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I talked with my therapist today and, I told her of my worries and issues with my husband. I told her that I feared that his family is taking advantage of him, that he is being used by them for p...

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I am resigned, I think, to the fact that my mother is incapable of behaving in any reasonable way around me. I decided to lay down just 2 boundaries with her. She mowed over both of them the ver...

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Aunt died yesterday morning.

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Yesterday, DH and I drove down to see his Aunt, who is on her deathbed in hospice. The trip was… unsettling. As I suppose, all close encounters with death are. What I found most disturbing abou...

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I think about the areas in my life that I am too passive. I am tired of mentally berating my “mother”. I am growing weary of it. Does that mean I am done? Close to done? Perhaps. I think of ever...

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Perhaps it is better that we text. I can read everything and there is hard evidence of what she has said. Yesterday, mom (J) - I’m going to stop calling her mom, she was not and is not a mom, bec...

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what you should be getting from her.” DH said to me yesterday. I can’t really explain the level of gratitude, closeness, and affection that I felt for him when he said that. He was really tryin...

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is really really difficult. I hate my parents for their incredible negligence in preparing me for life. The gulf that I must now cross is immense. It’s a gulf of ignorance. It’s the same gulf th...

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to pick up her milk bottles. She gave us some extra milk she had 2 weeks ago, and I haven’t seen her since to give them back. She just drove up, left the car running while she came to the door. ...

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My old therapist told me that, what my parents did was because of who they are, not because of who I was. I brought this up to my mom. She said, that was one of the biggest lessons she learned f...

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last night. I probably got up at least 6 times, although I lost count. I was thinking about my horse, Cloud. The feeling that I was experiencing throughout my pregnancy and postpartum recovery; ...

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The feeling I get when I have sadness, grief, anger, or any “negative” emotion is to become anxious and worried about how it will affect those around me. It is an immediate response. Oh no- I’m ...

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I talked to DH for almost an hour and he didn’t run away! I feel like we both got to voice our side/opinion and how we felt. The emotions were negative ones, but we both have a lot of negative em...

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1) What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone? Living up to it 2) Did you accept or deny your last friend request? Deny, probably. I don’t remember but I don’t add many ...

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I brought the value argument to DH for how I perceive him. Because of lack of direct communication, I’m forced to merely witness his value system through his actions. He said that he understood. ...

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Always I am cognizant and critical of others’ faults. I continually scan people for their faults, and ignore or take for granted their positive aspects and virtues. It would seem to me that I reg...

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So I decided to tell my therapist about my mom today. I really like my therapist because she is level headed and, I think, very objective. I told her that I’m not looking to be ‘supported’, but r...

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Sometimes I really do wonder. I know they say that if you can ask that question, you’re not insane. But then I wonder if they say that as a consolation for the insane. After all, the insane are...

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You comfort me and hold me while I have no one else. You’re here with me even others are close. You guard me against their efforts to come between us. You are a jealous friend; never letting me l...

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How not to talk to your loved ones, rule #1; Tell them what to do! Yes indeed, tell them that you know exactly what they’re doing wrong, and try to control the situation. It always ends in disast...

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I was telling a friend how I was grieving the mentoring that I never got as a child, teenager or even young adult. I feel like I am learning all the things right now that should have been instil...

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I resent having to ask the hard questions and then getting attacked for it. We have a great conversation about our son’s naming- my hero and idol in the realm of science, a certain Austrian doct...

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My Dad showed up at my house the other day without any warning. He didn’t call, didn’t text, never mentioned that he wanted to stop by at all. In fact I didn’t even realize that it was him until ...

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is uncovering everything that went wrong with my childhood. And if I do not condemn that, I will not change. If I don’t internalize the condemnation of evil, wrong, or abusive actions, then I wi...

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the things that I never knew existed. It’s sort of like walking around all your life with holes in your pockets. And then discovering a new pair of pants with intact pockets. Nothing falls out. ...

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