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Five Days
Sober. Doesn’t sound like much but it means the world to me. Especially seeing how it’s a Friday night and I have no plans of poisoning myself.
Slept
The meds are reducing the swelling and took some of the pain away. I had a crappy sleep all night till somewhere around 7 or 8 this morning I crashed hard. Solid, uninterrupted sleep till 2 PM. ...
9 AM Yesterday
Till 9:14 PM now, I’ve been awake. The gout medicine is working(ish). Still hurts but more manageable. I don’t know how I’ve not passed out yet. Yeah, I’m tired but joints in my big toe feel...
Hurt
I want to scream into a pillow. Part of my right foot is swollen from a really bad gout flare up. This is yet another reason I shouldn’t drink. Seriously, the whole joint around my big toe is ...
Yet Another Update
Take out for lunch. Order of wings and shrimp with lobster sauce. Because I’ve only eaten like one meal in three days it filled me for hours and more of my ickiness went away. Hands are still ...
I'm Not Sleeping Tonight
I dozed off a little after 9 and slept almost an hour. I’d like more than that but my brain won’t shut up. Finally managed to eat a bowl of cereal so my stomach isn’t aching anymore. I’m going...
Somewhat Better
I still haven’t eaten yet. Got a 2 Liter of Sprite and slowly sipping on that right now. I’m really tired. I dozed for like thirty minutes this afternoon but I can’t get comfy now. It’s been...
Burning Up
I’ve got a fever and have thrown up a few times. Someone bring me a Sprite? I’ve got the fan on but still feel hot. Ugh Hours later… Managed to take a shower. Still haven’t eaten and I’ve got ...
Fudge-tastic!
Woke up and now can’t get back to sleep. It’s not even 4 AM.
😝
Slather me in pancake syrup and stick a dildo up my butt. I’m horny. And in typical fashion, thanks to the meds, I can’t get off. It’s 3:33 AM and I’ve got a crusty face from drooling during s...
Begs And Achin'
Both of my knees today suck. Ain’t it the truth.
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Cause reasons. It’s 6:38 AM and I’m counting down till 11. My aunt is coming down so mom, her and I are going to Ichiban Japanese Steakhouse. The food is delicious! It’s one of those places wh...
Still Disturbs Me
Herbie Hancock - Rockit It’s the unnatural movements. Weirded me out as a child. Still does.
Thunderball
Just finished the novel. Pretty good. I love the casual racism/sexism in these books. In this politically correct world reading stuff from the 50’s makes me crack up.
Clarification About Court
Okay. A continuation was filed so my next court date is March 15th. The judge I saw today was a fill in since the other is out. My lawyer explained to me that the regular judge is big on “ment...
Interesting Turn Of Events
So, since my only conviction was more than ten years ago, I’m only looking at probation if he can’t get it dismissed. Sweet. Huge weight off my shoulders. However, it was embarrassing walking...
Not Sleeping Tonight
4:08 AM. Court at 8:30. Bit nervous.
Nobby Knee
I’m pretty sure I knocked my knee when tossing and turning in my sleep, it hurts. The swelling is gone but it’s still really tender. I’d like to trade my almost 40 year old body for my 20 year...
Kitty Broth
Lily helped herself to the broth of my soup I ate a little while ago. Silly kitty. Nothing is laid out for dinner so it’s up to me to pick out a place. I’m not really sure what I want. It’s on...
That Wasn't Good
We went to our usual Chinese restaurant yesterday. None of the food tasted right. Still not feeling 100%. Our favorite waiter is moving to Virginia at the end of the month so mom tipped him go...
Feel Awful
I can’t seem to shake this effing cold. Woke up feeling awful. Now when I cough my stomach muscles cramp up. Screw this noise!
I Want Jail Time
It’s the break/vacation I’ve been needing. No phone, one TV, people ready to beat you down. Psych Ward 2.0
Twenty Plus Years Later
This album means a lot to me. First one I truly listened to after moving into this house. I still struggle for sleep…
Snotty
I’m getting better but now hacking up all the mucus. Mmm mmm good! Keep having a reoccurring dream where I’m going into public places with no shoes on. Weird. Speaking of public places ma and ...
Rested Yet Tired
I’ve slept good the last two nights, thanks to the meds and being sick. But I’m still just so tired. Granted I did do dishes and two loads of laundry today. Just wanna curl up and sleep. Final...
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
