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tuluse letrec for those who don’t know is the small french artist from the...........19th cent. i think. he’s in the orig. moulin rouge. anyway. downtown guy said. he’d ignore me if he ever saw m...

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i was thinking about this recently. one morning. i thought about it more in those 20 mins. in that morning then i had in awhile. it’s been almost 4 yrs. since i last saw downtown guy. that was th...

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it’s been. almost a month since i last had a drink. on sun. it’ll be. which also happens to be my ex’s 31st bday.

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my mom’s dog is getting worse. i. this is hard.

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been awhile since i’ve caught up on. everything. also i don’t feel good, so. which is why i haven’t wanted to do/blog much. so here’s what’s changed and what hasn’t and stuff since um. june 27th:...

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not me a friend. so as we might’ve figured out. A good frienf of mine’s going to rehab for 30 days. he’s going next wk. he’s on probation and he didn’t follow the rules. he told me it was kindof ...

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like the title says i have news about alexis. alexis for those who don’t know have forgotten is my former mentor. um. so recently at work a kid hit her w/ a rock which she went into the hospital ...

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i. there’s something i should be honest about. thing is. by not doing the things i’m supposed to. it’s not that i’m getting back at them. it’s that. i’m making things worse for myself [cause i st...

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apparently this is a vent which is why it won’t allow for notes. i. this has to do w/ my entry about me not being able to handle the pressure. maybe i can and maybe i can’t or maybe i just need a...

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so as put. i’m just so angry. w/ Pat. ya know i never had problems w/ him [which is weird since w/ most people w/i 2 wks. they annoy me] when he was here but yet when he’s not. and he’s never com...

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Pat i mean. i’m just now putting this together. so that night the night that he left he must’ve drank.........that..........night. and then gone to sleep. oh god. that’s.............

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so Pat’s brother just told me what the toxicology report said. i knew it wasn’t just an anuerism from what iknow about them. Pat was sick the last like month. he thought it was just a cold or so...

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so like a wk. ago yesterday evan and i. didn’t get together. and i wasn’t sure if we’d planned anything or not. so later when he called i asked him about it and i’m like ‘we didn’t plan anything ...

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as people might know by now my former roommate christopher passed a little over a month ago. no you don’t have to say anything about it that’s not what this entry’s about [though you can if you w...

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he said that the other day. or something like that i don’t remember exactly. but w/e it was it was helpful. he has experience w/ mourning. 2.5 yrs. ago our best friend passed. and that was. that ...

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‘well i’m disappointed. in. well my mom. and my sister. ok so my sister i have been getting together every wk. except for um this wk. on tues. night she told me she was cancelling bc she had work...

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‘I don’t know if i’ve ever actually stated this but i’m on both sides as it were. in terms of sexuality. i’ve mentioned it quite a few times on fb but i’ve never detailed what it means to me. i’v...

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as put. i know we’re not together anymore and we haven’t been in over 2.5 yrs. but. i. i still want him to be mine. my ex that is. idinno i guess. like we spent so much time together. but the ti...

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um..........wow. last night into this morning i was upset for. um. 4 hrs during one of which i had this long panic attack. thing. well it wasn’t a panic attack cause to me i’ve only experienced t...

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i. i’m a godamn wreck. this doesn’t happen often. i can’t handle the pressure. and for once i’m being realistic. i can’t handle the pressure of doing what they want me to do every damn day. i do...

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ok so to be completely honest. so, for the longest time the reason i wouldn’t let my dad in was cause i was angry w/ him. for not doing what he should’ve like fuk 10 yrs. ago. and while i’m still...

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well which i knew before but i wasn’t ready to come to terms w/ it untill now. i’ve known for about 8 months. yeah so Pat.my best friend who passed away almost 2.5 yrs. ago. he um was an alcohli...

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so i meant to put this yesterday which. obviously didn’t happen. 1: teeth, again. 2: to not call/text evan. again. 3: to get more protein. [i’m done w/ the vit. d thing] wk. 2. wk. 1 didn’t go ...

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so the other person who um made a cd for me was my former friend Michael. it’s been 5 yrs. since I last talked to him. well a little over. um. So the first time we hung out we listened to a mix h...

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wow a lot’s happened that i’ve not blogged about. well. i blog when i’m ready. and i think i am. [well he was before this happened]. ok so we’re in his car and he tells me he has new music [i thi...

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