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wanting to cause problems.
i think that.i’m projecting. i feel like this whole evan thing has left me.well i feelempty feel empty and i don’t like that feeling. you know we had problems and we had adventure and it was inte...
computer issues.
and now in other news. as put. computer issues. so. well actually my computer works it hasn’t.stopped working in the last 1.5 yrs. no it’s just one of the hinges fell off. so...........well so aw...
lindsey evan same different
so today.on the way to the mall. [well the aurora mall]. I was thinking about Lindsey. she was. well we were at least friends. and maybe more. and I still feel like i should ‘get over her’. cause...
at least i can cry at almost 4 in the morning.
yeah so i cried today. a bit. well actually i’m a pretty emotional person.i’m just not outward about it. but yeah like i said. i cried at almost 4 in the morning. 3:40.a bit for not for v. long. ...
i'm just lonely i guess.
um. so i’m a really physical person. as is evan. i haven’t seen him in god 5 months short of a yr. in Nov. it’ll be. that’s not the longest we’ve gone. and lately..........and i’m kindof embarass...
listening to adele and drinking.
which i’m not btw. but i feel like i should be. but i won’t. cause of how private i am. and this house is big vertically but not really horizontally. this is the 2nd time i’ve said something abou...
from sun. the 10th to sat. the 16th
um. so on sun. the 10th i did my laundry. on mon. valerie & i went to on the border then um to the store. on tues. the 12th i went to the store. on wed. i.um i went to the home depot area. an...
i know he's hurtin too but.
so right. the last time I talked to evan was almost 2 wks. ago this coming Fri. as i’ve mentioned. and he’d just gotten out of jail the day before [which was thurs.] and presumably was back in de...
i wanted him to be there.
so almost 2 wks. ago now. well it will be on this coming fri. um it’ll be 2 wks. since i told evan my decision. and i was in tears when i told him. omygod. i[‘d also been feeling a panic attack c...
um. evan stuff.
so. it ocurred to me like.yesterday that the reason he’s in jail [again] is bc he broke probation or w/e it’s called. like oh......yeah........that’s right. and like before yesterday the other ti...
it's like cutting. and regret.
from my fb: ‘ya know. so i used to cut. i cut for 10 yrs. and haven’t in a little over 3. and right after i cut i’d regret it. and that’s how this feels. even though i’m doing the right thing. .....
HS survey.
High School Survey Fill this out about your SENIOR year of high school! The longer ago it was, the more fun the answers will be. What year did you graduate? um god 2006 maybe? i think. well i...
memorial.
no it hasn’t happened yet. so sat. the...........30th is my grandmother’s memorial service. it’s from 8 - 12. she left us a yr. ago oct. ........
kate stuff.
no not news just stuff. um so i don’t want to write about this but if i don’t and write about it later i’ll forget most of it so. right so. my sister & I got together Fri. as we do. we got lu...
being caught unaware. and people taking over.
so i really don’t like surprises. well so on Fri. when I got back we did bacg checks. not such a big thing as we always do them whenever i get back from somewhere. but usually she doesn’t check a...
bus thing again.
so the last time I wrote about a bus thing was the 27th.of june. i’ve been at my mom’s since. So the wk. of the........er before the arts fest i think well.So my mom lives on 5th. and we get to 5...
oblivious people.
i’ve noticed. that people are oblivous. My dad who’s the quietest person i know is loud on the phone. it’s like he doesn’t understand how phones work. like there’s a volume button for a reason. A...
weird thing. brio.
there’s probably another weird people related thing that happened but i don’t remember what right now. yeah so um last Fri. [it’s Sat. here atm]. my sister & I went to brio. and the weird hos...
a bit weird.
yeah so like i mentioned in my previous entry valerie’s a bit weird. well ok so this isn’t such a weird thing. My biggest problem w/ her.as i might’ve mentioned.is she’s too nice. so like. when c...
i'm not used to having to instruct people.
coped f copied from my fb: ‘i’m not used to having to instruct people. also i’m the kindof person where. if a friend of mine wanted to build a robot just.bc they can for instance. i’d be here if ...
from sun. the 3rd to sat. the 9th
um so on sun. i went out again to the arts fest. oh and after at my sister’s we had a july 4th eve fireworks eve thingy on her balcony. well ok not her balcony the balcony of the building she liv...
from sun. the 26th to sat. the 2nd.
well um. sun the 26th i did laundry on mon. valerie i went to abc atlanta bread co. i got tea and a muffin. um tues. the 28th i.might’ve done something maybe i went to my mom’s.........or maybe t...
introverts. solitude. my uncle.
so as i’ve mentioned a few times by now i’m an introvert. ya know i’m ok not being around a lot of people all the time. like hey i’ll go to the bookstore or the park by myself. well my parents a...
right so in one of my recent entries i mentioned that ‘ so turns out. i’m possessive of my guy friends. [not that i actively outwardly show it, or anything]. um yeah. ‘ ‘. well and this was brou...
i just thought.
‘i just thought.that we’d be the main people in each other’s lives.........like in the past.3 yrs. or so he’s the last main friend i’ve had since. cause i don’t want to get to know people cause t...
