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1 day ago

Judging

How safe are you and, can you be of any benefit to me? That the feeling I had when entering the group. “You can trust me.” Oh, okay. Just let me set aside all my discernment, then! I clearly don...


Everything is becoming Meta? Like. I can’t just feel my feelings - I apparently feel (or imagine I feel) what Feelings as an archetype are. It’s become an experience of experience. And I don’t...


4 days ago

Why Wouldn't I

Be me? I drank a cup of coffee at 5pm. FIVEPM WHY DID I DO IT So naturally I’m tired but VIGILANT. lol. It’s actually almost my normal bedtime. So not too late. I find it weird…? How I can ...


5 days ago

Interesting convo

Just now, Questioning whether I identify with wounded scripts. I say no. I identify with my choices. Which includes the choice not to identify with past programming. How do I know which is true...


6 days ago

Wahmen

Are completely annoying and entitled… Lol Look at me all judgemental. I just read a tirade from a woman complaining about feeling judged and she’s humble bragging about a week in bali without h...


April 15, 2025

I'm just awful

At being female. I need to do something about it. I recognize it. I’m not warm or comforting or anything. Idk what to say when people bring things up. I mean unless they directly ask or tell me...


April 11, 2025

GUILT

The Great Burden I carried blindly. Completely unaware that it was on my back. It wasn’t until I listened to a description of that aurum constitution that I was like. Huh. Isn’t that just how p...


April 10, 2025

Years

It seriously feels like several years between now and March 21st. Yeas. Several. WHEW Anywho. Man can I see everything. It’s uh,… weird. I just got a remedy today called Aurum. Homeopathic G...


April 10, 2025

Do I, though?

A dear friend took her precious time and resources to speak to me respectfully, firmly, the other day. Which I do appreciate. One of the things she told me that “we must feel emotions, not int...


April 10, 2025

Zooming Out

from that heart-centered place, where the light of heaven shines its consciousness down into my mind, allowing my eye to witness the living Heart that is my own Soul enlivening my body moment by...


That I feel that comes up when it comes to family. Parents, spouses, etc. in the ego-identified state, that is. Because the ego may be very guarded, almost guaranteed it is, it wants to be secur...


April 07, 2025

Trust

& submission A friend recommended to me Zak Roedd. I read whole book today. I feel quite sheepish. The transparency of what is/was happening in light of his paradigm is just… Well. It’s th...


April 06, 2025

Today

Am I so dead set on just running the hamster wheel? Even after doing so much and feeling like on a roll, I have these thoughts of… “Now he’ll finally want me” or ” this will fix it so I can sta...


April 06, 2025

I am

My own problem And I need to get out of my own way


April 03, 2025

Has anyone

else started to feel a profound sense of joy, peace, love, satisfaction and happiness!? Idk if I’m just on the right vibe right now or if everyone is feeling this? Lmk 🙂


April 02, 2025

Love

Last week I did the inner work to receive the love from my parents that I was heretofore unable to receive. Then my mom emailed me out of the blue the next day (within 12 hours) and apologized ...


April 02, 2025

Spoken Too Soon

WOW is this sad. Mom, with all due respect and all that, you need to WAKE THE FUCK UP. Your email is very sad, victimized, and helpless. You’re in you’re what-? 60’s? Holy Hell, woman. You’r...


April 02, 2025

People are dropping

Off. And popping up. In this very meditative week- marked on one side by the 100th anniversary of the death of Steiner on the 30th, and the beginning of a new century of conscious spiritual de...


April 01, 2025

Getting there

Feels so freeing without all the weight. Naysayers are not part of my design. Get on board or get out.


April 01, 2025

Wow you guys missed out

I had an amazing entry and prosebox lost it It was great. Anywho, hahahaha I’ve been thinking about alignment a lot. I’m a pretty… unique? human being just compared to the status quo for a l...


March 30, 2025

HOLY

MOLY Is my brain on fire. I almost typed faire? Fairy? It certainly does feel otherworldly. I just realized, today, like a few minutes ago, that our fate is so tied up in our awareness that...


March 30, 2025

Do you believe

In magic? I had heard about Family Constellations. It’s been on my list of things to look into. Sometimes it takes me awhile to get around to the stuff in my list. Sometimes I rearrange it and...


March 26, 2025

I had a Purpose Reading

today. And whoa, man. I learned a lot. I need to listen to the recording because I retained probably less than a third of it. Something stuck out to me, though. Well, a few something’s, but on...


March 15, 2025

My relationship

To J is changing. I am noticing a distinct lack of anger, bitterness, resentment, contempt, etc. I have an idea that I was so set on making it work that I would never allow resentment to build u...


March 12, 2025

Ring around the Rosy

I feel an urge to show my children self love, confidence, a healthy reciprocity between parents. I feel desperate, full of remorse, and distraught that I cannot do that RIGHT NOW. I have such ...


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