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I have a question. Not that anyone here can or will talk to me, but I just want to put this out there. When it comes to music, I am a lyricist. I am always looking for the story or the meaning be...

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…but I probably could have been a great one. That’s my problem. I am a person who doesn’t know how to encourage herself. Well, part of my problem. The other part is that I wasn’t guided toward an...

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I don’t hate everyone in my family. Just those who I lived with. And I don’t really hate them, but every time we are around each other, I feel like an outsider because I was always a victim. I wa...

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I dream of being held I miss the connection of skintimacy Not the way most people think of the word Intimacy I like to be held… but to be held feels foreign like the touch is uncomfortable But I ...

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Yeah. I think Tuesday night Karaoke will see me consistently. Last night was fun for it being just a handful of people there. As usual, the owner came through, sang a few songs and did a round of...

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This phrase is what is spoken sometimes after funerals or visitations. The last time I utter these words, I got a whole new asshole created for me by a bus driver. It was kind of funny but at the...

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Again, she wants too much from me. My daughter of course but this time was just a flat out no. She wanted me to co-sign for an apartment for her. She and her boyfriend are talking about moving in...

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On the way home yesterday, I had the worst thought about my mother passing away. Thoughts about her funeral and how I would be treated during the process. I don’t want anyone to die like ever. S...

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So I went to karaoke last night. It was like a two person concert. It was fun. Talked to DJ and he apologized for his behavior on Saturday, stating that he was really drunk. I didn’t notice that ...

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Nothing can make you feel less wanted than the guy you think likes you says TO you, “I’m going to church and then bring a bottle of champagne to my ex’s house, my sons’ mother, and bring in the n...

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Well, I started to write an entry then I didn’t. Thursday, December 31, 2015: I was resigned to spend this evening with my son. His girlfriend said they would be going out to the country for NYE ...

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…just as I thought it would be, only more depressing. I cooked. My son opened his gifts. My daughter was a no call/no show. I probably would have been better off if my niece brought her abusive b...

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…I think I’m coming down with something. Maybe just laryngitis, but hopefully that’s as far as this goes. Trying not to talk so much. Don’t have my phone so no music to sing to. I think I may be ...

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There’s no bad blood between us, but there is a constant sparring of sorts. He’s so transparent I see through his jive ass like glass. Sings the same song ever since I met him, what he’s “trying”...

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This past weekend my sister and I debuted some meatballs. They were good, but missing something. Missing a few things. I like the sauce, but I like the sauce for something else. It was saucy, but...

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So I thought I had the problem licked with their music running through my head. Yesterday morning I actually didn’t have it in my mind and when I was watching the news, the tv traffic dude said, ...

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I ran into nice neighbor guy again and spent a few minutes talking to him. I came home and went to withdraw some money so that I can work toward getting my car fixed. Used a little money I still ...

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My latest obession is The Carpenters. This is what happens. I watch a documentary about an artist and become enamored with the subject. I see and feel their struggles and emotions and I identify ...

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My uncle says, “Hey. Call this one place. They are like specialist with engines. Get a quote.” I call. They want 400 less than the other place. Still too much. They don’t let people pay bit by bi...

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…my minivan is sleeping with the angels…Time called: 1:29pm Friday, December 4th. A hole in the oil pan AND the engine block. Where ever my uncle has it, they are talking $3500 to fix it. $1600 o...

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So my uncle called me the evening of the last entry and asked me about my vehicle. I told him what was going on. Call ended. He sent me a text while I was at work on the next day. Asked if he cou...

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So, went to the store. Uneventful, but I always laugh at myself when I’m listening to music while I’m in the store. I will dance while pushing a cart in a heartbeat while lipsynching and feeling ...

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Listen as your day unfolds Challenge what the future holds Try to keep your head up to the sky

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Still sulking a little about the car situation. My son and I talked last night and we both came to the conclusion that, we’ve been here before. We’ve not had a car for a long time. We’ve been on ...

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When I look back and see the friendships that I’ve had and see how they have deteriorated, it hurts. Those same friends that have done for me as I have for them, but. I went the extra mile. I’ve...

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