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As I looked out the window, my heart racing.... He pulls back up. I had talked him into coming back after he sneaked out knowing the police would be coming. Where were they?? He got out of hi...

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Last night I couldn’t sleep well. It was a day and so was today. Yesterday I did go to see my favorite doctor my GYN. I’m a sicko. Still like him. He makes me blush. Anyway the reason I deci...

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I am a person that keeps to myself. I don’t really vent to anyone. That is what diaries like this are for. I don’t have anyone to talk to to vent about life. I have been through my fair share ...

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Yesterday I woke up to the news Anthony Bourdain died of suicide just like everybody else and it was and still is all over my fb page. Suicide prevention blah blah blah. I feel horrible too th...

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One of my best friends in the world has another best friend… if that makes any sense. So we share best friends. We have gone on trips together but the 2 of them… are like soul sisters. Tuesday...

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He stays in the basement like a troll. He yells and screams all the time. He rather smoke weed than do anything. When he does surface he pushes my buttons… Why the hell am I with him. He’s a...

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I don’t like Mother’s Day… There really isn’t a reason for me to hate it.... I still have a mother, I am a mother.... all my wishes and dreams came true I guess.. But .....as everybody celebrate...

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Sunday is Mother’s Day .....and my birthday. I look at my busy toddler whom is into everything.... you little man, mean the world to me. To my 2 other kids.... you too as well. As always I g...

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Need to vent. Last Friday I took my son, he’s 21 months to the pediatricians office as he had a fever of 103 and was very lethargic. He had had a cold for over 2 weeks and his breathing seemed l...

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I had put a few items on FB market place to sell and got some one that want to buy a baby seat from me. We met exchanged money for the item and you would think no more. The person goes on to te...

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I am sometimes happy he’s in there and others disturbed. This not knowing whats going on is the worse. At the beginning he’s nasty, spiteful and a different person till the meds kick in. The ca...

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Last night I got very little sleep, I got in this conversation with my SO niece whom happens to have a child 2 weeks older than mine. So my child is actually first cousins with her. Of course w...

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I’ve watched my little babycakes.. He’s very social and does want to be a part of everything. He does have a few little things that make you go hmm but for the most part he’s just fine in the ca...

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Sometimes I get concerned about babycakes…he’s slower to hit the milestones but he hits them eventually. I’m not use to that and it scares me as Andrew is my Asperger’s kid was ahead of him at t...

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I was in a support group for moms that have clubbed footed kids. A mother asked if she should have an amniocentesis to see if there were other problems with her baby. I wrote…my child has clubb...

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A couple nights ago my mind drifted off to TV movies that were on when I was younger. I remember clearly there was 3 of them that were compelling and lasted with me. One was a push for what is n...

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Sometimes I look at this page.. an empty slate. What to write....BLank. Everything swirls in my head. So much where to start and sadly I just can’t write what I want. I could write all day any ...

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I’m upset....very!! How can I be with someone whom treats me as bad as my SO does. Today seems like the last straw. He blames me for everything: For not “sharing”- I don’t give him enough. He ...

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Its been a few days after my appointment and somethings stick in my mind and others I shrugged off so much like what I went through. To see my little snuggler now you would never know what he wen...

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I was mad at my middle son this morning as he was being sneaky and trying to take his kids kindle to school by sneaking it into his backpack. No I told him and you are not using it and going to y...

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Same story...... alot has happened over the last several months.... and have I wrote about it. NO I go to my OB/GYN and bam. I’m back here like a gushing teenager with a crush. Especially since ...

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I love going there.... They treat me and the little prince like gold. I’m now trying the Depo shot. Hoping I didn’t make a mistake with this. Its not like they can take anything out of me. So ...

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I guess I know its coming… the monthly thing so everything is pissing me off. Peoples world views and comments by trolls. I got to stop reading that horseshit. For example: When is it ever good...

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There’s a family on fb that I have been following as they grew up in the city I’m from. My heart goes out to them....they had a post tonight that there 6 month old passed away due to congenital ...

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So going around with a baby that has casts on his legs I get a huge amount of stares, glares and I think people trying to figure out why a 6 month old is in to his thigh casts on both his legs. ...

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