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I am on a couple of medications right now. Coupled with my sleeping weirdly and work, I’ve not been feeling my best. I went to bed after work. Well, I cleaned my stove off really good and washed ...

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“When someone has my attention, that’s my focus. I can’t tell if I want to pursue someone if I’m distracted by other people, even if for comparisons sake. I don’t entertain anyone grinning in my ...

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I just had this dream. I got up and was on my way to work. I worked in the office side of a casino. I don’t think I usually went in the casino side to go to work, but I knew if I got on a partic...

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No not like that. I’m sorry for the misleading title. I spent time with noob yesterday. Still trying to process it. He is abrasive. No. He is forward. At least I know his intention. He forces me...

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I never can sleep in no matter how late I go to bed. So the next items up for bid in my happenings… There have been several deaths. Last Friday, there was a funeral for one of our family’s longti...

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My lanta. Where do I begin? Grandson didn’t have covid. We have been relatively safe. He started back to school two days a week this month and as of Monday, they are 100% virtual again. My daught...

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....for not writing. I mean, I’ve been trying, but I’ve been pulled every where lately. I say I don’t feel so bad because I logged in and bot many are updating either. I’ve been worried about my ...

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Yeah…so that friend who alluded to suicide is not dead. A few days after his proposed “expiration date”, he hopped on Facebook, asking his ex wife from long ago to get in touch with him. The thin...

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So in typing my entry the other day, I made a play on this word. Then I got to thinking. I looked at it and I really believe that it’s just a fancy way to spell “gina” so it won’t look so crass ...

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That’s what the elders would say. Elders and church folks. Man. It’s been crazy. Well. It’s been what it’s gonna be. Let me say that. This past Saturday was little cousin’s birthday. He would ha...

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…which would contradict what I wrote in my last entry. That I need boring. Nah. I’m not bored. I am agitated because I caved. Daughter wants to go to karaoke. I’d rather watch the boys than she l...

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I don’t like saying this especially to my grandbabies. They wanted to come over. It’s not like they don’t spend time with me or at my house. It’s just not good for real. I need to recharge and I ...

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I have not slept properly for a while, but it’s been really bad. Tuesday, of course, was the day of the funeral. I was drained and tired and then had to watch the oldest grandson since daughter h...

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Today was the day we funeralized my little cousin. It was bittersweet. We were all broken down for real. Before hand, I thought I would be asked to sing, but when I never got a call about it, I ...

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As I lay in bed Saturday morning, getting my head right for the memorial service I was going to for step Auntie, siblings woke up and started sending text messages back and forth. Good mornings a...

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Today is the birthday of my daughter. We started arguing over text messages last night because she is who she is. It picked back up this morning because she wanted speak her piece and she wanted ...

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I know I do. I also got it honest. I also have the right to do so. I reserve the right to kick folks when they are down, but I never do it because I don’t believe in doing so, even if they tre...

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My step aunt passed away on last Thursday. My stepmom says once she lets out a good scream she will be okay. Otherwise, she is processing. Her children are not really good. Cousin Preacha had tho...

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I talked to my kids father. I sent him a text of condolence and he called. I wasn’t going to leak tears until I did. He sounded…hollow. As he should, I suppose. He told me what all happened. I di...

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That’s something I tend to say at the outcome of something. My children’s other grandmother passed away from having COVID-19 about 2 hours ago. My daughter called me I’m guessing after she found...

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I have no new thoughts on what to do for money. My buddy said to “vision board that shit and get busy.” or something like that. I’ve got no vision, no boards. Just vague ideas. I asked a question...

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And if I am, why me?? I guess the follow up question would be Why not?? On a trip from the restroom at 5 am I got a call. It wasn’t from my mom, the number unfamiliar. I let it go. After it stopp...

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I’ve had a few days to get over the foolishness of the earlier part of this week. In the middle of it all, stepmother’s sister is in the hospital. Whatever God’s will, so be it. I was called and ...

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emphasized textI really need my dreams interpreted. It started at my uncle’s house which, in some features looked like my dad’s house. It was decorated very briefly for Christmas which was odd b...

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I went out with friend/coworker after work yesterday. I’m still not too keen on being out in these COVID streets, but it gave me a chance to hang out with someone grown that I’m not related to. ...

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