statistics. But also jaw dropping in scope. I guess it brings...


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