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so i’m healthy. er well i’m health-ier than I’ve been in. awhile. for the most part. it’s just. odd. i’m not drinking i’m not smoking I haven’t had any major relapses. I mean i’m physically healt...

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well. actually any day you’re alive [er.........] is a time to be alive just bc you are alive. fact is. we’re all really g*damn lucky to be here whether we like it or not. whether we want to be o...

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i’m too tired/don’t have the motivation to get a cup of milk and drink it which would help [cause it has protein in it which I don’t have enough of] which is one reason i’m so damn depressed. it’...

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I got it the end of last month too. I got them around the beginning of the month and then they changed to the middle and now it’s at the end. so yeah like I mentioned I got it. which is. ok. i’d ...

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‘not that he went. but, when Christopher was living at my house. there was a time when I was subjected to his verbal abuse. even though it wasn’t towards me. I had the option of moving but I chos...

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My former roommate Christopher passed. either yesterday or today. I don’t.............. it sounds like it went ok. it sounds like he was comfortable. I hope he was. I hope that for anybody. it di...

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people have been doing that lately. it’s a song. by Aretha [as in franklin]. it was in the movie ‘sparkle’ the remake. I don’t know if it was in the original as I’ve never seen that one. Clint’s ...

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‘yay. omygod. yeah so fb. it put Luiza F. as someone I might know. and so I went to her page and.......Lu [and until I saw the spelling I thought it was ‘Lou’] was one of my good bar friends. I d...

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‘a good day. for me is when steph & I don’t talk. and today so far we haven’t. it’s been nice. so today. like I put nothing happened. except I haven’t eaten yet. I don’t at my house during th...

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something else that happened recently. w/I the last wk. ‘which well more often than not I have been brushing my teeth. um but no. so on mon. before clint [again he’s my new mentor] came I um. I w...

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which ya know. in and of itself isn’t that big of a thing. I should be. ok - good in that dept. they haven’t in like 4 months. I figured it would come up eventually. I meant to weigh myself at be...

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I think. part of my depression has to do w/ protein deficiency. [however. all my b vitamins. er ‘b vitamins’. fat soluble vitamin levels are good, so]. yeah earlier I was looking up the signs of ...

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‘I really want to leave right now. my house. where no i’m not being abused. it’s 2:40 in the morning. I mean I. I could no one’s stopping me. I know where i’d go too. they. the people in my life....

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more vitamin/anorex. talk. my depression isn’t entirely caused by lack ofprotein but the me being tired all the damn time. er. I mean that part of my depression. is. which I knew. I just wante...

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unless i’m wrong which idinno I might be. so. a few times I’ve felt like fear is being used to motivate me which I don’t think is healthy. and my friend mark agrees. and alexis agrees. but no one...

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the other. major part of my life right now. as usual I don’t want advice just updating. omfg. Stephanie she’s. the same as she always is pushy and bubbly and too damn happy and. not t all low key...

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so this is more me thinking outloud than anything. if you relate please let me know. long entry. my depression’s still at a 9. it might take until aug. or sept. to get to a 6. I would love for it...

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I had a title for this thought up and I just forgot what it was. so evan news. well he’s. he seems alrite. he’s seemed better lately. he called and told me he probably won’t call me for 1 - 3 mon...

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I. won’t let others take care of me. like ever. there are only. 3 people i’d let do it. well actually now 4. which is what this entry’s about. the 4th is clint. he like. gets me napkins. or throw...

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yeah so last wk my sister I saw tomorrowland. it was v. cool. in the beginning they flashed back to 1964. I like it when movies do that. and the pin’s cool too. yeah. i’d recommend it.

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I like books. I like the way they smell. and just books in general the physical things. I don’t. well in some ways I don’t want a kindle. you can’t. curl up w/ a kindle the same way you can w/ a ...

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1: brush teeth 2x daily 2: let steph/jenn know when I’ve had their liquor 3: to not call/text evan [again. goin for 2 wks.] 4: to get more vit. d in liquid form. and to get more vit. e and k. ...

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well it’s sun. so it was my going out day. um. well so I of course went out. I went to the bar didn’t get anything. not yet. only once that I’ve been there has a waitress come over to me. I also ...

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clint and I went to karaoke at armida’s downtown. there weren’t a lot of people there and only like 4 sang. I got to sing 2 songs and I was hoping to get in at least 1. I was so nervous for my 1s...

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so again as I’ve mentioned. Clint loves music. well twice when we’ve been in his car going somewhere we’ve listened to music. and I start crying a bit. I don’t cry in front of people like ever. a...

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