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Me: I don’t know what I’m going to do when AK (gbaby) won’t let me hug and kiss on him anymore. I’m literally going to go crazy. Son: So I will be some famous dude coming to visit you every Sunda...

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…baby daddy money came through today. It was $60 but it was $60 I didn’t have before… Going to my sisters for Thanksgivin, going to take my midterm over there, possibly go grocery shopping on Fri...

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I’m not strong. I just push ahead because I have no choice. After I whine about stuff, I sit back and think for a minute what was it all for? I use to subscribe to the “Everything happens for a r...

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…at least the corner spot has Crown Royal Apple on one of those bar top tap machines… Trying not to be overly bummed. Won’t have a choice. Gotta ride the bus. On purpose. Damn.

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I’m sad because it’s moments like these that make me feel like I have no one reliable in my life. No one I can call at an odd hour and say I need you and they come. My mechanic neighbor wasn’t ar...

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So my day has consisted of absolutely nothing. My friend is on a road trip to California. My son and I went to the burger joint down the street for lunch & stopped at the corner store to pick...

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Matter of fact I am crying. My car didn’t start. Then when it did, it felt and sounded like a trash can inside of a dryer rumbling under my hood. I took a look under the hood but noticed the blac...

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As I finished the final revision and added final touches on the flyer I had a moment of clarity. I work. I go to school and I’m trying to get a business off the ground. Then I thought about a ra...

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When it rains like this and it’s gloomy (though I love rainy days and don’t see the gloom at all) I feel like drinking a cup of coffee. Thick and warm. I need my coffee to taste like ice cream. M...

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I’m thinking… Does it really make sense to pray for peace if this is all part of prophecy? Like Bob Marley sang, “We’ve got to fulfill the book…“ And when peace comes, isn’t that part of the prop...

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I rarely ask my dad for anything. If he gives it, I let him. I won’t hint around the fact that I need anything because I don’t like people doing that to me. So I asked for some money for gas. Jus...

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If you’ve read me enough, you know my titles don’t really mean anything. Then again no one probably reads this much except for the few who find me amusing and even then maybe not so much. Enoug...

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In my freezer sits foil wrapped chicken thighs, two ice trays and a single cornish game hen. In my refrigerator sits a bell pepper, half an onion, a head of cabbage, some baked beans that I cooke...

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I keep thinking that I have to have it all together before I make a committment to something that I know will be long lasting. After thinking about my last entry, I guess in a way I am being self...

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Well, the little girl came over on Monday and helped “find” my son’s hand held game. It was found allegedly behind the shredder. That little girl is a liar. Well, Halloween. I didn’t get to eat a...

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I am not a bad mother because I want to be support to my children. I’m only giving them the support that I never had. My mother could only do so much because she’s been disabled for a long time… ...

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Doubt if I am, but I’m going to hear another speech about how I need to step back and let my son grow up. I think I have in a lot of ways backed off, but there are somethings that I know that he’...

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When we first moved over here and my son started going to the library, he befriended Emily & Olivia. Em is his age and Olivia is like 12 or something like that. Every now and again Em & O...

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Dad spoke about resisting temptation, healing, and refocusing and staying focused. I sat in the pew and listened and I agree with what he was saying. For all the faults my father has, he speaks t...

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…for Halloween, I’m going to line up a bunch of my horror movies and buy a bag of Reese’s peanut butter cups, fries, and some kind of dip and chill at home. ::shrugs:: I don’t know…

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So Lamar Odum woke up. I have a question: What exactly is he in physical therapy for? He was drinking, fuckin, and possibly drugging. What does he need physical therapy for?? He needs mental ther...

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…busy weekends that is… Friday, me, the boy and his lady friend went to the mall. Hung out there till the mall shut down. Went to Steak N Shake and then went to a Walmart to look for a wig for my...

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…to get better at telling people no… ::smdh::

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Homecoming was about as uneventful for my son as I thought it would be, but he went for her and that made her happy. I don’t like her brother/father. With each interaction, I like him less and le...

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These past few days have been… 1) My mother needs to tell my brother to shut up when it comes to me. He gets in her head which causes her to try and lay a guilt trip on me about ANYTHING. 2) When...

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