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what's happened sice i last wrote
er ‘last wrote’. The last time i wrote in here i posted a survey. no i mean what’s happened since I last ‘wrote’ about anything going on w/ me. and that was the 16th so 4 days ago. so it hasn’t b...
that survey that's goin around.
Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet? No . . . How do you flush the toilet in public? as opposed to where, exactly? in someone’s house? Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? y...
middle name [survey]
What is you middle name? Beman. How old are you? 29 damnit. What is your birthday? aug. 17th What is your zodiac sign? leo What is your favorite color? purple. and yellow. What’s your lucky numbe...
<<< the rest of that survey.
i evidently had’t c + p’d all of it so. here ya go. here’s the rest: What is the least favorite thing you like about yourself? where to begin… What color pants and shoes are you wearing right no...
named after [survey]
Are you named after someone? well......there’s speculation about that. or maybe the word is ‘debate’. actually that probably is the word. my mom says i was but then i remember one time someone a...
collapse. and curl.
right so this is from yesterday. i just want to collapse.well. i wanted to collapse before i knew of this of.the SH. some time ago i read about that the collapse thing. and in one instance it sai...
panic attacks.
again. this is from yesterday. excep they’re not really attacks. just every night since fri. i’ve felt that panic attack feeling.
depression.
this was actually written yesterday. so now i’m depressed.er more depressed since i’ve had depression since i was 13. i just.like. i don’t connect to things. i can watch something funny online an...
fuk. flashbacks again. and home depot bathroom.
so this.dealing w/ and processing the SH has brought up flashbacks. of the 1st & last rape/s. oh so yesterday.when i was in the home depot bathroom it was the most vividly i’d thought of one ...
i don't remember.
i don’t remember.the dates or the days or the months hat it happened the SH. or how spread out each of the occurances was. and i didn’t blog about it untill now.
depression and bedridden.
when i was in college.a jan. that i was there i was ‘bedridden’ for 2 wks. bc of my depression. apparently according to my blog entries from then i was lonely. there are a few reasons that happen...
absenteeism.
so it’s a thing. yeah when i looked up sexual harassment on wikipedia it said something about absentee-ism. basically..........it’s exactly what it sounds like. the person is absent, from work/sc...
i didn't.like him.
i didn’t.like him and that was why.
and in fl of all places.
and in fl of all places. the one place where i didn’t think anythign major had happened. i was only there 2 yrs. but a lot can happen in 2 yrs.
i can't believe.
i can’t fukin believe i’m back here again. i just. wow.
i remember.
i remember.what i was wearing during one..........time. [not SA the other thing]. not that .........i mean.it happened regardless. i’m small but that’s not an excuse for him to say.what he did. i...
from the 6th to the 12th
on sun. valerie i didn’t get together. i went to the home depot area. mon. was my dr.’s appt. and then the meeting w/ debbie. and then um i went to the home depot area. tues. i don’t think i did ...
i remember.
i remember.what i was wearing during one..........time. [not SA the other thing]. not that .........i mean.it happened regardless. i’m small but that’s not an excuse for him to say.what he did. i...
right there. in front of everyone.
well not literally ‘in front of everyone’. we were in the hall.........people were in their offices. and he..........i........... the harassment thing. i’m not ready to put what he said. i know i...
the worst part.
the worst part about this right now is knowing it’s real. i’ve heard/read that feelings aren’t wrong and i wish........i wish mine were right now. i wish mine were. no i was there i know what ha...
college.
so, apparently. in college i was sexually harassed.
survey thingy.
1) Do you think kids or their parents are responsible for their beliefs? that’s a weird question. bc to me someone being responsible for something is like. people are resposible for doing their o...
tv/movies
So um.i like tv.a lot. I watch it online. I’ve watched ‘kevin can wait’, ‘timeless’, ‘man w/ a plan’, ‘,american housewife’, ‘this is us’ half of AHS Roanoke ‘the good place’, ‘superstore’, ‘spee...
alrite. so also.over the summer my Aunt Cindy was here my mom’s sister.i forget why. i mean I know she was here for a visit but I don’t know if it was just that or if there was more to that. ok s...
mom's choir cabaret thing.
so. as I’ve mentioned my mom’s in a choir. well last month they had a cabaret......event.......performance thing. [btw ‘cabaret’ actually means ‘small room’ so]. they had one last summer. well it...
