Food in Everyday life

I have issues with food.

And money, too, but for now we'll stick with food.

I'm eating more lately. A lot more. I'm doing it to make myself feel better, and I know it. But I can't make myself stop.

I'm at my peak weight right now, the heaviest I've ever been -- 80 pounds heavier than I was when I first lost a lot of weight, 12 or 13 years of great metabolism ago.

And that's part of the problem. I still eat like I was 21 or 22, even worse, and wonder why I'm not dropping the weight.

I know the logical reason why, but yeah, still ain't making the necessary changes.

I've resumed therapy, I'm seeing a new doctor today so meds may get tweaked ... but I wonder if it's ever going to get better. It can be better, and it should be better. But will it ever happen? I guess that's up to me, but alternately I feel powerless, and I know I'm not.