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ya know what it's like? it's like.
it’s like boarding school. so this isn’t something i talk about like ever but when i was 15 [god that was a long time ago] I went to boarding school for 2 yrs. and i left [involuntarily mind you]...
i'm obviously not worth keeping
and. if she really cared she’d have kept me longer. well i mean she is. i just want a reason to be upset. a push. and also that sounds abusive the ‘if she really cared she’d...........’ like when...
well since she's apparently giving up on me then.....
maybe i’ll give up on her. steph i mean. maybe i’ll stop doing things for her. in fact i already was. i didn’t want to do things to make her happy which was why i stopped. and that’s what led to ...
so now that i'm moving
which apparently the decision when/where to move is up to me but i don’t believe that since it wasn’t up to me that i was moving, so. um anyway. but now that i’m moving and since i know that i c...
right so i don't trust her
and why would i. steph did warn me. like twice. once back in like feb. and the 2nd time recently. she said um. she was losing patience w/ me or something. and ya know. i always knew it was a poss...
not enough time zero time an hr. all so fast.
well. so the amber situation got worked out. and before it did my depression worsened. but the day it did the day i found out about the amber situation working out was the exact same day i found ...
it's not about hurting feelings. or, not hurting feelings.
the reason i’m nice to people. isn’t cause i don’t want to hurt their feelings. well i mean. it’s not like i set out to either most of the time. no um. it’s cause. i don’t want to let people in. ...
evan stuff.
so i dont know if this actually happened or not but it seems more likely that it did. so from what evan told me [btw he now has a phone] some guy he knew was badmouthing me. i think it might’ve b...
save us a fuk lot of time.
ya know. i wish for certain things like big things. like well moving for instance. i wish there was some way. for someone who knows you well and has moved to the new house/neighborhood. would li...
she implied that. and yet here we are.
so the other day. it was either yesterday or the day prior fuk if i remember which one. anyway. steph said something to me like ‘well you’ve already had it hard enough’ implying she didn’t want t...
nevermind i'll find someone like you
except that’s the thing. is i don’t want someone like stephanie i haven’t for awhile. i’ve already gone over why. knowing her. she’s going to be all emotionally outwardly expressive about this. s...
say something i'm giving up on you
i feel like i’m being given up on. and yeah maybe in a way i am. ya know. cause steph’s the one who decided i’m moving. which yes legally she’s allowed to do. she and jenn. my mom’s the one who t...
so apparently. on compliance.
so apparently i was mistaken. i thought when i was told to be compliant it meant always having to be nice. for those of you who’ve been following my blog on here. i think you know how i felt abou...
the amber thing
so. i have a new service coordinator for a short period. nick who i met yesterday. that’s the only time i’ve seen him but so far he’s nice. i like that he’s someone new and i don’t have a history...
i knew i'd regret it
um. right so amber didn’t come to the meeting yesterday. cause she had her baby. but honestly. as much as i don’t like amber. i’d rather have her there then steph. bc of personality. idinno i rel...
yeah i'm disappointed too
um. so i’m not actually physically moving. out of my house untill i say i’m ready to far as i know. which well i was before yesterday the news of yesterday as i’d wanted to but it hadn’t become r...
i can't believe how hungry i am.
yeah so i went to the store today. i was so damn excited. i like going to the store idinno maybe that’s weird. or maybe not. also on my ebt card the amount doubled so that’s another reason i was ...
oh give me one more chance/trying to win her back/i'm goin down
in the words of the jackson 5. i feel like. w/ the move thing steph’s run out of chances to give. me. and maybe in a way she has. but at the same time if she really felt that way she would’ve. l...
shock relief sad uh oh
right so idk if i’ve mentioned this but when my mom i were out of the dental building she told me the news that i’m moving. and at first i was shocked. and then after a few hrs. i was relief. and...
um. more news.
i’m apparently moving. i don’t know when yet actually that’s on me. my new service coordinator has a few places in mind. oh yeah that’s my other bit of news i have a new........yeah.
infuriated as hell
so. it’s been awhile since i’ve written about this but i vivldly remember doing it like it was yesterday. oh yeah that’s another thing about my memory. something that happened yrs. ago seems like...
evan stuff.
we. well we didn’t talk today. or rather we haven’t. yet. um........i think he lost his new phone [again]. this seems to be a regular occurance. he does not have a good track record w/ phones. or...
i feel like i can't trust him. evan that is.
as put. i feel like i can’t completely trust him. well and that’s bc well. i can’t. last night i. well i sent him this text broken up into............well 8 textmails: ‘i’m frustrated as hell. i ...
evan news.
yeah so he called. and he’s spiking out again only this time he sounds sad. and that makes me sad. and i told him i wish there was something i could do and he’s like i wish there was something an...
so, evan news.
he’s ok. well he’s better than he was last night. apparently what happened was he broke his phone and couldn’t get a new one untill today. yeah he called me almost an hr. ago [6:10 atm] and tol...
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things that happened in 2015
