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so. fuk. this is now the 3rd time I feel like fear is being used to motivate me. Mark knows about this and the other 2 times. well he knows that I feel like fear is being used to motivateme and t...

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royals, lorde. I love. this. when I get to have it. I love it. this is the side of me that when most people first meet me they don’t know about. I play games I manipulate people I control people....

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yeah except I don’t. go find it. the quote’s from like I put. a tv show. an old tv show I used to watch back in the day [i’m 27 btw] and loved. and still do love. actually. i’m embarrassed to put...

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well g*damnit. so I saw my emotions dr. today. and it was. it was ok. idinno. I told her about karlye. and. what happened. [well she knows karlye left of her own accord she doesn’t know how]. and...

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er, yesterday. I meant sun. yeah so jared and them were over for. like. 12 hrs. sun. from about lunch I think [idinno I woke up at 2:50 pm.] to around midnight. when I woke up the house was loud...

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I still don’t have one. a date I mean. i’d emailed this guy Richard a bit and. we seemed to really have hit it off. we had a good connection. we exchanged #s I’ve called him a few times but he. h...

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or, something like that I, might’ve gotten the lyrics wrong. ‘slow dance’, milky chance. it’s an entire song about. dancing. that’s weird. there are a few other songs out there like that too. and...

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an alcoholic, lemonade. I know.........I know. so much for that goal. actually no. it’s better than it was where I used to drink. like. I think 2 - 4 of those per wk. my goal for this wk. was to ...

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well. that seems er apparent since I have clinical depression. no uhm............I mean it’s worsened. I don’t want to do much of anything. including cut or drink. or smoke. i’m not like. super u...

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bc. i’m apparently the only one who liked my stepgrandmother. I somewhat get why others didn’t like her but I don’t want to know the details bc I don’t want that to change my perception of her. I...

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so. my stepgrandmother is [or was. well I guess she still is] Jewish. she has a sister who lives in Miami and apparently a brother I just learned Mon. I don’t know where he’s at. she escaped from...

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my stepgrandmother was 90 [god my relatives live to be old. my maternal grandmother lived to be 90 she passed 4 yrs. ago next month and my. um. my dad’s mom will be 89, 90 in july. my mom’s dad’s...

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my paternal stepgrandmother passed.

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‘it’s like i’m standing at a great precipice screaming and no one even looks up’ yes. I still love that movie. but sometimes. ya should let people see the precipice. and that’s..........well that...

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good job. [sarcasm btw]. yeah. cause that’s exactly a healthy way to handle me. that’s exactly the right way to approach things. what the fuking hell. um so basically. i’m still here. in the pla...

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i’m not good at. definitive statements. like ‘yeah i’ll do that’ or ‘no’. unless i’m stoned. like I probably won’t do it but i’ll give a v. committal ‘yes’. i’ll go ‘sometimes’ or ‘i’ll think abo...

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damnit. not to add insult to injury but yeah. pretty much what’s been happening. so my ankle. well it’s still not great but it’s better. I wrapped it recently using med. tape [it’s the only thing...

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so alexis had 2 people in mind that she knows of. er. I mean. 2 people to be my new mentor but it depends on their the amount of time they have. she.............well. again i’d rather know of som...

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so today was my last official day w/ alexis. it was. it was good i’m just sad now.

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ug. tomorrow. [er ‘tomorrow’. no I mean yesterday]. yesterday just wasn’t my day [currently 1:10 a.m. here]. currently spinning: natalie imbruglia’s ‘torn’. it’s the only song of hers I have actu...

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ya know. back before I saw that email. I believed I was pretty. and now I don’t. all I did was post a photo. like I wasn’t mean to this person I didn’t email them. or anything. so that’s the othe...

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Do you like your first name? yeah [it’s ‘Anne’ btw said ‘Ann’]. i can see myself being named something else. not that i want that jus sayin. i can see myself being a ‘lily’, a ‘christine’, a ‘cla...

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so alexis said she’d talk to some people at her work and see if they’re available. well apparently my mom emailed steph. and now steph knows. so I guess that now amber and them are going to see i...

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there always are. I um. w/ alexis I mean. she missed a wk. when she was out of town in.........prior to my going overseas. which is fine. people go out of town all the time and there’s nothing w...

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I know this might not be a big thing to some and that’s ok but it is to me so please respect that. I just got told i’m unpretty via email. and that was the subject heading. so it’s not like it wa...

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