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Ó3 Days
Until my EDD! Mercifully, the contractions that had been almost non-stop around the clock stopped last night. They weren’t ‘real’ contractions, but annoying and uncomfortable enough to keep me aw...
Tired
Contractions slowed down mercifully at about 5am and I slept till about 830. I don’t remember having them this strong this early, last time. I’m 39+2 today. Still 5 more days until EDD, but I’m n...
I feel close
Everything feels very close… My cat who almost never sits on me came around and sat on me today. My son has been extra super cuddly. I feel like I’m in the time in between. You know, the time whe...
I Saw A
dead man on the way to grandma’s house today. We were just coming over a bridge and saw a few cars being waved back, so stopped to turn down the nearest road (DH was driving). As we turned, I gl...
Are you Dangerous?
Soft eyes is how we describe the relaxed awareness of a good rider. Hard eyes is a focused, lazer-like attention at is particularly alarming to prey animals like horses- for obvious reasons I wou...
Looking Forward
to meeting an older woman who has a son the same age as ours and is also planning to homeschool with the rough curriculum I have in mind. Talking to her the past couple of weeks has been… Inspir...
Family the Original Socialist Government
DH said this yesterday and it’s pure gold. Yes I have heard it before - I am quite familiar with the idea that our authoritarian socialist communist power structure is fist imprinted through the ...
When it Rains
Well, you know. DHs gma and aunt specifically invited us to their big family dinner. They said that they miss us. Which is a little funny/ ironic bc these things have so many people at them ther...
Playing the Game
J(my mother) sent me an email yesterday morning. I’m a far cry from the reactionary emotional guilt/shame/do something response that I was so prone to for all of my life. I realize that I was tha...
Gratitude
DH is the handyman of handymen. He replaced ALL the shoddy old plumbing in our house with 3/4” copper for under $200. Even with today’s hyperinflated costs. He’s getting ready to install a new ta...
Standards, Insanity, Budget, Baby
DH and I talked about standards and how to know when they’re irrational, or rational. It was a pretty good talk. I related how my dad destroyed my brother’s social life, claiming that no one was ...
Disappointed
“The medical profession has accomplished much. It will accomplish more in the future. It will become a more rounded profession. The members of our profession who have the clearest vision are alre...
Dollar Cost Averaging, The Evil of Public Schools
The mathematics of dollar cost averaging (DCC) continues to amaze me. So, the price is down- which means people are selling their assets. I wish it were so, but it is. Mostly because I really wan...
Boundaries, FOO, Superstition is Cowardice
Boundaries, I have without exception experienced, are useful only as an internal asshole radar system. It’s fine (I guess) to “have” boundaries- but no one who you would actually need to have the...
Library, Growth
Walked to the library today with W, and it was a fun trip. It is not air conditioned, which was disappointing, but we spent a good 2 hours there anyways. Signed up for a card and checked out a bu...
Bully
I don’t get this type of behavior. I really don’t. It’s just that, if you bully someone into doing what you want, you know in your bones always and forever that nothing between you is real. It’s...
Time Flies
When you’re having fun. I can’t believe I’ve already entered the third trimester. This pregnancy is moving by so quickly, it seems. It’s odd that I barely notice that I’m pregnant, but I think ab...
Lots
Of things I’d like to write and so little time to do it. I’ve been mulling over a philosophical analysis of Steiner’s educational lectures. I think I will do that. Anthroposophy is a mystical wo...
Free Association
Means, in essence, the right to ostracize. It really boggles my mind that by far the most common complaint I have read from parents is the direct result of forced association for their children. ...
Sickness, low energy, but Happy
Well I spent yesterday morning shivering (even though it’s 80F here) and barfing. The rest of the day sipping liquids and laying down to keep the stomach cramps at bay. Today I’m feeling better b...
Certainty
There are two kinds of certainty. There are the coffee shop philosophers who have the answer to everything and it’s just that simple, period. They’re the period people. They are certain about sp...
It's never Personal
Abuse, that is. It is we, the victim, who personalizes abuse. It’s just easier that way. It’s easier when we convince ourselves that we have some kind of influence over what is happening. It’s a...
Lately, WOW
So much happening. Crypto markets are bleeding out so there isn’t much to do atm except try to ignore it and wait. No point messing around with a portfolio ~60% down lol DH got another raise the ...
Good Friends
make life a whole lot better. It’s not just that I enjoy the time and connection that we have together, but that I feel equally valuable and valued by another person who has zero obligations or n...
Musings and
boring predictability. Does anyone else find the predictable insufferably boring? I suppose in a melancholic way, it can be reassuring. Mostly for fear of change and moral clarity. I am currentl...
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Thoughts, and Whatever else.
