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Twitter: Writing
That moment where you HAVE to do something that you were once excited about doing. But then you realize… it doesn’t matter and it all begins to feel like busy work. #MemoForTrashBin UPDATE: The...
Weekend: Expectations & Realities.
I wanted to do something… different(?) for this. This weekend holds certain plans and expectations. I am certain some will be fulfilled, some will be missed, and some will be devastated. As I...
Twitter: Hrm
How do you like that? All month… no job openings at all. Not even openings in jobs that I could never be qualified for. This week? Sent out my Keokuk County application yesterday… Des Moines ju...
At The Wall?
Yesterday was another nothing day. Did what I could as far as chores, errands, and job hunting. But… there wasn’t much to the day. Woke up at 4 am for no reason. Kicked around, did some resear...
Numeral Type Things Should Be Here (Updated)
As with many things in my life, I’m having trouble really passionately caring about routines and expectations. So.... title should be the number system I had been hoping to use for all of 2015… ...
Turning Road at Montegroult
Title: Paul Cezanne used to be my absolute favorite painter… but I only liked his landscapes… this paining was one of my favorites. Just a weird little throw out fact. Quick today.... This mor...
Title Title
Feeling better. Still can’t regulate my bloody temperature. Sweating like a fat guy in the Amazon one minute than colder than an anorexic in Antarctica the next. Voice is coming back, though, so...
What it is
Woke up drenched in sweat this morning Honor demanded I not leave the trainee at work high and dry. She’s only been with us for three days. Coughed up a nice giant ball of green mucus then put o...
Baby Steps Around the Office
I feel a little better today. My voice is scratched to hell and it hurts to swallow, breath, or talk. I’m blowing my nose every six seconds. I’ve got a cup of tea and my strength of will to t...
Twitter: Damn Updated
I bought alcohol yesterday for the first time in a while. I hadn’t eaten anything all day. Apparently with nothing in my stomach but alcohol… I got super drunk super quickly. Like… enhanced pain...
Twitter: 911
This day runs through my thoughts and heart in a way few others do. As poetic or beautiful as words and images can be… nothing does justice to the day. We saw Heroes on this day 14 years ago an...
15-09.09 & .10 & .11.133
With my own PC still dead or dying; I’m doing updates at work. That means that I’m still not catching up on reading all of you and… frankly, that adds to my feelings of isolation. Because… whet...
Relaxation Not Included (long, of course)
DAMMIT! I guess the trip was pretty much a total loss in a lot of ways. Even if the trip HAD gone perfectly (which of course it didn’t)… coming home to completely dead near-possessed electronic...
Emergency Computer Crap
Laptop is (still) down and out. PC just completely crapped out. Will be shopping for replacements (hopefully getting them) soon ish. This really puts a crimp on job searching!
15-09.04.135
I am finally starting to feel the internal effects of the insomnia. Which is funny. Stress and emotional issues cause the insomnia… but the stress and emotional issues aren’t overwhelming… just...
15-09.02.134
Life is certainly an experience. Yesterday, Wife and I both had the day off. I actually got decent sleep… hope that the insomnia was starting to pass! And as it was the first of the month, that...
15-08.29.133
This is a rant. I know that going in. Therefore, there need not be any rationalizations or discussions stemming from certain elements of this. Obviously, I always listen to notes. I haven’t b...
15-08.28.132
The relative insomnia continues. This morning, I was able to finally slip into unconsciousness around 5 am. Of course… I had court in the morning, so I was awake again by 7. And perhaps it is ...
15-08.26.131
A sore throat and tooth sensitivity kept me from getting much sleep last night. I’m thinking they are all related but… the tooth sensitivity might be its own thing as I think a cavity may be for...
Twitter: Short Snippits
(1) I’ve been an even shittier Prose Boxer than usual. My depression, anxiety, and (tiny bit) of rage at a whole mess of things has put me far too inside my own head. When I’m like that… I don’...
15-08.18.130
Super Brief Wife has had days off so I haven’t had much time or opportunity to read or write here in the PB world. Tonight we are going to do an Official Geeks Who Drink game. Should be interest...
No, YOUR Title Here
Again… at work doing this borderline data entry stuff… my mind wanders in completely unrelated directions(!) MEANDERING THOUGHT ONE I am trying to understand my wife better. I am one of those hi...
Twitter: Postal Post
On Monday, I snail mailed my application to a Public Defender Office. As application packages are fairly bulky, I used our friendly Postal Zone. Hell, I’ve been using them so much for applicati...
Twitter: Surface
Balance, it seems, is not my forte. This week my hours have increased to 21… so almost double, which is good, but not full time- of course. Thing is… this also happens to be the week (of course...
Twitter: Comments from Work
(1) Judge me harshly for this if you wish but… I am damned sick of people saying that they are “activists for justice” but have no concept of intersectionality or anything deeper than the visual....
Book Description
The adventures that take place in the year 2015 A.D. or for the scientifically inclined 2015 C.E.
My goals, set at the ending days of 2014, are as follows:
(1) I must pass the bar exam. On the chance that I do not pass in February; I will dedicate my entire existence to passing in July. After that attempt, I will attempt no longer.
(2) I must resolve this three year wedding photography issue. If we cannot receive the product we paid for, then a civil litigation may be necessary. We will receive our product, our payments, or our photographs… and if the civil remedies are too limited, I may file criminal charges.
(3) I must find employment. If I do not pass the Bar Exam, I must find employment in any field that provides a living wage; if I do pass the bar exam, I must find employment in my field.
(4) I must resolve the hanging issues of my marriage. Not only does this include working towards our long delayed Honeymoon… but this includes hard decisions, as well. Like… can I accept a marriage with no intimacy? Can I convince my wife of the importance of physical touch? Am I willing to risk another 3 years between sexual encounters? It isn’t fair to either of us for these questions to remain unresolved.
