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Making Memories with the Kids
Always at the beginning of the new year I want to make this year the best the kids ever have with fun activities and events to attend. I feel like we are making memories and that the kids will h...
Feeling Guilty for Having Emotions
I signed up for something and they asked personal questions. My past comes up..... I have a handle on my past. I can’t change it, Its there but I feel that I handled anything forward from it we...
Sigh....
Its been a week.... Not with the normal things like my SO and all his monkey business but my little one. I finally had a meeting with his teachers and they were very rude to me. I’m to the point...
Keep it Coming
A few things fall off the list and more gets added. 1 parking ticket done. Haven’t heard from the other but I will be pissed if it isn’t dismissed. I sent in the stub that I paid it. Still have ...
Just Wish.....
I just wish I knew what the outcome would be of all this..... I wish that all these agencies would get together and decide on a plan instead of leaving it to one or the other that doesn’t know th...
Just Pile on more.... WTH
So First thing this morning I get a call from CPS and she tells me that under no circumstances can SO come back.... WTF!! Because if he does than they will take me to court and take away the kid...
Beyond Stress
So SO is still in jail and at least I know the next court date and then what??? Next court date is June 13. I wish some one would talk to me about what is going on I called a program today and g...
A Lot on My Mind Continued.....
So SO is in jail… for how long????? They didn’t call from the DV advocacy thing today.... Grrr not that I want to talk to them. Alex went to the ENT today. He has an ear infection too and is...
A Lot on My Mind
So yesterday was the day from hell. I put Alex on the bus and within an hour they called me to pick him up as he had pink eye… Sigh.. He’s had sinus issues for almost 2 months now nonstop and ev...
Mother's Day
I wish my 1st mother’s day was magical and saw it as such. A dream for me to be the mother I always wanted to be with that new baby. The snuggles and hugs and all the the love I could give him....
Mother's Day
This time of year I’m depressed from everything that is mother’s day and my birthday. i have some depression going on but not from this time of year as typical. I was reading on FB one of the...
Stuck
11 days have gone by since I talked to him. seen him. Really more like 12. He needs this and I know he deserves this and it was a long time coming. I do feel a bit bad and I slightly miss him...
She Doesn't do anything
So we went to Florida and visited my parents while they were there. I brought down the 3 kids and my mom cooked and cleaned and even did my laundry. Bliss for a working mother with 3 kids to en...
Abortions
I myself am not pro abortion but I am for other people. you do not have the right to choose what other people do. That is how I feel. you don’t know the circumstances that they have to make to ...
Located
LOL…little detective work and I know his whereabouts to the street. Some of it I wish I didn’t know and the other makes me feel a bit satisfied. I guess knowing he had $5000 to party it up and ma...
The Demons in My Head
I feel he will eventually return.... Its not like this is the first time. I know I am happier, the kids are happier. We can breath a sigh of relief. The demons lurking in the shadow some of my...
Weird
I didn’t hear from him at all yesterday. I wrote him hoping that he was warm and had a place. I believe he’s probably high as a kite at his friend in Ithaca’s place. H will probably stay there ...
Relief.....
So day 1 of him not being here. No nasty messages in fact he blocked me during the night. Although he did make it so I couldn’t see his facebook but just his profile pic and its of him and Alex...
I Did it
Nervously I went to the courthouse and waited and waited and waited till they called me back. He was there. He screamed at me this morning about going. I did anyway. He got himself a lawyer. ...
Nervous as Hell
I want to skip it in the worse way.... Not go to court. Not stand up to him. Sigh..... I’m tired of this. He’s been good. Acting good for the most part except for a few times this weekend. Few...
Suck
Mental health wise I’m maxed out...... I can’t take much more. There is so much going on and 90% is bad. Work.....I’m so waiting for the fair treatment that they are stalling on. Home…Well its ...
Here we Go around the Mulberry Bush
And we are back to square one again..... From the summer he’s still a pain in the ass with mental health thing. I was met with resistance and why am I not out of this relationship. I talked to s...
Sept 11, 2001
I remember it like it was yesterday.... I was an airline worker. I worked for Midway Airlines. It had occurred to me when working ay the airlines of terrorists and such but that seemed so ‘80’s ...
Babycakes Development
This has been one of those topics I’ve been worried about but at the same time I’m not. Babycakes had speech today with his therapist. We had a good talk as his report came back and he’s impro...
And drama continues...
My emotions are a mess. I want to hid…cry my eyes out.... It doesn’t help that I’m at the time of the month that makes this more intense but even still with everything going on I think I have th...
Book Description
My last little guys strange but true story of him arriving here.
