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Correction On The Accident
I’m the cause of the accident by running a red light.
R.I.C.E. Method
Rest, Ice, Compression, Elevate I didn’t get a shot from the doc but a prescription for an arthritis gel. Luckily they have an over the counter one that was under $10. So, I’m on the couch, le...
Wizard's Dungeon (4:04 AM)
Spider-Man: No Way Home is on. This is the second Marvel movie I’ve watched tonight. Avengers Endgame was on much earlier. To everyone who offered comfort in my last entry, thank you. I am goi...
Laid Up
My left knee is swollen and hurts bad. Tendonitis. Goldfinger is on TV. Near the end where he gets sucked out of the plane window. How the Hell did they get away with naming a character Pussy G...
Happy Thanksgivin' Y'all!
Went out to my aunt’s. Cousin made her bad ass brined turkey. She got the recipe from Ree Drummand, The Pioneer Woman on Food Network. It looks dry when it comes out the oven but it is the jui...
Mom
She bought me a new TV tonight as both a reward for one month sober and as my only Christmas gift lol. Since we got home and I got it all squared away I’ve been gaming. Ahhh I’ve missed it.
Intervention The Show
This show depresses me. Not for what the person or their family are going through. It’s the fact that if my family held one for me only my mom and aunt would show up. If my cousin (whose like ...
2:34 AM Insomnia
Thirty-fuckin’-days-sober!
This Is So Effing Stupid!
I’ve been white knuckling it the better part of the evening with alcohol cravings. I know Ill be sick. I know I’ll be splashing my guts out rectally. I know Ill sleep too late or not enough. ...
3:00 AM
My brain was trying to convince me earlier that a twelve pack of cheap beer and playing guitar would be really fun. I didn’t cave. Hand/eye coordination would go out the window and I’d end up d...
Restless
I slept in WAY too late Sunday. Past 1 PM, too late. But as I said in the previous entry, my back and hip hurt, I was stoned on pain pills and got into a super comfy nook wrapped in my blanket ...
High As A Kite
Plus really tired. It wasn’t part of the tooth but a piece of bone fragment that didn’t fully come out when said tooth was extracted. The doc was able to pick it out and I’m much relieved. He ga...
Mentally And Physically Hurting
I’ve felt so alone today. My mouth hurts and is a bit swollen. I almost drank tonight but didn’t. Sat and stewed in self pity instead. Dentist in 9 1/2 Hours. I need sleep. But I don’t wann...
Fuck This This
Been in a mood today. Rolled my tongue of the area where the tooth was pulled and felt a pain as it slide over a sharp point. Great! I still have a bit of said tooth in there. I get to go back ...
Owie Wowie
Got that last bad tooth taken care of yesterday. It’s tender. A little whole ago I was annoying mom, constantly talking and poking her with the back scratcher when I got the brilliant idea to fa...
Craving Tha Sauce!
After dinner I got a craving for alcohol. It’s all about finding a distraction. Luckily I had Candy Crush and YouTube.
Better Than Yesterday
Today has shaped up to be a lot better than yesterday. Left over pot roast for brunch, went and got an Icee, came home and jammed on the guitar for a bit, felt even more restless so did a two mil...
Funk (Updated]
Mom said some really mean things to me earlier today and I’ve been in a crappy mood since. I wanted to get some alcohol to ease the moodiness but again, I reminded myself of the broken TV set and...
4:32 AM Pain And Two Weeks Sober
Gah! The left side of my face hurts. It’s around the gum line where I had two teeth pulled last year. Mom and I were munching on some crackers and homemade chicken salad when one of the cracke...
🎃Happy Halloween, Y'all!🎃
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Quote From Moonraker
All the signs pointed to paranoia. Delusions of grandeur, and behind that, of persecution. The contempt in his face. The bullying voice. The expression of secret triumph with which he had met ...
Mucho Better
My stomach feels much better. Didn’t get sick but still hung out in the bathroom longer than I wanted to. It’s raining so now track walking for me today. Dreary Sunday morning. I need to fin...
I Don't Feel Good
My stomach feels super queasy. Either it was the left over enchilada I had for brunch or the Manwich I ate for dinner. Either or, my tummy is on a spin cycle and for once it’s not alcohol relat...
Nac Mac Feegle!
Nac Mac Feegle! The Wee Free Men! Nae king! Nae quin! Nae laird! Nae master! We willna’ be fooled again! I’m hungry…and starting to miss gaming.
Double Digits!
Ten days sober!
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
