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Waiting for Test Results
The hospital gave me a copy of the findings of my endoscope, not that I can tell much from what is said. I have NOT googled this or any other malady. I do not want to know until a doctor tells me...
Update
I am now at Hickle House,named for Gov and Mrs. Hickle, on Providence Medical Center campus. This puts me much closer to the doctor(s) I am seeing. Taxi rides have averaged $20 each way. Plus the...
The New and Improved Plan
The doctor from Juneau called me today to check in. Matt is his name. He told me that even though I have signed up for health insurance which will kick in 2-1-2015, I should get to Anchorage as s...
Home
We flew home on the 1pm flight out of Juneau, one of only 2 planes to make it to Skagway today. None made it the day before, or the day before AND the scheduled ferry on Sunday did not sail becau...
Friday to Juneau by Ferry
It is time. I thought I could wait until the Sunday ferry to begin my quest for medical information in Juneau on Monday. I cannot. The pain is unremitting and bad. It eases somewhat with Aspercre...
Friday to Juneau by Ferry
It is time. I thought I could wait until the Sunday ferry to begin my quest for medical information in Juneau on Monday. I cannot. The pain is unremitting and bad. It eases somewhat with Aspercre...
Summary of Continued Suffering
AND BLESSED NORTHERN LIGHTS I continue to have pain and suffering although it is greatly reduced. I spent Thursday night, Christmas Night at Madame’s house laying in her Jacuzzi bathtub filled wi...
Madame's Mammogram
Traci and I were supposed to talk today about my going to her to get cataract surgery done and for me to be there for support. I texted her at 7:30a my time to let her know I was awake. She texte...
Lost but Better
I am ‘better’ but still not feeling healthy. I finally got everything in gastro-area purged with a bottle of magnesium sulfate solution Madame gave me. It’s like the nasty suff you drink to get r...
Pain Free for 32 Hours (and Counting)
Wednesday and every day before it was painful and caused me to feel so hopeless. It’s been 3 weeks and although I have some hours of freedom from pain they feel like they are very few and far bet...
Crawling Toward Wellness
Need to write myself an entry, can’t keep track very well if I never write. I’m sitting in front of Saturday Night Live. I must be getting old. Even though I keep up with current events, I find v...
Traci Wants Me to Visit
Traci called me this morning and had made a decision about what had upset her. She asked me if she paid for the travel, could/would I come to spend time with her in December. “To hold my hand” th...
Marginally Better
I keep letting the pain get ahead of me and then when I take the pain pills, the first dose doesn’t work very well and the pain lasts longer. I just am afraid of getting dependent on the suckers....
Thank you, All of you
Thank you, all of you who read and note. Prayers are much needed and appreciated. You all remind me that I do matter, that I am worthy of love and friendship. I like to think that you all care as...
Clinic Visit, Again
I am still suffering terrible pain in ribcage front and back. I was in so much pain Saturday night, that at 9pm I called Madame for some pain relievers. Bill picked them up. Relief. Happened agai...
Creeping Along
I don’t know why it is so difficult for me to deal with Fred Meyer pharmacy. Seems it will straighten out sooner or later. I called to get syringes for insulin, they are over-the-counter purchase...
Waiting for Meds to Do Their Job
Yep, I talked to Lynne again on the phone yesterday and I just need to keep taking the new anti-depressants and give it another week, or two, or a month. The muscle relaxers for the back spasm.....
Ah-Ha !
I not only saw John today, but I saw Lynne as well. A double whammy of information, discovery and reminding. I had the worst night I have ever had with this whole stomach/ribs pain thing. I knew ...
Hanging On
My stomach is killing me. It hurts and I hate it. I have taken the clonzepan Lynne refilled for me and am hoping it will calm down I called Lynne today and left a message. She called me back aro...
Today Was Almost Tomorrow
I have said many times and written it here too that the only thing that has saved me from suicide is the hope that tomorrow would be better. Each day comes and each day is today. So tomorrow neve...
Slowly Improving
Glucose levels remain good and I am making a conscious effort to eat properly. The Have dehydration pretty well under control, although I need to do a bit better. I saw John Tuesday for 2nd visit...
Action
I did exactly what I planned to do after my last entry. I called John and made an appointment the next day for 2pm. I kept that appointment. First contact usually a general sort of interview, I ...
Into Action
Act*Natural left a note on my previous entry that resonates with me because Madame called me this evening. She immediately noticed my flat affect, monotone speech and general lack of interest. S...
October's Here
When tourists ask me what I do after season is over, my reply is “I start by sleeping the entire month of October.” I am doing that more or less because I am not steady enough to do the things th...
Rough Days
Things are not going all that well. I am alive and still fighting, trying,learning and sometimes just plain laughing at myself. Alarming glucose readings baffled and discouraged me for about a we...
Book Description
Spirit, the Universe, God, Higher Power–all refer to that small still voice that guides me, prods me and urges me onward. The maternal side of my family has/had many psychics–intuitives who just knew and acted on what they ‘knew’. No one other than my brother has done any training or study to strengthen this ability. We just use it, trust it, and find no reason to explain it. All I ask is that those who love me respect that I believe. I do not ask that they believe.
Much of what I write is about this listening to Spirit and acting upon the prodding. I also live in Skagway, Alaska a most beautiful and close-knit community. We are a summer cruise stop and much of the season is spent in frantic fulfillment of tourist’s tour needs and in filling our coffers for the winter when there is no employment here. I liken this to growing up in Kansas with the wheat harvest–much frantic activity followed by a much-needed rest.
I am a refugee from Open Diary, joining many dear friends from there. I expect to have a steep learning curve to becoming comfortable here, navigating and so on.
This will be my only ‘book’.
Blessed be!
