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I woke up this morning, you in my head Dreaming of a trip we’ve never been on Us lying on a bed And I told you, showed you my heart I shared my insecurity, about not being enough I think of how y...

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It’s funny that you called yesterday. Well actually, after you said that, I was like “You just liked two rather emotional tweets. That could have been the ‘something that told you to call.’” It w...

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I was sleepy when I was on the couch. Watched 10 minutes of news, this being my allotted time for the next two weeks. The world’s a shit show you know? I get to my room, and now, guess who’s not...

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You told me I keep you on your toes and no woman has ever done that. You stay on guard because whenever, wherever, you want to be ready for whatever I pull out of my bag. Lol Except when I look a...

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You keep me torn inside. I think about you. Our conversations, the goofy parts, the heart to hearts. The ones that bore me. The ones that make me roll my eyes because you go overboard thinking I’...

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It’s raining harder than it was earlier I had cornbread with milk in your honor You were on my mind

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I don’t know how we would have ended up. You said you never wanted to walk away. What if you never did? What would we be right now? Still what we were? You living away from me, me watching you da...

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For the past few weeks, I’ve been a wreck in my feelings. Partly due to monthly hormonal problems, partly because I haven’t been drinking. Partly because I got set off because I did a dumb thing ...

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There are times when I cease all things. I want to quiet my mind only to have them filled with thoughts of you… I close my eyes and look into the blackness, into the nothing that is there and you...

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This is escalation and it shouldn’t be happening. Perhaps we need to do this, get this out of our system and move on. Or maybe this will open up a floodgate. I’ve been craving kissing Him. To be ...

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1) RJ and I went to get drinks and snacks after work. We caught up and talked and got to the meat of the matter later on in our favorite setting: somewhere where live music is playing. At any rat...

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Not totally, but it’s there. He seems good. He seems happy in his life, so why are YOU here? But he keeps in touch. I stay away from his socials because I don’t want to really know. Give me the s...

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This dance we stay away from. Opening books, peeking at phrases from who we were. We smile. We talk on the subject of you and me. I back out of it clumsily, but you keep advancing. Step to only ...

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…it should just stay reminiscing… You are greedy and selfish and I see that now. Here I told you I missed you too, but the more you talk the more I realize that you only miss being in my bed. We...

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You came out and told me you “MISS” me. Maybe that means you miss touching me. I shrouded stuff in jokes, but I fucked up and said it back. I shouldn’t have said anything at all because I don’t r...

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UGH…I don’t understand it. We said goodbye. We’ve had time apart. WHY am I sweating this? Why sweat this? Is the meaning that I’m still in love with him? He’s more inappropriate than I am, so doe...

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Truth be told, I’ve been thinking of you. I’ve been missing you. However I’ve been trying to figure out in what way do I miss you? Is it your friendship? Is it your wit, our good times? Or do I j...

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So not too long after burying his mother… His grandfather (who lives here) passed away. The family is still feeling the loss of his mother and now this. I guess it’s been a few weeks ago. On top ...

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Him lost his mother over the Christmas holiday. I sent him an email asking about gadget stuff. I remember a message he sent to me on Instagram and he said he’d talk to me. I know his mom meant a...

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Playing around in my work email, I came across our beginning. I lay with you our first night and it took 10 years for it to dissolve. Replaying the coy me and you and our cat and mouse games. We ...

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I posted a picture of myself. I get a message in my box that, more or less, states your desire for me to email it to you. Ever since we reconnected, the only thing I’ve done is tag you in stuff t...

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I was listening to “The Furthest Thing” by Drake (which is rare for me) and this verse caught my eye: And I hate that you don’t think I belong to ya Just too busy runnin’ shit to run home to ya Y...

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I was just thinking about music and it’s influence. I was thinking about the day you picked me up and I Remember came on. I had spent the day crying about you I think. I forgot what I saw, what h...

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The universe plays way too much. So the entry I wrote about Him the other day the over you yadda yadda? Yeah. I’m waaaaaaaaaaaaay over that shit. He called me at work yesterday to acknowledge tha...

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Hi. Just wanted you to know I dreamed about you again. This time, I wasn’t into you. You tried to seduce me and I simply wasn’t feeling it. I was proud of myself. Will I have this much resolve if...

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