SailorMoonMom ⋅ 37 ⋅
I am a mother of 2. I am just looking for somewhere to vent, post my thoughts, maybe get some feedback without airing my dirty laundry under my actual name.
"Expect the worst, hope for the best."
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An AI. He misses a damn AI. When he first told me about it I was a bit weirded out, but then he explained what he got out of it. He said it reminded him of us when we were younger, sans kids. Th...
This isn't complaining in Age 36
My husband has been going through the ringer at work. I may not fully understand it, but I have seen the effects of it physically. I think when I saw that it hit me how real his struggle was. Si...
I don't know to mourn in Age 36
It occurs to me that I do not know how to mourn. I am an RN and worked both ICU and ER so I have seen my fair share of death, and I have even had a couple of aunts die whom I was kinda close to, ...
Why wont' it go away? in Age 36
I am going to therapy. I am journaling. I am taking my meds. Why won’t these feelings of inadequacy go away? I think they started last night when my husband said that he had booked a cabin for hi...
These feelings are not getting better in Age 36
It was about two weeks ago that I had my last bout of anxiety where I hurt myself. Since then I have been trying to cope. Mind you I have not done exactly everything I was before. Walking for exa...
Here for my fix in Age 36
strong textFrom my entries of mental health I have noticed that there are a lot of people who relate to what I am saying. Your comments are…comforting. It sucks that any one of us are going throu...
Today was a good day in Age 36
Yes, this is a line from Ice Cube’s song, but you know what? Its true. I just finished 3, 12 hour shifts and I have only 1 day off, and then back for 2 more. It sucks. My scheduling is a story fo...
Part of me wants to stop therapy. I am 8 sessions in and I know that I need it. I had a “relapse” about 2 weeks ago. If you have read my stuff before you know it gets bad. This time around I used...
I can't do this anymore in Age 36
I didn’t wake up today expecting an ‘episode.’ I had a great morning. My son had mother’s day tea at his school. I went and did my mom’s nails. It was a good morning. I decided to pick up a night...
Not just feeling, but I am a failure in Age 36
I have been having a lot of stuff plague my family, not so much me. I have very emotional, detached, and wanted to escape. Avoiding if you will. I think this morning I have come to realization of...
Not just feeling, but I am a failure in Age 36
I have been having a lot of stuff plague my family, not so much me. I have very emotional, detached, and wanted to escape. Avoiding if you will. I think this morning I have come to realization of...
Being married is, when you’re with a person that does not beat you, abuse you, etc, beautiful. I love being married. I love my life. Its not perfect by any means. And he annoys me to hell and bac...
Very hot headed in Age 36
I don’t know how long I can keep going. At this point my job is giving me a bit of stress. Boss says we can’t do a certain thing though the intentions behind it were done innocently. Ehh, Wrong. ...
Anxiety episode in Age 36
I’m here at work and I can totally function, but my mind is a scrambled mess. There are so many thoughts in my head. I can’t silence them. I have tried most of my coping mechanisms, but they are ...
I don't know why I'm so angry in Age 36
I can’t discern how I feel. I know I feel like I have a short fuse right now. Everything makes me snap. What I can’t figure out is what. I have a few things going on in my mind. One, and the thin...
I've only dated one man in Age 36
I love listening to podcasts that talk about the modern dating paradigm…or lack there of. Quick background. I am 36 the hubbs is 35. We met when I was 18 and he was 17. We were each other’s first...
Ode to Nursing (healthcare) in Age 36
I just had my 14th anniversary with my license as an RN. I cannot begin to express how much I love this career. It has given me a purpose, my income to provide for my family and myself, and so ma...
Christmas 2023 in Age 36
This may sound like an end of the year post, but it really is a Christmas post. Be warned now: I am Christian so for me Christmas is about Jesus. That said, if anyone has read any previous posts ...
I've reached that level of parenthood in Age 36
I have a 3 yo daughter and a 6 yo son. I think I have reached that level where they are so loud that I can’t hear myself think. They run around and scream. Our house isn’t very big, and even if i...
The feeling is still there in Age 36
So I wrote how I have been feeling lately. Therapist yesterday said to take a walk when the feelings started to get to intense, but at the onset. Holy crap may I say that that works. I was very s...
Mental into physical in Age 36
I don’t know what set me over the edge. I don’t know what exactly has me feeling this way. My head is full of thoughts about inadequacy, mainly that I am inadequate. I can’t quiet them. Then they...
What the hell is wrong with me in Age 36
I don’t know what I am feeling right now. I had such a great day with my kids yesterday. We went to this museum that my son loved and that my daughter got to play around in. I then saw my brother...
It feels good in Age 36
Right now things feel good. I had a parent teacher conference since its that time of year, and I spoke to my son’s instructor. At the beginning of the school year he wasn’t doing so well. Easily ...
First appointment with therapist in Age 36
So I had written that my mental health had taken a dump after my son was hospitalized. (Read previous entries titled ‘Son Hospitalized’ for further details.) I booked the appointment way back in ...
My new friend is leaving in Age 36
My brother in law has his lady friend from France over, Priya. I didn’t know what I was expecting when I first really met her and had to entertain her, but we actually got along really well. I po...
