And then the downer *Edit in Hello.

I was dead happy with myself for deciding to shave my head. I mean, it’s been something I’ve been tempted to do on numerous occasions because sometimes I’m just so fed up with my hair. Don’t get me wrong, I love having long hair, but because of how badly I’ve been treating it these past few years, it’s just in such bad condition. I haven’t bleached it in almost a year and already I can see how healthy my dark blonde roots look. So rather than just doing it and people thinking I’d finally flipped, I decided I’d get sponsored to do it for a good cause, after I saw the advert on telly.

I made the announcement on Facebook and went to work today expecting everyone to be really supportive. Two people, one of them being my supervisor, asked me about it and added “have you run it past Dawn? (The manager.)” Of course I didn’t run it past Dawn, I didn’t feel the need to ask my boss if I could cut my hair off! It’s not as if I’m getting a facial piercing, visible tattoo or dying my hair bright blue (none of which I’d do whilst working for this company anyway). I decided to do it and made the announcement before I changed my mind! The company is quite an old, traditional one, so I can understand their wanting us to look smart, which I usually do.

As it happens, Dawn is away on holiday for two weeks now, so I feel as if I shouldn’t really put my sponsor form in the staff room until I’ve -ahem- asked her permission.

I mean, it was always my intention to get a wig anyway, to wear until my hair was long enough to cut into a cute little pixie style or something. So it’s not going to be a problem. But I feel so deflated about it. :( So much so that I started feeling a bit teary, thinking about my dad and his gammy eye.

Then I was told by three people that I should make a big thing about it, like arrange a coffee morning or a raffle or something. I didn’t want to make a fuss, no one else gets paid to have a hair cut! I didn’t want to make it complicated, I just wanted to cut my fucking hair, lol!

Anyway. I’m torn between getting a wig that’s about the length my hair is now (just past my shoulders) or getting one that’s quite short so when I do actually feel brave enough to remove the wig at work, it won’t be quite so much of a shock. I’m definitely getting it in dark blonde and I’ve had quite a few tips from people in the dread group on Facebook about styles, how to care for a wig, good brands, etc. I should maybe have a go on one of those “try a hairstyle” apps to see what suits me.

EDIT:
Feeling a lot better now. Firstly, I’ve reached my £100 target. In fact, I’ve exceeded it in just over 24 hours! Some amazing anonymous person has kindly donated £50!!! If that’s someone on here, I thank you very much! :)

Secondly, I’ve bought a wig. A shortish bob, in dark blonde with lighter blonde streaks, closer to my natural colour. It was only cheap, but the company seem to have good reviews on eBay. If it looks awful, I’ll just sell it on and put it down to experience.

Thirdly, I’ve been trying to see how I’d look with short hair. I pinned it back and swept my fringe to one side. I looked a bit um....butch…but once I’d done my makeup and painted in my brows, it looked remarkably good! Crazily, this 42 year old has only recently learnt how to do eyebrows and I find that my face looks a lot better with them. And I tried that vintage nude eyes, red lips look and I really liked what I saw. With my long hair, I could never carry it off without doing a vintage hairstyle as well. So, we’ll see, short hair may be the way forward for me, with a mad collection of wigs, lol!

I’m looking forward to doing it now, eee!

Last updated August 10, 2015