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The Present
It’s a funny thing. This is probably the most insane time to be alive in the history of humanity. Idk it seems that way to most people. Most people, sadly, believe the insanity and are themselve...
My grandma died
And I’m not sure how I feel about it. Nope. I do. I just don’t like it. I wish my grandma was a different person… That grief is still there and that means that I’m denying reality. When I sear...
There's a lot
On my mind atm. Yesterday my cousin messaged me. I know that I should not be surprised. She’s always been the same, even since a child. Well, I mean she’s older than me but, just saying she’s alw...
Tired
Poor Lexi Bird was up half the night not feeling well. Fortunately it was just gas (I think) and has fallen back to her normal routine now. I engaged in a very interesting conversation today abo...
Mom's group
Was pretty cool. There were 10 or so of us all at a house- all having had the same home birth midwife. That was the common point among us, but we definitely found lots more in common. The things...
Luggage
I don’t think that womb rental is a violation of the NAP. So, it’s not evil. But it is a class of vague human rights violations. An analogy might be the discovery of a totally secluded island po...
Choice
Is forever the standard. That which increases choice is inherently more virtuous. That which decreases choice is inherently more evil. I’ve written about this before, but it comes to mind again a...
Spheres of
Influence and concern. These have recently come to my attention as things I should be actively monitoring. This is an example of a major life changing piece of wisdom that every parent should be...
It seems like
A lifetime since I last wrote. It’s a whole nother world, on the other side. I feel so much better. I’ve improved my behavior and relationship with my son so much it’s unrecognizable. To anyone i...
Take Profits and other lessons
HEX jumped a full 70% so I took out my initial principle. I’m really happy I did… Even if it continues up, the peace of mind was worth it, and the rest is profit. I didn’t do that last year, and ...
Conversation
With aunt B went pretty well yesterday. I had a few revolutionary ideas to drop on her.. lol. I have the feeling that she will be mind-blown until about 2 hours after she left. People have a way ...
Mental Illness
Recently I watched someone describe what acting out borderline personality disorder was like. I call it acting out… Because like most of these psychological disorders, it always seems to never h...
Y'all my babies
Are the cutest! They also have big heads. This bean had a 15” head at birth. I still have diastasis recti, which is separation of the abdominal muscles, and (tmi!) trouble holding in elimination...
2022
Was the first year that I have made no contact with my parents. I find myself imagining conversations with people who might ask about it. No one ever does. The last request I made to my parents ...
My wish is coming
True.... I think. W is a lot better today and so is L. I don’t have any symptoms either except for that random fever a day ago. I really need to get back on the home cooked meals and strict no ea...
Annoyed update
This was the third entry I made in the last few days that got deleted right after I hit publish. Anywho. Life goings on. Our kids are currently sick. W has snotty nose and that’s pretty much it, ...
Dad,
The guy who never gave a shit. The very last time I saw my dad, it was at my cousin’s wedding when I walked up to say goodbye, and he gave me a disgusted sneer and said nothing. That was 2 years...
Posturing
I’ve caught myself doing it twice in the last 2 days! Uhg. I don’t want to characterize it as “cringe”, but it is… At least that’s how I feel, and how I imagine others feel. Both times were spea...
Family, dreams
Time with the ex army aunt and her family was actually quite nice. DH echoed my own personal feelings on the way home. He told me how he was pleasantly shocked at uncle E’s (aunts husband) self ...
Glowing
Says DH. “What?” I look up from staring dreamily at my baby. “You’re glowing! You look really nice today.” DH repeated. Huh. At first I feel a bit of warmth - like a genuine reaction to a kind...
Expectations
I’ve realized that our toddler, W, isn’t like the other kids some time ago. But I hadn’t connectedwhy until maybe this morning. I mean, I know why- peaceful parenting. But more specifically, it’...
Who wants this?
Not the first time I’ve contemplated the possibility that my mom wants for me to get away. I almost buy the idea that she is rooting for my freedom. Because of her over the top sympathy, her vic...
Friends
My friends are great. Too great.... They brought over meals and gifts for the new baby, and I really want to say ‘thank you’- and now Xmas is right around the corner! I think I will give them Xma...
We Went Out
Yesterday for the first time just me and the kids. It went really well. Idk why but I’m continuously shocked at how well mannered and willing to please our son is. The terrible 2s is more like t...
Nowhere
Where you goin? Yes we’re going nowhere at all for Christmas! We went nowhere for Thanksgiving either and it was glorious. We had a few friends over, and then DHs grandma and aunt stopped by last...
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